Tonks,
I thought I didnt love you.And yet the world broke into a million piece when you werent there.Im so sorry I couldnt...think..
believe...that there could be an us.You loved me.For who I am.You didnt care.You never cared.
I miss you.I miss Sirius.God.This war,its tearing all of us apart.Im watching the children.They shouldnt
be called children anymore.Theyve seen too much.I look into his emerald eyes,they used to shine,now..I just see pain and a sick realization that he will die if he can not stop Voldemort.I hate him.I hate that he did this to someone so young.Ronald is dead.I remember when Molly heard.She cried for days.She didnt stop.Hermione sat next to her bed as her loud sobs kept going on forever.Hermione looks at Harry now with a dead stare.She doesnt blame him,she keeps going.
I wish you were still here to give her her.You two were so close and I never really understood it.You were so different from her.But the two of you were so close,best of friends.Ginny didnt seem to mind I noticed.Preoccupied with Harry.It was good for all of you.I began to think she became numb after you died.I miss you,have I said that already?She misses you.I can see that she blames me.Its in her brown eyes,so full of pain.I guess everyone's eyes are like that now.Molly is up now,if youre wondering.She has a duty to fufill.Just like all of us.I think I am the only one still not moving.Im not working without you Tonks.I love you and I miss you.God.Please.If only I was there.But you said our duty comes first.I loved that about you.I hate Dumbledore for sending me back to that damned place underground.Even in death that crazy old man holds me.
I wish I can hold you in my arms again Tonks.I wont make it without you.So wait for me while I finish this war,only for Harry.Only because he is still breathing and smiling when he can.Please,please,wait for me.
-Remus Lupin,forever yours
