Guess what's baaaaaaack?
LIE TO ME?
Noooo. Really?
OMFGGGGG. XD
Ok, so because there is too much happy going around this is the first of two angsty fics I will be posting today. I like to even out the mood. ;)
Apologies. :')
HAPPY LIE TO ME DAY.
You hold back the urge to laugh bitterly at his futile attempts. His eyes shine with all the words he wishes he could say. He usually tries to conceal them for your benefit. At this stage you don't really care much anyway.
He wants to tell you how he feels. He wants to tell you that he loves you. Wants to hold you. He loves you. He does.
Or at least he would if he could.
You don't believe in love anymore anyway. You used to. But then again, you used to believe in a lot of things.
Truth, happiness, purpose.
And love.
The one that everyone says will complete you. Once you find it your life will never be the same again.
What they neglect to say is how much it can completely fuck you up. How that once it's gone you don't really even believe you ever had it in the first place.
How good memories suddenly turn sour and get stored at the back of your mind.
How things that once made you smile now make you grimace.
How you become a cynical woman with a large empty space inside.
You can appreciate the good things. The sun shining on your face, the wind blowing the leaves around your feet, a hot cup of coffee in the morning.
You have not lost your optimism. You have simply lost the will to love. You have long forgotten the feeling of waking up wrapped in someone's arms.
You have found that you've become accustomed to waking up alone; making meals for one. Not having to share your life with someone.
You have recently realised that love was just never meant for you.
You like being alone. It becomes you.
So as he bares his soul through his eyes you ignore it; because, really, it is better off this way.
Review if you are so inclined.
I'll be busy watching LTM.
:')
