Title: I'll Mend Yours While You Break Mine
Pairing(s): onesided!mikado/shizuo, onesided!shizuo/izaya
Prompt: To Shizuo... Mikado is just a replacement for (insert person here).
Mikado knows this... but he doesn't have the heart to leave Shizuo, knowing that the man is practically broken inside.
Mikado just doesn't know that he, himself is breaking while he slowly mends Shizuo.
A/N: Written for the drrr! kink meme over at LJ. Implied shizaya because they're my otp |D.
He sighs into the man's arms, into the embrace of the most feared man within the entire city. He feels his heart thud a bit too quickly and his breath a bit too short, a slight flush prominent upon his pale skin. The small content smile that grazes his lips only a temporary thing.
Mikado realizes that to Shizuo, he is nothing more than someone to fill the void within his mangled, broken heart. A mangled mess that Mikado calls beautiful while others would call it ugly. He realizes that despite the fact that he is simply a replacement for someone else, he can't complain all that much. And even though he realizes this, feels the effects of it every single time Shizuo mentions that bastard of a person, he can't bring himself to leave this broken man. He simply loves him too much to ever attempt it. It would be like cutting off his own air supply and Shizuo losing his only support.
A fool, others call him.
If he was a fool then he was a fool in love, and he's perfectly content with that title so long as he gets to feel Shizuo's soft caresses and small chaste kisses that were so unlike the brute strength he showcased out in the lights and watching eyes of the city. So long as he was able to stay within those arms that were both frighteningly powerful and lovingly soft. Only like this, arms tight around the blond man and nose buried into the soft blond locks that smelled so nice, can he live.
But all the while Mikado doesn't seem to realize just how much he breaks in the process of attempting to make Shizuo forget all about him, the one he declares so vehemently to hate but in actuality loves so much, the one he can't help but hate because he took his precious Shizuo away from him, his own love. He never really comes to realize that as he attempts to mend that shattered heart (that gets cut to pieces by a sharp blade again and again and again, countless times in a day, in a week, in a month - in a lifetime), he breaks his own in the process.
It was like an endless cycle - a trade off, attempt to fix his heart and break his own all the meanwhile. A slow process that kills him. A slow, excruciatingly snail paced process that barely does much for Shizuo.
Shizuo who can't help but love his enemy. Shizuo who is often misunderstood and feared. Shizuo, the man Mikado has fallen for so hard under such a short amount of time.
His own personal heartbreaker. But he keeps on loving anyways.
A/N: Rather short, I know. I did the best I could and it's probably not that great but I hope you guys liked it. Reviews and concrit would be greatly appreciated, thanks!
