HIchiIchi FanFic
Swallow Me Whole, and Drown Me Slowly
A.N.: I'm writing this because I love this pairing so much!
Ichigo: WHAT YOU'RE STICKING ME WITH SHIRO!?
Shiro: What the matter King, can't take me?
Ichigo:*Super Scowl* IS THAT A CHALLENGE?
Shiro: Sure why not?*smirk*
Ichigo:OK YOU'RE ON!*Grabs Shiro and runs to bedroom*
J.S.:Sorry you had to witness that, well shall we move on?
Disclaimer: I do not own any Bleach characters or settings. They belong Kubo Tite and the Bleach storyline.
(I do own my OC(s) that do not belong in Bleach if I decide to put them there ^^)
Warnings: YAOI (don't like, don't read); Indirect Self-harm; Depression; Violence; Character Bashing(I don't know exactly how many characters will get dissed)
"Speech"
'Thoughts'
'ShiroThoughts'
"ShiroSpeech"
Chapter 1- A Few Toes to Test the Water
Ichigo P.O.V.
Lying on my bed, all I could see was red. The only thing I could do these days was get angry. But, it makes sense since the only other thing I do lye around and reminisce. I had lost my shinigami powers. Most of the shinigami had died during the Winter War. I feel blind now knowing that there was another world that I couldn't even sense a trace of.
While it is true I've been getting super angry lately, I have kept it under control... Let me rephrase that, almost under control. I have been a bit anti-social, and snap at anyone who tries to talk to me... Who am I kidding, I'm going insane. I should actually be proud of myself for not getting physical with anyone (A.N.: not in a sexual way you hentais). I swear I was about punch my dad in the nose. Maybe it's built up energy, I got a lot more energy back when I-...Great, now I'm not only mental, but now I'm one of those batty war hawks that only talk and think about their time in the forces.
"ICHIGO! TIME FOR DINNER!" yelled Karin. Overall, Karin is the only one that can calm me down. I still adore Yuzu, but I can't help but envy her obliviousness. My dad, though, he's just an ass about it. He keeps telling me to let it go, move on. But, how can someone move one when their life only revolved something in their past. I can't look ahead, too much death, too much blood, and too much lost. Now, these 'talks' escalate into full-fledged yelling contests. It gets to the point where I just have to leave before I hurt him.
I walk towards the kitchen. I doubt I look halfway decent in sweatpants and sweatshirt, but even if I did try, my clothes look a size to big to fit me. I lost a lot of weight when I entered my 'depression'. Even so I'm still decently ripped. I enter the kitchen and walk past the man I now call Bastard, formerly referred to as my father. I nod when Karin recognizes my presence with her usual greeting. I continue past the table until I'm almost exiting the kitchen through the front entrance.
"Ichigo, where do you think your going at this hour in the night?" questions Bastard.
"Out."
"Ichigo you need to eat." What's up with Bastard and the questions.
"I'm not hungry."
"I didn't ask whether you wanted to eat or not. Come sit down. Now."
"No."
"YOU LITTLE SHIT! YOU'VE SPENT THE LAST 3 MONTHS IN YOUR ROOM CRYING AN BITCHING ABOUT YOUR FUCKING PAST! I'M TIRED OF THE DAMN BEHAVIOR! SO YOU CAN SIT YOUR ASS DOWN AT THE TABLE, OR LEAVE LIKE THE DEPRESSED WHORE YOUR ARE!"
"FINE BASTARD! I SEE HOW YOU WANT IT! I'LL BE OUT OF THIS GOD DAMN SHIT HOLE AS SOON AS I PACK MY CRAP! SO YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY YOUR LITTLE ALPHA MALE PANTIES ABOUT MY FUCKED UP LIFE ANYMORE!"
And on that note I walked upstairs prepared to live on the streets if I had to.
After 15 minutes I was walking out of the house to be stopped by my little sisters. Yuzu was almost in tears when she said,"Are you really leaving Ichi-nii?"
"Yeah Yuzu, I won't be coming back."
"Why?"(Yuzu)
"Because if I stay here any longer, I'll probably beat dad pretty bad."
"M'-Kay I-I-Ichi-nii."(Yuzu)
"Bye Ichi-nii, you better come to my games to see Yuzu."(Karin)
"Of course Karin."
It was a lie, but I had to get out of there fast. I left that house immediately after, not wanting to feed my ever growing rage and irritation with the waterworks. I continued walking, my feet carrying me in no certain direction. The flame know as my anger was growing by the second with the recurring thoughts of Bastard. 'Damn him. If he didn't want a fucked up son then he should have kept me away from those bastards in the Soul Society'. I became resolute in the belief that Fate really hated me. I mean, it left me here alone, angry, broken. Yeah the part of me that made me human, a person per say, it's all gone now. I left it at that house, I'm no longer a human being.
'So what are we then, King?'
A.N.: So I'll end it there. I'll try to update every weekend, but I may get my computer taken away (I'm only a Freshman) so if I don't update I may have to get my friend to upload it for me. (^_^')
I also got a really good story on my favorites list called White Decide by 99rain99. It's AMAZING if you love this pairing! I also have a deviantart... My name is colorofdeath.
~See ya soon! ^^
