Friends, Family, Love and Triangles

Prologue-Diary Entry 1

June 12th 2005

Dear Diary,

Is it possible to already be in love with someone? I'm 18, I've just finished High School at La Push High and yet I have already found the man of my dreams. His name is Sam and he is amazing. He's amazing to the point where I have a list that only two others have seen, those two being my best friend and second cousin Emily as well as my little cousin Kim who is also a good friend. The list of Sam includes:

The smile he wears whenever he sees me. He looks a bit like the Cheshire cat from Alice in Wonderland but I like. It makes him look so cute and harmless.

The way he hugs me when I've had a bad day. That hug gives me the same warm feeling that seeing Kim running round chasing butterflies used to give me…she hasn't done that since she was about 6.

The way he treats my cousins. I'm the oldest kid in the family, so protecting my younger brother and cousins is a big thing for me. Sam is constantly coming round and playing games with them, he buys them presents too. One time, Kim was being picked on at school so Sam took her for ice cream and then bought her favourite magazine for her. I think she might still have it…

His endless dark eyes, I could stare into them all day.

The midnight texts he sends me to let me know he loves me and to say goodnight, even when I don't have enough credit to text him back.

The flower's he buys me every Friday. He's done that ever since we started going out, which was on a Friday-I got roses that day, he buys me rose's once a month now.

The way he's happy to watch Power Rangers with the kids when we babysit them. Yes, I have to babysit my brother and four of cousins at the same time usually as my parents and my auntie and uncle are at a council meeting.

The way he waits for me every day after school, rain or shine. He'll be standing there at the school gates for me. We do go to the same school, but he usually gets out 5 minutes before me so he'll wait until I get out.

The way he'll act like Kim's bodyguard if he sees her being picked on at school. It's quite funny really. Kim is almost at the end of her freshman year, but when she was in middle school, Sam would go up to her and say 'Is everything ok, Miss Clearwater?' with a straight face that is somehow a bit sarcastic and devious at the same time, as well as threatening.

The way his hair looks in the rain. Sam has quite long hair at the moment, as do most of the Quileute boys at the moment, which he ties into a ponytail at the nape of his neck. When it's raining, though, some of the shorter strands stick to his face in this adorable way. I don't know how I find it adorable, I just do…

And the list goes on and on.

I just wish he was here. Sam has been missing for three days now. His mum came round to see if I knew where he was. I've texted him and called him- every time it went straight to voicemail. I miss him and I want to know if he's ok. Absolutely no one has heard from him nor seen him. Every night I have nightmares of things that could've or might have happened to him and every time I wake up in sweaty and in a fit of panic.

Best hopes for a better day tomorrow,

Leah Mary-Anne Clearwater