I Wish You're Mine
A/N: Hello! This is my first fan fiction. I hope you'll like it.=)
Disclaimer: I don't own Gakuen Alice.
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I love her. I knew it. I suddenly knew it. But can I make her mine? Can I make her mine if I know that it's very impossible?
She always keeps distance.
It's been a while since she started ignoring me. I can't talk to her nicely. I can't tell her what I need to say. Whenever we're together alone, she always keep herself doing other things so that she'll feel alone by herself.
She stopped blackmailing/teasing, not only me but also Natsume.
I didn't know why, but she stopped doing weird things that could help her make money. She is now acting as if a normal person. Not that I'm saying that she's not normal. I mean, she's always been greater than most of us.
She changed.
Her smile, which is very rare before, can now be seen daily. And her laughs also. Hotaru became a lot friendlier now.
Maybe. . . it's really my fault. Maybe, she do all these things because of that.
Flashback
It's a nice day. Why am I here with this girl who makes my life worse than it was before? She was standing in front of me. I wonder what's got into her to invite me here. Here in the Northern Forest.
"Why are we here?" I asked keeping my cool. "I want you to explain what's with me. She answered. "How can I know if it's about you?" I asked again. "Just listen." She answered in a monotone voice that made me froze.
"Explain why my heart is pounding so fast every time I see you, especially when you smile. Why am I worrying every time you're with other girls? Explain why I feel so hurt when you're near Mikan? Explain…please…" she told me.
What I heard made me shocked. Am I hearing her right? I didn't expect this how am I going to respond? i heard many confessions from my fan girls, and I know what to say. But now, it's different. Hotaru is different. Very different.
I turned around. Not even thinking twice I told her, "Sorry. But forget whatever your feelings for me are." Then, there's silence.
I turned again to see her. There were tears forming at the corner of her eyes. Her nose and cheeks were obviously color red. This was the first time I saw her like that
She turned around. I could see that the tears fall as she turns.
"I see. It's not important, right? I-I guess, I need to go now… Bye!"
End of Flashback
I really want to stop her that time. But my body didn't move. What I said were exactly the opposite. But I knew it just now. I regret that I said those to her. I hate myself for being so numb! Why am I like this?! I shouldn't have doubted my feelings for her. Now. . . I feel so hurt . . . she became so close to that Hayate Matsudaira. . . I touched my chest. . . there's something in my heart… it's like. . .it's being struck by a thousand needles. Suddenly, I felt that tears fall down from my cheeks
I hate watching them from a distance… I hate seeing her smile because of that guy… I want to be there with her instead of him.. I want to make her smile and laugh… I wish I didn't say those words because honestly, I wish Hotaru Imai is mine.
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Well. . . That's it!!! I hope you liked it. Please tell me what you think of it. I'll accept everything you'll say 'cause I know it'll help me to be a better writer.:) Bye-bye!
