When you love someone, you love them with all of your heart. That is how I loved Francis. I have done many shameful mistakes in my life, such as that affair with Conde. I am so angry with myself about that. How could I love another man, while I was married to Francis.
Francis would have taken my side on anything, he would protect me forever. His touch appales me. When we lie together, it's the best feeling in the world. Just being married to him is enough for me.
When I write in my diaries, I can't help envisioning him and I together, forever. Rulers of France and Scotland, and possibly, with time, England.
I can see us, in 10, 15 years from now with little children surrounding us. Little Anne and James, Philip and Adeline. All running around in the long grass, laughing and playing.
I want to have that kind of family with Francis. It would be a beautiful one, one he has always wanted with me.
Francis has loved me unconditionally. I am so in debt for that, for I have done many foolish things to him.
I remember the first day I met him, again, of course. I can just remember looking into his eyes, and instantly falling for him. Of course, I never admitted that out loud, but it was true none the less. He wanted nothing to do with me at first, for he very admittedly said so. But, I won him over, to me.
I love him with every inch of my being, with every single time I smile, I see his face, his eyes, his hair.
When I look into his eyes, it's the most calming and exhilarating feeling all at once. Is it possible to feel that all at once. Is it really?
When I look into Francis' eyes its like watching the ocean rise and fall, storms and clear days, tides. He reminds me of kindness, loyalty, braveness and power, all at once.
The thing is, he completes me, in every single way. We clash sometimes, but all good couples do, don't they. Our fights are so vigorous, that I could scream my lungs out and rip him to pieces, but it only takes one sorry look from him, one "we shouldn't do this. I'm sorry Marie," to turn my heart around from him. He is just so incredible sometimes.
And, may I tell you, its not only his outwardly appearances that make me love him, no. It's his heart, that is so full of compassion and wanting to make the world a better place for us and all who are to come.
I know that he wants to bring about change when I see that face he puts on,one full of passion, determination and mixed with bravery. Its an astonishing thing to see.
I have told him many times that I love him, and I will love him for all of eternity. We will be the most unstoppable couple in the history of ever.
So, I shall repeat myself, if you love someone, you love them with all your heart. And that's exactly what I did with you, Francis.
