Summary: Just one step, and it'll all be over.
Disclaimer: Don't own Degrassi. 'Nuff said.
Author's Note: I don't know where this came from.
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Fall
By: Lady Azura
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The hallway is deserted.
There isn't a single student in sight, and Clare Edwards lets out a sigh of relief. As she walks down the hall, her hands clenched so tightly that her knuckles turn white, her stomach churns. Her heart hammers against her chest and her mind screams at her to turn back, but she ignores it. She should be in class, but her grades have already fallen so what's the point?
She's a mess.
A failure.
A disappointment.
And she's alone… so very alone and yet, she has no one but herself to blame.
Tears prick her eyes but she holds them back.
Reaching a familiar door, she pushes it open and begins the journey. It takes her two minutes, maybe less, to get to the roof, but it feels like an eternity. The cold air bites her skin and she can see her breath as she ventures on, stopping only when she comes to the edge.
It would be so easy, she muses, a bitter smile tugging at her lips.
Just one step, and it would all be over.
She stares down at the ground until she grows light headed and needs to look away.
Closing her eyes, she thinks about the last few months.
She can't even pinpoint when, exactly, her life started to spiral out of control. All she knows is that it's too late to fix anything. Her friends are gone, her father's forgotten her, her mother can't even look at her anymore and Jake… Jake's just glad to be free from her drama. She can't really blame him — doesn't blame him. It's her own fault. She's selfish and horrible and only cares about herself. She ruins everything and now she's paying for her sins; for all the people she's hurt.
Eli… Adam… Alli… they've all moved on. They're doing much better without her around to drag them down. Alli's even made it onto the Power Squad, just like she wanted. Adam has more friends than he can probably count and Eli… Eli is happy. Happier than she's ever seen him, and a part of her is jealous that Imogen and Fiona have done what she couldn't do.
Maybe if she had just kept her promise…
Her throat tightens and she swallows hard, blinking back the tears gathering in her eyes as she inches forward.
Would anyone care?
Would anyone notice?
She doubts it.
No one's noticed so far. No one's noticed the dark circles under her eyes from not sleeping. No one's noticed how pale she looks, or how alarmingly thin she's gotten — how frail and empty and broken she is.
But she deserves it, she reminds herself, tears blurring her vision as she takes another step forward.
And another.
And another.
Soon, her toes are over the ledge.
One more step.
Just one more.
She closes her eyes and takes a deep breath.
This is it.
The End.
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"CLARE!"
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Clare's eyes snap open, and before she can react, she's being pulled back.
A pair of lanky arms embrace her from behind and she starts to squirm, desperate to get away.
"Let me go!" She shrieks, thrashing frantically as tears stream down her cheeks. "No… no! Let go of me!"
"Clare, stop!" Eli's voice pleads.
After a while, she stops fighting. Her knees buckle and Eli falls to the ground with her, never once letting her go as she breaks down sobbing.
"Just let me die…" She whimpers, burying her face in his shoulder as he holds her close.
Eli only hugs her tighter, rocking her gently as she cries.
"I'm here, Clare… I'm not going anywhere…" He tells her.
Clare only cries harder.
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FIN
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I didn't know how else to end it.
So? Thoughts? I know it's short, but hopefully you guys enjoyed.
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