Prologue

Why have I fallen in to deep? Why did I have to love you? Why Hotsuma. I have always loved you since we were kids. You pay attention to Yuki too much and you wonder why I don't ever wait for you anymore. My thoughts were interrupted when I felt someone tapping on my desk. It was Luka and he looked like he was worried about me. "What is it?" I asked. He pointed to over at the tree and I saw that Hotsuma was really close to Yuki's face. I saw Hotsuma look up in the classroom and I quickly turned away. I was blushing from embarrassment because he saw me. I saw that Yuki and Hotsuma came into class. Yuki was blushing really red. I saw that Hotsuma had a smirk on his face. I looked down at the desk because I was hiding my face from him. He sat behind me and heard Luka say something first.

"What did you do to Yuki?" Luka smirked. "I was about to kiss him but he got nervous." Hotsuma admitted. "Do you like Yuki, Hotsuma? I mean you guys seem to get closer by the second." Luka commented. "Yeah I like him alot. I plan on asking him out on a date." He admitted. No! You can't! I love you! Luka looked right at me when I said that. He is a vampire and he can hear my thoughts. "I know what you mean. I still have to tell Yuuki how I feel." Luka smiled. "What about you Shusei? Have you found that special someone?" Hotsuma asked. "Yeah I have but this person doesn't know." I admitted. Kill me now. "Who is it Shusei? You never seem the type to like someone." Hotsuma commented. Because I have been hiding my feelings for you so long. "I do like someone. Im not telling you yet. You will figure it out on your own." I told him. "Man, you don't know how bad I want to just pound into him." Hotsuma smirked. "Yuki! Come here!" Luka shouted. Yuki looked at Hotsuma and came blushing. Hotsuma grabbed Yuki by his arm and pulled him into him. "Why do you keep blushing Yuki? Only I am suppose to see that face." He smirked widely. Hotsuma kissed Yuki and my heart just suck in my chest. Yuki was struggling against him and the bell rang. Hotsuma picked up Yuki and he walked out the classroom with him. I wish that it was me that he was carrying out of the class. "I think we both know know what is going to happen now." Luka blurted out. "I know. I mean I can't just stop him now Luka. I will just let him do what he wants for now on. I will get in the way so I will leave. I am going to be a teacher for elementary school kids so I need to start my future now. I already found an apartment so I will be leaving in a couple of days." I admitted. Yes I know I am being a coward and not facing my feelings but what choice do I have. I mean it was pretty clear who Hotsuma was going to chose anyway. I just don't want to get in way. "Well, Im going to start packing so If I don't see you then I guess this is goodbye.

*Luka's P.o.v.*

Little did he know what was I planning to do. I am going to tell Hotsuma how Shusei feels about him. I want to tell him because not just because I want to but because he needs to know. He needs to know the truth. I was always sitting there and tell him that he should tell him. I can't take it anymore. I want Shusei to be happy and I want him to be more honest with him. I will tell him when Shusei leaves so Shusei won't get nervous when he finds out that I told him. Maybe what I should do is turn Hotsuma into a vampire so he can hear what Shusei has always been saying. I mean I know he wants to be one so that means I have to train him to control his thrist. It probably wont take a long time because he is already acts like one anyway and two I heard from Yuki that he was rough like a vampire in bed. Yes, Shusei doesn't know this but they already had sex and Yuki is definitely a loud screamer. I could hear him screaming from downstairs.

~Back to the story~

I went into my dorm room and I saw that Hotsuma and Yuki were laying in the bed. Yuki was sleep while Hotsuma on the other hand was awake with his clothes on. Yuki was sleep naked in his bed. I was going to pack but I can't now because Hotsuma was in the room. I didn't want to do it now because he would ask me what was going on and I didn't want to tell him. I tried to run away before but Hotsuma found me. I come back to find out that he and Yuki got closer since I ran away. Hotsuma and I use to be that close but now we are just splitting apart. Before we could talk normal and not have a problem but now since he has gotten closer to Yuki, we don't really talk. We argue a lot more than actually having a good conversation. It's like I am losing him as my best friend and Yuki is gaining our relationship. It seems like sometimes he gets aggravated with me when I don't walk to school with him. When I came back, he told me that he would walk me to school but instead he left with Yuki. He wonders why now why I don't wait for him anymore. Memories started coming to me.

~Flashback~

I woke up to no one sitting on the other side of the room. I rushed downstairs to see if Hotsuma left me and I saw him at the gate walking with Yuki and they were really close. I must have missed what happen because I knew something was going on between them but I just didn't know what. That same day, Hotsuma and Yuki came home late. I was still up and it was 1 am and I was pretending that I was asleep when he walked in. He smelled like sex and I told myself that he wouldn't do it with Yuki. That's when I felt like my heart was aching so much. I woke early that morning and I got up and left when he was still asleep. When he got to school, he came barging in yelling at me for no fucking reason. I should be the one yelling but I was just afraid that my feelings would have slipped out. I just endured him yelling at me. I was holding back my tears so he wouldn't think that he got to me. That day I realized that I was just going to do what makes me happy which is staying by his side even he is pissed at me.

~Story~

That thought kept running through my mind. I should stay by his side. I don't know if I should now because right now I don't think that we are best friends anymore. He only talks to me when Luka is around but when it is just us two, he doesn't talk to me. I should follow my heart which is telling me leave. So I decided what I want to do and it is to move on even if Hotsuma is not in my life anymore. I can't take it anymore. You live a happy life with you new best friend and lover Yuki. I will cut all my ties with you right now. Even though my heart is aching,I have to do this for me and not let my life revolve around you anymore. Goodbye Hotsuma. I waited for the both of them to leave so I could pack everything and leave. Take care of yourself Hotsuma.