Bernie knew things would be different now between herself and Serena after the kiss they had shared in the operating theatre. Cameron's observation had led Bernie to realise that she had been burying her feelings for Serena and after what happened to Fletch and Serena's words she couldn't stop herself from allowing her heart to rule her head. The kiss itself had been filled with desire and passion that Bernie had never experienced before leading her to believe that Alex wasn't the one she was meant to be with but did Serena feel the same?
"Bernie. Could you sign this patient transfer for me?" Raf looked exhausted. Bernie knew he must have been up all night with the children trying his best to comfort them
"Yes. Of course. How are the kids?" Bernie knew she had to ask. Though Serena's words had been soothing Bernie couldn't shake the guilt that haunted her. She wish she had been as brave as Serena believed her to be and sectioned James Fielding before he attacked Fletch
"Not good. Evie feels so guilty. She had been trying to get her dad to come home all day and she wished she had pushed harder, Mikey is... well and the other two they're struggling to understand" Bernie closes her eyes and sighs sitting back in her chair. She was worried for the kids. She really was.
"I'm sorry Raf. This wouldn't have happened if I had pushed that psych eval or perhaps done as Serena suggested and sectioned James" Raf sighs and puts his hand on Bernie's shoulder gently thumbing it
"None of what happened was your fault Bernie. We didn't know Stephanie Sims would make a run for it nor that James would follow her. It was a freak accident and you saved his life." Bernie looks up at Raf and nods her head. The more people told her it wasn't her fault the more she began to realise didn't blame her. Raf was right. They aren't psychic. They had no way of knowing.
"Thanks Raf. I just... he's fighting for life and it's not same down here without me. I miss him" Raf nods his head and smiles sadly
"You're right there. Well I better get back to it. Serena is gonna be here any minute" Bernie swallows the nervous lump in her throat at the mention of Serena's imminent arrival
"Agreed. I better go and check anything is okay in the trauma unit" Bernie quickly follows Raf out of the office in order to avoid Serena and heads for the trauma unit. She knew that there was no patient in the bay but it was her safe place
"Morning Serena. It's rather quiet down here at the moment. Most of the patients involved in the crash last week have been moved to other wards and there have one or two new admissions but none that require yours or Bernie's attention" Serena stiffens at the mention of Bernie and looks around the blonde, disappointed when she doesn't see a stray strand of gold walk past any of the beds "ICU called down and said that they'd be looking to take Fletch off sedation if you wanted to be there and Bernie is hiding in her trauma unit. She looks a little ragged today."
"I'll have a chat with her. See how she's doing" Serena knew that a conversation between herself and Bernie couldn't be avoided all day knowing that there would be a patient or patients that would require their attention "Thank you Raf" Once Serena had put her things in the office she heads into the trauma unit. Bernie was sitting on the bed writing up patient notes. She looked exhausted but no less beautiful "Ms Wolfe." Serena can visibly see Bernie tense up at her voice "Hiding are we?"
"Why would you think that?" Bernie looks up unable to stop her eyes wondering over Serena. "I just wanted to give you some space."
"I see." Then the awkward silence falls between them neither one knowing what to say or do "I take you didn't get much sleep judging by those rings under your eyes"
"No. No. I was too worried about Fletch" That was only half the truth but Bernie didn't want to pressure Serena by admitting she spent most of the night thinking about their kiss "You?"
"No. Same" Bernie nods her head, that cute awkward smile gracing her features "Well I had better go to ICU. They're going to try and bring Fletch around"
"Oh? That's great news. I'll come with you"
"No. I would rather have one of us here just in case the red phone rings" Bernie shrinks back at Serena's brisk words and nods her head
"Okay" Bernie walks past Serena closing her eyes. She should have known the brunette would be awkward. Bernie heads back to the office as Serena heads up to ICU. Bernie sighs and shakes her head. They were acting like two teenagers who can been caught behind the bike shed making out. It was ridiculous really.
