Hello readers! This is the first story that I have been totally committed too and spent almost everyday writing. I have tried to make it the best story that I have written to date, so I hope you like it :) This is a TIVA story, generally with a but there will obviously be interactions with other characters (including Agent Bishop(don't hate me). I will try and update the story as often as I can but I don't want to make any promises about updating everyday or anything like that because, yes I do actually have a life, and college work :( Anyways enjoy the this chapter !

Tony sat alone at his desk in the bullpen. The rest of his team had already gone home. McGee had gone home to his fiancé, Delilah and Gibbs to his basement. Special Agent Bishop had offered to make him dinner, but he had kindly declined, made up a relatively good excuse he thought. The truth was, his old friend, his old partner, his old…lover was on his mind. He had been feeling this way for the last couple of weeks; he couldn't shake the memories of her out of his head. Not that he wanted to completely get rid of them, just push them aside so he could focus on his work. His mind drifted back to the time just before she had left him, left the team.

He had travelled to find her all the way in Israel, she was being threatened and the only way she would be safe was if she went into hiding. Of course, Tony had tried to convince her otherwise, however she wouldn't take any of it, She had her mind set, and him of all people knew that once she had her mind made up, that was the end of it. There last night together had been wonderful. It was a night of discovery, emotions and a moment that they had been waiting for almost 9 years. He had been so caring and she realised things about herself she didn't even know could exist, which only made it harder to say goodbye. The last thing he had said to her that day still remained in his memory like it was yesterday.

"take care of yourself, Ziva, I will remain forever hopeful that someday , in the future, we will meet again" he had said.

She didn't say anything back, she simply gave him a gentle but meaningful kiss and made her way onto the aircraft that would take her away from him. Everything changed for him after that, it seemed to him that life had no meaning, he had lost his best friend, the woman he trusted with his life and to make things worse Vance only went and hired a new Agent almost immediately after. He had to admit Agent Bishop had grown on him over the past 7 years, but it wasn't the same and never would be. When Bishop first joined the team, Tony found it difficult not to judge, compare and ultimately hate her. McGee was the one that helped him get through the first year of not being there, with him almost 24/7. He had been there when Tony had got drunk alone in his apartment and called McGee talking nonsense. He had been there when Tony broken his hand after punching a wall in anger. McGee had helped Tony a lot in that first year without Ziva, and if Tony was honest, he still did.

Tony's mid wandered back to one night in particular. The night he got home from leaving Ziva.

He had arrived at his apartment and sat down on the couch. His head was spinning with emotions and thoughts. How was he going to live without Ziva? How was he going to cope not seeing her every day at work? He ran his hands through his hair, got up and walked over to his fridge. When he saw the amount of alcohol he had in there, he immediately knew how is evening would end up. But he didn't care, anything to take the pain away.

Tim heard his phone ringing on his bedside table and rolled over trying not to disturbed Delilah as she slept peacefully. He squinted as he looked at the screen and saw whose name was on it 'TONY' it read. Tim sighed and pressed the answer button.

"Tony?" he whispered "it's the middle of the night"

"Hii, timmm, I knooow, sorry man" Tony slurred his words as he spok.

"it's okay Tony, what do you want" Tim said more seriously. He was a bit annoyed that Tony had woken him up in the middle of the night. What could possibly be so important?

"I..I was just thinkin, Ziva's gone mann, myyyy niinjaa is gonee" Tony saidstill slurring his words.

Tim sighed as he realised how much this was affecting his friend. It was hard on all of them but for Tony, it was losing his soul mate, a part of him was missing. Tim quietly got out of being careful not to wake his girlfriend up and walking into the kitchen of his apartment.

"I'll be right over, give me 10 minutes" Tim said and hung up the phone.

Not long after their conversation, Tony heard a knock at the door. He stumbled over and opened it. Tim stood the other side with caring eyes. And in that moment Tony realised that he wouldn't have to go through this alone.

Tony blinked a couple of times, coming back into reality when her heard the elevator doors opening and footsteps getting closer to him. He look up at the female standing in front of his desk.

"Abby? What are you still doing her?" He asked with a smiling, trying to cover up what he really felt inside.

Abby smiled and tilted her head to the left. "I was going to ask you the same thing…?" she said concerned for her friend and colleague.

"I was just…" Tony sighed, it was pointless to lie to Abby, she would get the truth out of him one way or another and he would prefer to give it to her the easy way rather than the hard way. "I was just think about Ziva actually" He said looking up at Abby.

Abby sighed and walked around to Tony side of the desk wrapping her arms around his shoulders with care and love. "I know" she said tightening her grip. "I miss her too" she finished. Abby didn't want to push Tony to open up to her, he was obviously reminiscing about Ziva, missing her a lot. She only loosened her grip when she felt Tony shifting and starting to stand up.

"I better, be going, its late and um, we have work tomorrow and you and I both know what Gibbs is like when we over sleep" Tony said trying to make light of the subject.

Abby laughed. "Oh I'm never late" she said patting his cheek gently "but I'll take your word for it!"

And with that they both made their way towards the elevator.

Authors Note: Awww McGee, he is so cute. I thought it would be nice to get a sort of flash back to show how difficult Tony found it when Ziva left. I know it was kinda a short chapter but I'm just getting started to give me a break :) Please please please give me your opinions, what you liked, thought could be improved etc... See you again soon for the update, bye :)