Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or the characters – but if I did then GaaSaku would be canon.

A/N: You might wanna read – in this order – Lie to Me, Break Me, and Love Me before you start this lovely GaaSaku Multi-Chapter goodness.

"I could be your perfect disaster. You could be my ever after."

~Marianas Trench~

Remembrance and Insanity

He was sitting in his office pondering, had been for close to two hours now. His desk piled high with unfinished paperwork – not the norm for the young Kazekage. However, his mind had been drifting as of late. Well, to be more precise, ever since he had left Konoha. Treaty signing was over – well more like the reaffirmation of the treaty. All that was left was for both the Kage to decide which ninja they felt they could trade to each other. Gaara himself knew who he wanted, he just wasn't sure the Hokage would give her up.

"What do you need?"

His mind began to wander again, to one of those two dynamic changing snippets of conversation between himself and the pinkette. He still wasn't sure what had possessed him to speak to her – let alone stop her from leaving.

"I don't know."

Gaara almost laughed. That answer every time, and every time he knew it was a lie. Or, he assumed it was. Everybody needed something – didn't they? She had needed the Uchiha at one point. The red head's hands clenched into fists thinking about the ebony haired teen, of all the trouble and pain he had caused. He thought of how much he wanted to have the Uchiha's blood covering the walls and –

"What do you need?"

- splattering his own face. He wanted to revel in the fact that Sasuke was finally dead, gone forever. Nevermore to hurt anyone who, for some reason, loved him. They loved him and Gaara never understood why. The Uchiha didn't care, not really. Oh, he'd put on a good act for everyone but deep down -

"I d-don't know."

- he was still a traitor and he always would be. The Kazekage had no doubts that the Uchiha would use Naruto and Sakura again. Even the infamous Copy Nin was fooled by the brat. It really would be so much better for everyone involved if Gaara just -

"Lie to me."

- killed the traitor. He would be mourned by those who held him dear and it would probably take awhile for Team Seven to get over the loss, but they would and it would be better. It really would – they would be so much happier without him. He caused them so much trouble and he was bound to cause more so it wouldn't really matter too much if –

"I think I could fall in love with you."

No, no he couldn't think that way again. He had to be the rational calm Kazekage. He had to protect his village and his loved ones. But killing the Uchiha would put him in a position where he could do nothing to protect anyone. 'Breathe, just breathe. Meditation like Temari taught you….'

And his mind drifted into a peaceful nothingness – he could have been there floating in this relaxing darkness for minutes, hours, days, weeks – but it was inevitable that he would have to come back to reality eventually. He had a village to run after all.