Morning Star
Chapter One- The Break Up.
BPoV
"Bella, we need to talk." Edward's serious tone pulled me out of the light doze I was settling into. i sat up in my bed where I had been propped against his chest.
I turned to face him and found that his expression was just as serious as his tone. I suddenly realized that he had dark circles under his eyes, undoubtedly from the hours of study he had put in for finals.
"What's wrong?" I asked, trying to read the emotion behind is gorgeous green eyes. The intensity was almost overwhelming, but I didn't look away. I loved those eyes and the depth they held. I reached for his hand but he pulled it away.
"I don't think this is going to work." He said is such an even tone that I couldn't believe that I had heard him right.
"What do you mean?" I asked stupidly. He sat up straighter creating more pace between us. His expression was blank.
"Bella, I am going to be attending pre-med at Yale" he said. I knew this of course. I was there when he had received his acceptance letter. "And you are staying here in Forks." I nodded gently. I had made the decision to attend community college to stay closer to Charlie and it was pretty much the only school my budget would allow. I still didn't see the direction this conversation was going.
"Most log distance relationships don't survive the first year" he remarked bluntly.
"Oh." I barely whispered. The penny had dropped.
"I think it's best" he continued "that we break things off now to make things easier."
"Easier?" I repeated, shocked. My eyes became blurred and unfocused as hot, stinging tears obscured my vision.
"You want to break up?" my voice was croaky as though the words didn't want to come out of my mouth. God knew I didn't want to say them.
"Yes." There was an emotion behind the one word that he uttered. Pain? Relief? I couldn't tell. The pain in my chest was all that I could focus on. He may as well have reached inside my chest cavity and torn my still beating and bloody heart from it. I couldn't breathe. Couldn't move. But there was more.
"I'm leaving tomorrow." he said with utter finality.
"But...I love you." I sobbed.
"I know." was all he said.
"You don't want to be with me anymore?" We had been together for nearly a year. I thought he was the one. I had given my heart and soul to him. And my body. He was my first and only love. The tears streamed down my face but I did nothing to stem the flow.
He got up off of my bed and looked down at me. I felt like a small child.
"No." He started to make his way to the door.
In an instant act of desperation I flung myself towards him. He caught me me on either shoulder to steady me but kept me at half an arms length away. He looked into my eyes and I could see it there. He didn't want to do this. I was sure of it. He wrapped his arms around me and enveloped me with his strength, his scent.
"Please don't." I nearly got down on my knees and begged. But he unwound my arms that had constricted around his waist. He gently kissed me on top of my head. He said "Goodbye Bella." and turned and walked out of by bedroom door.
I stared at the door for what seemed like hours, but was probably only minutes, before I slowly climbed back onto my bed, curled into a ball around my pillow and cried myself to sleep.
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Ok so that's chapter one. What do you think? Too angst-y? I'm also going to do this chapter form Edward's POV. I don't want to give away the plot line just yet though. Reviews are very welcome. Please be gentle it's my first time. :P
