Prologue: Hiding in Plain Site

It's in that moment when all I can think to myself is "you're okay." The mantra is the only thing giving me a grip on reality as I fall deeper into myself. That moment when I don't even know who I am or who I'm talking to anymore. Who's okay? Because as much as I want it to be me, I know it's not…

Maybe if I keep my eyes down he won't notice me today. There are shadows beside the window if I hide in them will I be seen? I'm not sure what to do with myself when I am seen, I suppose run? I can't run forever though…

I curl up in the corner of the library during lunch. Nobody would think to look for me here even if my red and gold betray me in the sea of blue.

'Maybe I should be dressed in blue…' I think to myself as I curl up into to a corner with my only means of escape resting in my lap. 'I think the blue would bring out my eyes.'

No matter how much I feel like Erudite is where I belong I can't help the way the Dauntless make me feel.

Intimidated.

That's how I want to make people feel.

'Maybe I should be dressed in black…'