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"These stars are as beautiful as your eyes."

"NOO like yours!"

"Noo, well, like yours," Matt said, and they both laugh.

"Matty, don't leave me alone like daddy."

"Never."

Bonnie and Matt were children and they were lying on the roof of the Matt's house, as they do every night. Matt was older than Bonnie; he was 13 years old and Bonnie was 6 years old, but they were inseparable, always together wherever they went. She saw him only as a big brother but Matt saw her as his future wife. Matt Donovan wanted to marry her one day and have children. He wanted to protect her, to make her happy, to see her shining smile every day. He wanted her to be his wife, and only her. He grew up in an almost chaotic family, his mother was a waitress and she brought home different men every night and his 16 year-old sister took drugs. He had never really been loved by his parents and Bonnie was his source of joy. Bonnie represented his family, the family he never had.

Bonnie had a cohesive family despite the absence of her father. Her mother, grandmother and cousin was always there for her, they accepted Matty in the family, he was welcome in her house whenever he wanted and often slept in Bonnie's room; when she had nightmares, it was him that calmed her down. He was always there for her.

Every Sunday, he would eat with the Bennett family and they laughed about everything and nothing, Matt had found his family in Bonnie Bennett and Bonnie had found his father figure in Matt. Bonnie's mother, Leah, was not worried about Matt, despite the gossip about his family, she thought he was cute with her daughter and unwittingly say she enjoyed the presence of a man in the house.

Leah felt alone, her husband was a soldier and he was gone to war for years, returning only at the rare times when he had leave, but he was not really present for his daughter or for her, as if his true life was on the battlefield. Often she felt like he loved his work more than his family. She had to beg him to call Bonnie, his indifference caused her so much pain.

Then one day, Matt left Mystic Falls. He got his high school diploma and he went to Dallas for his studies. Bonnie had cried for days, she lost her big brother, the only reference she ever had, she felt like she had lost her father a second time. She thought him handsome but it was too early to be aware of her feelings, she was too young to dissect the love of worship, too young to see that Matt was not looking her with a big brother's eyes. With the hormones of adolescence, Matt had trouble controlling himself. He could no longer touch Bonnie in the same way, he saw her breasts and hips begin to grow, she was precocious and becoming a woman. They continued their evening ritual, to go on the roof to watch the stars and dream of their future life, he knew he had to change his mind but when he held her hand, he felt like his full purpose in life was to be with her.

But he was a teenager and she was still a child, he could not continue to watch her like that, with so much lust and desire. Her mother had noticed the gazes of Matt and she didn't allow him to sleep in the same room as Bonnie any more, their sleepovers were now forbidden and Bonnie didn't understand why her mother acted like that. Matt could still assist to their Sunday dinner like usual, at least Leah did not deny Matt's involvement in this tradition. Leah liked Matt and she regarded him as her son before he became a beautiful man. Initially, she always wanted a son but the few times that Rudy came home from the war, they were unable to conceive an another child. She gave up quickly, she saw how Matt took care of Bonnie, he was so attentive to Bonnie that Leah became jealous; the more he grew up, the more she looked at him with envy.

Matt was older than Bonnie, he became a tall and muscular teenager, his blue eyes shining and his blond hair was cut in a shape trend of young. Leah thought that he was beautiful and sexy, and he actually was the most beautiful youth in neighbourhood. He has even been crowned King of Mystic Falls, he was a quarterback in the city football team and practically famous. Leah didn't understand why he took such care of Bonnie and why he continued to go on the roof with her every night when other young people get drunk or partying. She didn't understand why he had always protected her, why he came every morning to take her to school. She was so used to being abandoned by Rudy that she did not understand the craze of Matt Donovan to her daughter when he could have any girl he wanted... maybe a housewife... maybe her.

She began to dress more sexy when he was there, put on more make-up than usual on Sunday dinners, and she wore short dresses in the morning when he came for Bonnie. She wanted some of the attention, her jealousy beginning to be felt. Sheila and Lucy Bennett had cautioned her against what she tried to do but she did not listen. She was always trying to catch Matt's eye but he didn't look at her like he looked at Bonnie. He only saw Bonnie, his precious girl, she was his one and only. Despite her young age, he loved her. He still hoped that one day she would be his wife, still wanted to have children with her. He wanted to protect her from the other boys of her age but he quickly realized that he also had to protect her from himself so he decided to leave Mystic Falls with the savings that he had made with his job at the Grill.

This afternoon, he was loading his stuff into his truck. He hadn't had the courage to tell her that he was leaving the day before, he wrote her a letter and gave it to Leah hoping she gives it to Bonnie. He saw Leah's efforts to seduce him but did not care, comforting himself by thinking that at least his absence would resolve the growing problem with Leah.

"Matty?" Bonnie asked, walking towards him. She wore a little flying green dress and he found her adorable, she was 11 years old but she looked 13, her form already visible, he knew she would become a beautiful young woman and that was why he had to leave, before he tried to touch her or worse. He didn't want to leave but he had to, Bonnie was too young. He was not a pervert, he loved her in a way a man loves a woman, but he did not desire her completely, but he knew that it was only a matter of time before something happened and he did not want that for Bonnie. He thought he was doing the right thing so he turned to look at her, determined.

"Cassiopeia ... I wrote you a letter," he said, looking at her, using the nickname he had given her the first time they had been star-gazing together on the roof, with the constellation bright in the sky above them. Even with her stood right in front of him, in all her beauty and innocence, all he could think of was how she looked, asleep in his arms with her head in his neck, her small breasts pressed against him through her dress. Just the memory was enough to make his thoughts tangled, and he knew he had to leave. He could no longer be around her without fearing himself, what he would do.

"A letter? A letter for what?" she said in a small voice, she walked towards him, she stopped in front of him and lifted her head to look at him smiling, she was tiny in front of him. Her little green eyes sparkled with sunlight.

"I must go... I've got my diploma, now I'm going to university."

"But there's a university in Mystic Falls, why is all your stuff in your truck?" she said, still smiling. He took Bonnie's hands in his.

"I must go out of this town, I am sorry."

"You're leaving me... but... you promised that you would never leave me."

"I don't have a choice, Cass."

"But... but... Matty ... I will be alone... without you," she said and her eyes became wet.

"Bonnie ..."

"NO! YOU SAID THAT YOU WOULD NEVER LEAVE ME!" she screamed, crying with rage. She shouted so loudly that Leah came out of the garden to see what was happening. She stopped when she saw Matt next to his truck with Bonnie and understood that he was saying his goodbye. When Matt told her that he was leaving town, Leah was sad but also glad that she would no longer be alone in suffering from loneliness. She was relieved to no longer have to be jealous of her daughter and she didn't want to give her Matt's letter, ever.

"Bonnie ..." he said, sorry to see her in this state.

"Matty, don't leave me, I will be a good girl, I'll do my homework every day, please don't go, I'll be alone. Please, I love you so much, please. Please," she begged, she put her arms around Matt and squeezed as hard as she could. Matt had tears in his eyes, he lifted his head because he could not stand to see her like that. He would have killed any guy who would make her cry like this, but the guy was him and he hated himself for it. He tried to remove her arms but she held him fast.

"Cassiopeia... I must go now," he said. He had to leave now, even if he had not finished loading his things. Stefan would send him his stuff later anyway. He tried to unhook Bonnie's arms but she continued to beg, crying as she clung to him. Leah saw the scene and ran toward them.

"Bonnie, honey? Matt wants to go, let him go, sweetie," Leah said trying to remove her from Matt but she held him as if he was her life.

"NOOO! NO, NO, I DON'T WANT TO!" she screamed.

"Bonnie Bennett! That is enough. Let go of him, NOW!" she said, pulling Bonnie with more force.

"NO, HE PROMISED ME! HE PROMISED ME, MOM!" Bonnie cried, struggling.

"Bonnie ..." Matt was now in tears.

"Noooo ... please ... I'm begging you, don't leave me alone ... Matty," she said softly crying, she continued to struggle but Leah was stronger, pulling her away, lifting her until her feet did not touch the ground. Matt took the opportunity to get into his truck without looking back, he turned the key and started, he looked through the rear view mirror and saw Bonnie still struggling with her mother, crying. He closed his eyes for a few seconds before putting the truck into drive and then he left. He rolled up at Stefan house and stayed with him overnight and when all the stuff was ready, they went to the airport and took off on a plane to Dallas.


Song: "Andrew Belle - Oldest Friend"


Bonnie had been crying for hours, days, weeks, months... but the time had come for her to move on. She had wept for him, so much that she didn't want to love anymore, she never wanted to love again. She'd seen him as his older brother when she was a child, but then she grew up and began to feel butterflies in her stomach when she saw him. She had seen people kissing; her best friend Elena had a boyfriend and she often saw them sharing kisses. Bonnie wondered what would be like if Matt gave her one. Bonnie admired Matt, he was safe, friendly, attentive and incredibly beautiful. But Bonnie knew that she was too young for him, so she kept her secret, that she was in love with Matt Donovan, and every day she was glad to see him. When he left, he broke her heart and she swore that it would be the last time.


6 years later

Matt Donovan and Stefan Salvatore had remained best friends for all these years. They spent their college years having fun and found another friend in Damon. The three were inseparable, and they considered themselves brothers. Matt had decided to become a French teacher, he even spend a year in France for his studies where he could finish his thesis on the history of the French language in France. Stefan and Damon took over the company from their father Giacomo, becoming joint-CEO's of the company and Stefan Salvatore married to Caroline Forbes, his girlfriend since high school. Matt had had several girlfriends but nothing serious, he always said that he had not found the right one and then once he got a job, he was dedicated to his work, teaching at a prestigious school in Dallas, and that was enough for him for now.

One evening, he received a call, telling him that his sister overdosed and he had to return to Mystic Falls. The next day he took a flight to Mystic Falls. He was afraid for his sister but he especially thought about the little girl that he had left behind, wondering if she had grown into a beautiful woman like he'd imagined. He often wanted to call her, or go see her but he always told himself that she hated him, so he lived his life without thinking about her, at least he tried to do so.

...He didn't know that Bonnie didn't remember him.


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