It's very short, but i really wanted to put it up.
It's sad that the person you loved and cared about can change so unemotionally over night, that you can be betrayed in more then one way within a bat of an eyelid or the turn of a head, that all the trust built up through breaking down your walls, opening up and letting someone in can be put on a silver platter and slowly devoured by greedy pigs, while you watch behind sound proof glass screaming for them to stop, your heart sinking to the bottom of your stomach. The one person that you trusted, loved and cared for over everyone else can't even hear you're begging, they don't even look up to see your hands on the glass or your tear stained cheeks and if they could hear you - would they look up?
The un-realistic side of me believes that they would.
They would press their hands to the other side of the glass where my hands lay and give a smile of appreciation and care…
I can't keep longing for this, I know it will never happen, and even if it did you have already left me with a gaping heart, and would only make that gaping hole wider and deeper…
The memories I have of you that replay in my head are as if they were on repeat, and every time one is played, it cracks a little more, until those memories shimmer from the everything that we once had, then with a shatter, tiny pieces of that memory pierce the inside cavities of my mind, sitting there as a constant reminder of what you meant to me and how much I wish you where still here with me, where I could stroke your hand and see the blush come over your cheeks, where I could tell you that you are beautiful and you would smile at me, where I could feel hole and not so in-complete, this place I will only find is in my dreams.
You meant more to me then the sun setting and sun rising, then the fields of flowers dancing in the breeze…
Sakura you really we're everything to me.
