Finding Me A/N: Hello all, this may become slash later but I will warn you before hand and also may contain: Depression/ abuse/ loneliness/ isolation/ adult content later on/ and so on and so on, But isn't too bad at the moment (I don't think) but is PG+13 just to be safe. On a happy note this is Harry Potter, yay! However (sadly): I DO NOT OWN HARRY POTTER OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS OR STORY IDEA (EXCEPT FOR THIS ONE WHICH IS MY OWN) HARRY & HIS FRIENDS ARE JK ROWLING AND WE LOVE HER FOR THEM. I DO ALSO NOT OWN THE SONG COLOR BLIND WHICH BELONGS TO COUNTING CROWS AND THE QUOTES BELONG TO THOSE WHO SAID THEM FIRST EXCEPT MY GREATEST FEAR WHICH REMAINS MINE. AND I MAKE (SADLY) NO MONEY FROM THIS AND NEVER WILL. APOLOGY: I cannot spell, never have been able to and doubt I ever will be able to, if you find too many mistakes let me know but otherwise I'm sorry, ignore them if you can. Hope you enjoy, please review if you would like more or tell me if you hate it any review is fine for me! *********************************************************************** Finding Me "Those who fight for life live, those who hide from death die a thousand times" Chapter 1: Running Away Harry shifted uncomfortably in his cupboard under the stairs and tried to think as his stomach contracted uncomfortably with the pain of starvation. From what he could tell he had been in here for three days with no food and only one toilet break a day which also became the only time daylight reached his eyes. He wanted to scream out into the darkness of his cell, where were his friends he thought bitterly to himself, all enjoying themselves like you should in the holidays. Ron's family was in Romania visiting Charlie and Hermione was with her family in France. Harry hadn't heard a thing from the Wizarding world since his second week here and from what he could work out he should be going back to school in two days, if he ever got out of here. Anger consumed him, why did no one care. Sirius, Dumbledore anyone, even Malfoy or Voldermort would be welcome at this moment he thought, he wanted to cry but no tears would come and just as he was about to scream in frustration he heard the front door open and his so called "family" entered. "Did you see me dad.did you watch, when I gave him a left, then a right then he was out and then I." Dudley's excited voice floated into Harry's silent prison and fear gripped the boy's insides. He knew what would come next, the same routine had been happening all week, Dudley would go to one of his fights and come back after winning all pumped up the Vernon would suggest. "I know Dud, why don't you give us a re-run of the match you can use him if you like!" as he motioned towards the cupboard under the stairs with his foot. Dudley's eyes lit up and he ran to the door dragging Harry out. Shaking Harry tried to get to his feet but the lack of food had exhausted his body. He knew he still had visible bruises and cuts from Dudley's last reenactment of his boxing match and wasn't sure how much more of this he could take. He stood their waiting for what was to come a quite voice in his mind started talking him through the fear. You could run you know, but then again remember what that lead you to last time, that's right and Uncle Vernon's whippings hurt more than Dudley's punches. Maybe you can steal some food tonight.just breath deep and try not to fall. BANG! The punch to the side of his head took Harry by surprise and he fell slamming into the wall with a thud but Dudley wasn't finished yet. He charged towards Harry who still trembling managed to dodge out of the way but the relief he felt was short lived as Dudley grabbed his arm to pull him up and struck him in the stomach at the same time, it felt slow to Harry, like he was watching it happen not actually having it happen to him, he was winded and fell forward as Dudley ripped on his arm to try and keep him up wanting more and with a sickening crack Harry heard his arm break and felt himself slam into the floor just as Dudley's foot made contact with his ribs kicking him against the wall. Uncle Vernon smiled a sick twisted grin, "that's what you get for being a freak boy," he said before strolling with Dudley at his side into the kitchen. Harry didn't move. He wasn't sure if he could but one thing was for sure, he was leaving here today, now, he would walk to London if he had to but he wasn't going to die like this. Slowly he lifted himself up, he could hardly breath telling him his ribs were probably broken and he realized that he had no idea where his things were but the open front door before him was too tempting and his relatives voices were loud in the kitchen. Dragging himself to his feet he steadied himself against the wall and without a glance back he headed into the street. Panic set in as he finally reached the corner wondering where he would go, what he would do, he had no money, muggle or wizard, he didn't have his wand and worst of all it was starting to rain. A passerby looked at him in horror and ran to the other side of the road. Harry looked down at his bloodied t-shirt and realized what he must look like. He tried to take a deep breath but was caught by the pain in his ribs and covered his mouth with hand to muffle a cry of pain. Suddenly wet and cold he realized his exhaustion and headed towards a nearby park where he collapsed onto the ground and crawled under a nearby bush. He shivered uncontrollably from pain and cold as the park around him grew dark with night setting in, the pain in his arm and ribs was terrible and he was stranded and hungry. Harry looked up at the stars and for a moment he wished he was dead, thunder rumbled in the distance and exhausted with pain and hunger he passed out before he noticed the two shadowy figures of a man and dog entering the park gate and calling his name. A/N Well there is chapter 1, what do you think? I think I will add chapter 2 today as well as work is particularly boring. PLEASE REVIEW this is the first thing I've written like this before I'm sorry its too long! Do you want more? Please tell me if it's boring and terrible I can take it! But tell me if you want more as well or if you want it to become slash Harry/Draco or (and) Sirius/Lupin! (I love them!) Sorry about the mistakes! Like I said if you want more PLEASE, PLEASE REVIEW.