One chance, One Choice Chapter 1!
A/N: Hey everyone^_^! This is like my first fanfic of erm, X-men Evo, and I like don't know A LOT about it, but I know enough. This story is mostly about Rogue, and how she feels about people and erm...yea people. Anyway, this MY opinion on how Rogue feels about people, now you all might not agree with it, but it's just a story. So... please, NO FLAMES^____^!! I'd appreciate it!! Read on!
This story contains a lot of Angst and my opinions that you all might not agree with, so you've been warned.
DISCLAIMER: I don't X-men, nor do I profit from using them.
Rogue walked down the street, glaring at everyone as usual. It looked like she didn't care what people thought about her… but she did. She'd hide it of course; it's not like her to suddenly go soft. She saw some girls looking at her; they were probably talking about her anyway. She looked down at the ground and continued walking a little faster. She was about to turn on an alley, but someone called her name out. She turned around and saw Scott in his car, driving up to her. She was about to smile, but hid it. She felt relieved and happy to see him… since he's the only she's actually 'close' to. "What do you want, Scott?" She asked harshly.
Scott smiled. "I was just wondering if you want a ride to the institute?"
Rogue stopped while Scott stopped the car. "Can't you see Ah can walk?" Rogue snapped. "Ah don't want a ride, Ah'll be fine." Rogue started to walk off in the direction of the alley, but Scott stopped her.
"Rogue… the institutes that way." He said pointing straight.
"Ah don't want to go that way." She said not even turning around.
"Just let me give you a ride, besides, something is bothering, isn't it?" Scott asked slyly.
Rogue stopped in her tracks, and turned her head around to face him. "Does it look like something is wrong with me?"
Scott rose and eyebrow and nodded. Rogue glared at him and turned back around to start walking again, but stopped. She looked at the ground. "Come on Rogue… I'll get you there safely, besides, we could talk about whatevers bothering you." Scott suggested.
Rogue closed her eyes and thought for a minute. "Scott… you can't help me…" She thought. "Fine, Ah'll ride with you, but Ah'm not telling you anythin'." Rogue said turning around and walking to his car. She jumped in without opening the door and set her bag down on the floor. She put on her seat belt, crossed her arms, and faced the side, not even looking at him.
Scott couldn't help but smile. "Same old Rogue… it's not like I really expected her to be different." He thought quietly. He quickly glanced at her and the back at the road. He glanced at her again.
"What're you lookin' at?" She glared.
"Um… nothing…" Scott said turning back to the road. He looked back at her.
She looked at him with an evil eye. "You wouldn't be lookin' at me like that if you didn't have anythin' to say."
Scott smiled nervously and looked back at the road again. "Well?!" Rogue demanded.
"Did you always dress like that?" He asked nervously. "I mean…"
"You mean like a freak?" She asked angrily. She turned back out to the trees on the road. "Ever since Ah've learned about what Ah really am." She turned back to him with a sad and angry look. "Why? You don't like the way Ah look? What's wrong with the way Ah look?" She said in a tone, as if pressuring him to answer her.
"Rogue…" Scott paused a moment. "That's not what I meant…I…"
"Whatever Scott. Ah don't wanna hear it. Don't give me any B.S. answer," She said snapped, cutting off his sentence. "Ah know why you asked me that question. It's really none of anybody's business to ask me that, but they ask me anyway." Rogue just had this saddened tone in her voice. Scott stopped the car on the curb by the park.
"Why'd you stop the car, Scott?!" Rogue demanded.
He turned to face her, he seemed a little angry with her. "You know Rogue, I have no idea how you could say that, when you yourself does not even give anybody anytime to get to know you better."
"What's that have to do with your question?"
"Rogue, you blame people for all these little faults of them insulting you, when you practically act the same way… and…"
"Wait, hold on. That's bullshit, Scott!" She said quickly while getting out of the car and slamming the door. "You have no idea what you're saying you know."
"Oh really?" Scott asked her, while getting out of the car himself and slamming the car door.
"Yes really."
"Rogue, do you even realize that you treat people the same way?! Come on! You betrayed the X-men. You didn't even give us ANY chances to get to know you better, and you come on blaming people about their actions on how they act when you act practically the same damn way, now THAT'S bullshit."
Rogue quickly walked up to him and slapped him on the face. "Fuck you Scott. First of all, I quit the whole badass girl thing. Second of all, do you think it's actually easy for me to actually go up to people and talk to them?!" She screamed, while tears fell and fell. "It's not! Did you ever seem to think that Ah wanted to get to know people?!?! Did the thought of ME wanting to talk to people and getting to know them better ever cross your mind?! Did you ever think that I'm scared of hurting them cross your mind?! DID THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING LONELY A LOT EVER CROSS YOUR MIND?!?!?!?!" She started to scream louder at the end of the sentence.
Scott stood there dumbfounded, he opened his mouth to talk, but Rogue cut him off again. "Ah hate getting close to people! Okay?! IT HURTS ME AND THEM!" Rogue looked up at him, her eyes went pale. "Every time Ah get close to someone, Ah hurt them!" Rogue looked at the ground and covered her face with her hands. "DAMN IT! I AM SO TIRED OF HURTING PEOPLE! Ah don't know where Ah belong! Ah don't know what to think! GOD!" She fell to the ground, crying and covering her face. Luckily, no one was there. "Scott… Ah get lonely a lot… but it scares me… people scare me… Ah scare me…"
Scott started to walk closer to her.
"If Ah had one chance… to not be me… Ah would take it…"
Scott stared at her, shocked at her statement.
"No one understands me… and Ah hate that…"
"Rogue…"
"Ah couldn't even kiss my parents goodnight without hurting them… Ah can't even dance with someone without hurting them… do you know how much that affects me?"
Scott kneeled down. "Rogue… I didn't know you felt that way… I mean…"
Rogue stood up and looked at him with fear and anger. "Don't get near me."
"I'm sorry for what I said."
"Just leave me alone, Ah can't believe Ah actually told you that…" Rogue turned to face him, she slowly ran her finger down his cheek. "Scott… Ah'd love to get to know you… but…"
Scott couldn't think. Everything was happening to quickly. "I can't believe she's actually telling me this… I didn't know she felt this way…"
"… Ah'd hate to hurt you…" a tear fell again. They're faces got closer, but Rogue suddenly pulled back. "Oh god…" She stood up and looked at him horrified.
Scott stood up. "What's wrong?"
"I'm going to hurt you…" She said in fear. "I was just about to hurt you…" She started to slowly walk back into the park.
"Rogue, hold on!" Scott said trying to get a hold of her hand, but Rogue started to run. "ROGUE!! WAIT!!"
"LEAVE ME ALONE SCOTT!!!" Rogue shouted. Scott stopped and stood there. "What just happened?" He thought trying to recap everything.
A/N: Hey everyone^_^! This is like my first fanfic of erm, X-men Evo, and I like don't know A LOT about it, but I know enough. This story is mostly about Rogue, and how she feels about people and erm...yea people. Anyway, this MY opinion on how Rogue feels about people, now you all might not agree with it, but it's just a story. So... please, NO FLAMES^____^!! I'd appreciate it!! Read on!
This story contains a lot of Angst and my opinions that you all might not agree with, so you've been warned.
DISCLAIMER: I don't X-men, nor do I profit from using them.
Rogue walked down the street, glaring at everyone as usual. It looked like she didn't care what people thought about her… but she did. She'd hide it of course; it's not like her to suddenly go soft. She saw some girls looking at her; they were probably talking about her anyway. She looked down at the ground and continued walking a little faster. She was about to turn on an alley, but someone called her name out. She turned around and saw Scott in his car, driving up to her. She was about to smile, but hid it. She felt relieved and happy to see him… since he's the only she's actually 'close' to. "What do you want, Scott?" She asked harshly.
Scott smiled. "I was just wondering if you want a ride to the institute?"
Rogue stopped while Scott stopped the car. "Can't you see Ah can walk?" Rogue snapped. "Ah don't want a ride, Ah'll be fine." Rogue started to walk off in the direction of the alley, but Scott stopped her.
"Rogue… the institutes that way." He said pointing straight.
"Ah don't want to go that way." She said not even turning around.
"Just let me give you a ride, besides, something is bothering, isn't it?" Scott asked slyly.
Rogue stopped in her tracks, and turned her head around to face him. "Does it look like something is wrong with me?"
Scott rose and eyebrow and nodded. Rogue glared at him and turned back around to start walking again, but stopped. She looked at the ground. "Come on Rogue… I'll get you there safely, besides, we could talk about whatevers bothering you." Scott suggested.
Rogue closed her eyes and thought for a minute. "Scott… you can't help me…" She thought. "Fine, Ah'll ride with you, but Ah'm not telling you anythin'." Rogue said turning around and walking to his car. She jumped in without opening the door and set her bag down on the floor. She put on her seat belt, crossed her arms, and faced the side, not even looking at him.
Scott couldn't help but smile. "Same old Rogue… it's not like I really expected her to be different." He thought quietly. He quickly glanced at her and the back at the road. He glanced at her again.
"What're you lookin' at?" She glared.
"Um… nothing…" Scott said turning back to the road. He looked back at her.
She looked at him with an evil eye. "You wouldn't be lookin' at me like that if you didn't have anythin' to say."
Scott smiled nervously and looked back at the road again. "Well?!" Rogue demanded.
"Did you always dress like that?" He asked nervously. "I mean…"
"You mean like a freak?" She asked angrily. She turned back out to the trees on the road. "Ever since Ah've learned about what Ah really am." She turned back to him with a sad and angry look. "Why? You don't like the way Ah look? What's wrong with the way Ah look?" She said in a tone, as if pressuring him to answer her.
"Rogue…" Scott paused a moment. "That's not what I meant…I…"
"Whatever Scott. Ah don't wanna hear it. Don't give me any B.S. answer," She said snapped, cutting off his sentence. "Ah know why you asked me that question. It's really none of anybody's business to ask me that, but they ask me anyway." Rogue just had this saddened tone in her voice. Scott stopped the car on the curb by the park.
"Why'd you stop the car, Scott?!" Rogue demanded.
He turned to face her, he seemed a little angry with her. "You know Rogue, I have no idea how you could say that, when you yourself does not even give anybody anytime to get to know you better."
"What's that have to do with your question?"
"Rogue, you blame people for all these little faults of them insulting you, when you practically act the same way… and…"
"Wait, hold on. That's bullshit, Scott!" She said quickly while getting out of the car and slamming the door. "You have no idea what you're saying you know."
"Oh really?" Scott asked her, while getting out of the car himself and slamming the car door.
"Yes really."
"Rogue, do you even realize that you treat people the same way?! Come on! You betrayed the X-men. You didn't even give us ANY chances to get to know you better, and you come on blaming people about their actions on how they act when you act practically the same damn way, now THAT'S bullshit."
Rogue quickly walked up to him and slapped him on the face. "Fuck you Scott. First of all, I quit the whole badass girl thing. Second of all, do you think it's actually easy for me to actually go up to people and talk to them?!" She screamed, while tears fell and fell. "It's not! Did you ever seem to think that Ah wanted to get to know people?!?! Did the thought of ME wanting to talk to people and getting to know them better ever cross your mind?! Did you ever think that I'm scared of hurting them cross your mind?! DID THE THOUGHT OF ME BEING LONELY A LOT EVER CROSS YOUR MIND?!?!?!?!" She started to scream louder at the end of the sentence.
Scott stood there dumbfounded, he opened his mouth to talk, but Rogue cut him off again. "Ah hate getting close to people! Okay?! IT HURTS ME AND THEM!" Rogue looked up at him, her eyes went pale. "Every time Ah get close to someone, Ah hurt them!" Rogue looked at the ground and covered her face with her hands. "DAMN IT! I AM SO TIRED OF HURTING PEOPLE! Ah don't know where Ah belong! Ah don't know what to think! GOD!" She fell to the ground, crying and covering her face. Luckily, no one was there. "Scott… Ah get lonely a lot… but it scares me… people scare me… Ah scare me…"
Scott started to walk closer to her.
"If Ah had one chance… to not be me… Ah would take it…"
Scott stared at her, shocked at her statement.
"No one understands me… and Ah hate that…"
"Rogue…"
"Ah couldn't even kiss my parents goodnight without hurting them… Ah can't even dance with someone without hurting them… do you know how much that affects me?"
Scott kneeled down. "Rogue… I didn't know you felt that way… I mean…"
Rogue stood up and looked at him with fear and anger. "Don't get near me."
"I'm sorry for what I said."
"Just leave me alone, Ah can't believe Ah actually told you that…" Rogue turned to face him, she slowly ran her finger down his cheek. "Scott… Ah'd love to get to know you… but…"
Scott couldn't think. Everything was happening to quickly. "I can't believe she's actually telling me this… I didn't know she felt this way…"
"… Ah'd hate to hurt you…" a tear fell again. They're faces got closer, but Rogue suddenly pulled back. "Oh god…" She stood up and looked at him horrified.
Scott stood up. "What's wrong?"
"I'm going to hurt you…" She said in fear. "I was just about to hurt you…" She started to slowly walk back into the park.
"Rogue, hold on!" Scott said trying to get a hold of her hand, but Rogue started to run. "ROGUE!! WAIT!!"
"LEAVE ME ALONE SCOTT!!!" Rogue shouted. Scott stopped and stood there. "What just happened?" He thought trying to recap everything.
