Chapter one: Denial
Oh my gosh. How can I tell him. I cant, I know I cant, he will go crazy and kill himself, but first he would kill me. I should've been more careful, I should'nt have done it in the first place. How can I tell him I am pregnant with his child.
"Are you sure?" I ask the doctor. She had just given me the news that instead of having the flu I thought I had that I was seven weeks doctoor had black hair and tan skin, she was about the same age as me. The doctor started to chuckle...
" Pretty sure." She said smiling. I groan and lay back, then something fell down my cheek. I was crying. When you should be happy that you are going to have a baby there I was crying.
" Excuse me, but shouldnt I be happy, I cant stop the tears that are flowing down. Is there something wrong with me." And once again I heard the doctor laughing at me. She just shook her head and laughed. Laughed till her heart was filled with what she desired. She rolled on the floor laughing until she heard me coughing to get her attention.
" Sorry sweetheart, its just that I have never gotten THAT before." She emphasied that. " I believe women like to call the tears, tears of joy." The doctor laughed. Could it be tears of joy? Was I happy about this news. I already knew the answer to that,yes. Before I kept saying I wanted something to remind me of him. so yes I finally got a part of him, I will never regret this baby. I put my hand over my stomach and nodded my head. These were tears of joy, joy that I was going to have the one thing I always wanted, a baby. Sure I wanted to be married to the guy of my dreams, but that didnt matter, I was happy. " Ms... do you want to see your baby?" I was jostled out of my thinking when the doctor said this.
"What do you mean?" I asked confused. "I am not dumb, I am pretty smart, its just that this whole ordeal is messing up my mindl."
"Dont worry hun, I have seen the smartest people in the world falter and get confused when they are told this." She smiled. " You can see your baby in from this wonderful machine called a ultrasound. This machine takes a picture that is called a sonogram" I laughed. How couldnt I, This was the most amazing doctor I had ever meet in my entire being.
"I think I have heard of that picture, but I always thought it was a myth." I joke and see the doctor smile.
"I know right, I was so shocked when I first started my job to actually find that its true. Sonograms do exist!" We both tried to hold on to a straight face, but we failed miserably, and started laughing.
" Louie I think this is the start of a beautiful friendship." I shake her hand.
" My name is Marysol and yours is?" She asks and I tell her my name. She didnt tell me her last name because I could read. I read her name tag and it read 'Valesquez'. " so you ready to go see your baby?" She asks for the last time. I nod and get up from the lying position I was in and walked out the door.
As we were heading to the ultra sound clinic to get my ultrasound and get the first picture of my baby I began to think. How can I tell my friends, my soon-to-be stepdad who would pummeled the father in a heart beat. The Father, how can I tell him, he just got his life back together. The life he worked hard for after we broke up. Marysol lead me in the room and sat me down. She walked over to the counter and started talking to the person behind the glass window. After a few minutes Marysol came back and told me that they would take care of me and to come back up and show her the picture, I agreed. After she left I settled into my own personal world. I kept thinking I couldnt tell him because I didnt want to ruin him, I didnt want to drag his name in the dirt. The most important reason I was afraid to tell him because I didnt want to get hurt. I shouldnt have been thinking of him because I had a scary person to tell, my mom. I love my mom but she would be dissapointed in me and I couldnt handle that. She would freak when I told her, I should call her right now. I started to pull out my phone and started dialing, but when I heard the ringing I came to my senses. I should tell the father before I called my mom, so I quickly hung up the phone before my mom answered. I needed to find him, I would do everything to find out where he was and tell him he was going to be a father I was interrupted when the receptionist came out.
"Lorelai Gilmore." She called out.
" Please cal me Rory"
