AU-Beckett didn't stab Kelly in 7x16 but there is a plot twist.

It's been two years.

Two long years.

Two lonely hears.

His wife the joy of his heart was taken from him two years ago. When he held his bleeding wife in his arms is a sight he can't get out of his mind.

His cheeks have been tear-stained for two years he remembers the way he felt and that he never wanted to feel that away again it was that type of feeling were you wish you could open your eyes and everything was okay.

He remembers the words he said when he held her in his arms for the last time his bullet proof vest still has her blood stains on it.

He remembers Espo and Ryan laying a hand on his shoulder as he held his dead wife close to his body telling him it's over and she's gone.

He remembers going on a tv interview and the interviewer asking if he has moved on and has someone new in his life he walked out of the interview he didn't want to move on.

Their song was playing on the radio the day they buried her.

He remembers breaking down in the church telling Jim how sorry he is and that he tried to save her.

He remembers smashing his gin bottles and glasses In his office and his mother trying to calm him down and how scared his daughter was off him.

He remembers trying to sleep at night without her warm body cuddled into his and his fingers not able to run through her hair and to kiss her goodnight.

He remembers getting in a fist fight with Demming when he came to the funeral Epso and Ryan holding him back and his mother telling Tom it was best if he left.

He remembers giving the keys back to the house that he was going to surprise her with so they could have more room to start a family.

Alexis buys him a dog so his not lonely.

Every morning he goes to the florist every morning and puts flowers on her grave,he breaks down and tells her that his so sorry,he misses her and instead of saying I love you he tells her always.

He watches the couples waking down the street holding hands,kissing and smiling and thinking just two years ago he was one of those people how did life change too fast.

He thinks often what would their life be like if that case hadn't happened would they still be happy and in love.

He cries every time he hears the rain reminding him too much of their first night together.

When the sun goes down he remembers their wedding slipping the wedding band onto her finger and her slipping it on to his and how happy he was.

He didn't get the chance to give her an actual honeymoon.

The last words he ever said to her was how happy he was that she came into his life and turned it upside down for giving him the best marriage and he wouldn't change their story for anything in the world.

He remembers walking past a baby store and going into it picturing what they would have been like buying things for their baby.

He pictures her with a six month bump but still looking beautiful and telling him that they are not naming their son Cosmo.

He remembers everything about her.