A/N: Written for the Furaba Flash Bingo, #021 – Yuki Sohma. Warning for signs of depression. You guys can work out which signs. :D
Lie Down and Sleep
The chair was laden with pillows but still uncomfortable, forcing him upright. He just wanted to lie down, under blankets that hid him from the world…even if the heat of fever clung to him.
The cool strips of cloth weren't helping too much either; they warmed up too quickly. Already dry, all they did was scratch and his bare tender skin. He couldn't muster up the energy to shake them off, or readjust himself. He wouldn't find comfort anyway. Not even in his bed, under the blankets. He'd tried all that already.
Maybe a loving embrace would give him that comfort…but no-one loved him: the rat of the Zodiac. And no-one could make him feel loved, give him a purpose to seek comfort in a world that wouldn't give it, seek love in a world that wouldn't love him back.
If he didn't belong to Akito, he might have been able to drown under those blankets. Even if Akito said he loved him… He wanted a love that didn't bring tears and aching pain, just a quiet joy that was nothing, now, but a dream.
