Impossible

"It will be as if I never even existed."

How can that be so?

How can that be true when I still hear your voice?

In my dreams I still see your face.

I'm sorry, but I find it impossible to forget you.

Trust me, I try.

But how can you forget the best moments of your life?

Even when the remembering causes immense pain...

How could I forget?

Every time I see the backside of my hand

A crescent scar

Brings back the thoughts of what could have been!

I've tried everything.

I tried not breathing, but my body was too weak for that.

I tried locking myself in my room

Willing myself to die

But it didn't happen.

I tried everything.

Nothing helped.

Finally I tried living again.

Well okay, not exactly.

But I went through the motions for Charlie's sake, anyway.

Didn't help.

Then one day…

I heard your voice.

Was it real?

I didn't dare to hope.

But it was something…

It existed, if only just for me.

You do exist, Edward.

I can't forget you.

I don't even want to try.