Impossible
"It will be as if I never even existed."
How can that be so?
How can that be true when I still hear your voice?
In my dreams I still see your face.
I'm sorry, but I find it impossible to forget you.
Trust me, I try.
But how can you forget the best moments of your life?
Even when the remembering causes immense pain...
How could I forget?
Every time I see the backside of my hand
A crescent scar
Brings back the thoughts of what could have been!
I've tried everything.
I tried not breathing, but my body was too weak for that.
I tried locking myself in my room
Willing myself to die
But it didn't happen.
I tried everything.
Nothing helped.
Finally I tried living again.
Well okay, not exactly.
But I went through the motions for Charlie's sake, anyway.
Didn't help.
Then one day…
I heard your voice.
Was it real?
I didn't dare to hope.
But it was something…
It existed, if only just for me.
You do exist, Edward.
I can't forget you.
I don't even want to try.
