AN: Hey guys! This is the first chapter of my long fanfiction which is writing in Hungraian, but I try to translate to English for you. Because of that my English not the best so please not hate me if I screw up something.
The story picks up the storyline after Chapter 43 of Allegiant. I hope you'll like this story as much as I write it (and translate it).

CHAPTER ONE

TRIS

I'm just standing in the golden lighted atrium. I'm listening his receding footsteps and keep my eyes on his shape as long as he's vanished in the darkness. My heart aches. Our kiss still burns on my lips.

I fell tears in my eyes. Since I met Tobias, we'd never were as far away from each other as we'll soon. It's like Instead of a few miles, a whole world will separating us.

He said we'll see each other soon, that he'll come back before the dawn. However I feel I'll never see him again, although I have no idea why I've this feeling.

What if something will happen with one of us. I don't wanna die, no, not anymore. But what we will do - here and in the city, too - is dangerous, and there is no guarantee to everything's going by the plan. I only can hope that the plan will be successful.

A plan which include my brother's death.

Caleb.

I promised that I'll forgive him but if I think about what he had done against me and our parents, I feel I won't be able to not hate him.

However there are happy memories, too. When we were little kids, my selfless brother was always there if I needed him. Maybe if whe choose otherwise...

I shouldn't think about it. The past has already happened. Caleb chose his faction before blood. That faction which caused so much pain to Chicago. He chose those people who tied me into that damned table!

I walk back to the dormitory. Corridors are filled with people of the Bureau. Most of them aren't pay attention to me as I walk past them. They seem bored or they're talking with each other.

I hoped the dormitory is empty but when I open the door, I have to realize that I'm not lucky. In the room Matthew and Cara sit in edge of beds. Caleb with them, of course.

"Tris," Matthew says with a smile as he looks at me. This isn't a cheerful smile. "We've just talked about over the plan with your brother."

I nod before I drop myself on my bed. My throat is tightened. I notice that Caleb is avoiding my gaze.

"When will we do it?" I ask.

"At ten," Cara says. "I'll take care of guards and cameras, and you'll reach the Weapons Lab unnoticed."

We have four hours then. We sit in heavy silence for a while, each of us feel the weight of the situation. Suddenly Cara stands up and grabs Matthew's arm.

"We leave you two alone." She looks at me first then at Caleb then they walk out.

The silence starts to become uncomfortable. The lamp's buzzing is the only sound I hear. A few minutes later I break the quietness.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I ask without look at him.

He don't speak for minutes before he starts talking. "I am."

We are in silence again. I have no clue what should I say to my brother who did horrible things however he'll die soon. I sould tell him I love him. But I don't feel this toward him. More precisely, I feel nothing for him. I should loathe him but I can't.

"Will you really forgive me?"

Will I? Can he be forgiven for all he've done? I don't know.

"I don't know, Caleb. But I want to forgive you. Isn't that enough?"

"Yeah, I think it's enough."

He walks to the window, reclines onto the window sill and presses his forehead to the cold glass. I can see the red lights of the airstrip beyond the window next to his head. He looks so vulnerable. Pain sinks into my chest as I think about that these are the last moments of his life.

"You only want to do it because of my forgiveness?" I ask him while I look at his reflection in the window glass.

"No, not only for that."

"Then why?"

He sighs and closes his green eyes.

"Because of the guilt. I can not get rid of it. The guilt defines me and no matter how much I want to leave it behind, I just can't. Everything I've done was wrong... The so much suffer I caused for you... It was my choice, I decided in this way. Not Erudite, not Jeanine. Me. And I hate myself because of it. I hate the person who I became, do you understand? I don't want to be someone like that."

Of course I understand it. This is how I felt after I took of Will's life. The guilt consumed me that much I wanted to walk into the arms of death. But I realized in the last second that if I drop my life away, that will not change anything. I'll remain guilty and people I loved won't come back.

"You can't do it," I break the silence. My hands are shaking. "Your crimes won't disappeared if you sacrifice yourself."

"Then what should I do, Beatrice?"

"I don't know but this isn't the right thing to do."

His fingers become white because of the power which he presses them to the window sill.

"It doesn't matter this is a right coice or not. Somebody has to go into that Lab and I will be that man."

He still stares out to the darkness. The tension from his body is almost touchable. In that time I get a strange thought.

"And what if I go?" My voice seems determined.

He turns to me immediately, his eyes burn with anger.

"No way! Are you insane? I don't let you sacrifice yourself. Not for me. Never!" He yells.

"I may can survive this. I'm immune to the other serums, it is possible that the death serum hasn't effect on me, either."

This is in my mind a while. The simulation serum didn't work on me, and I could fight against the truth serum. The only serum I couldn't overcome was the peace serum, but at that time I didn't try to fight. And I rather not want to meet the memory serum if I have a chance. I wouldn't like to collide with the death serum as well but mybe I'm the only one who can come back alive from this mission.

Caleb leaps to my bed and squats in front of me and puts his hands to my knees squeeze them a bit.

"Beatrice, listen to me. This insanity what you figure it out it's too risky. Yes, maybe the poison won't have an effect on you. But what will happens if it has? If you won't survive? What do you think how I can live with that knowledge that I let my little sister die?"

I haven't thought to that yet. I wonder what he would feel if I go into that Lab but never go out. He would blame himself forever.

"But don't think about only me. What about Christina? I don't know her well but I know how many close friends she lost in the war. She would crack if she would lost you, too.

My brother has right. My best friend had to bear too much loss.

"And Tobias?"

I freeze. I remember how he stood in front of me in his small apartment in Dauntless and hugged me tight. Who cares about everyone? What about me?

Tobias was who came after me to Erudite. His words which he said that time are clear in my head. You die, I die too. In that place, he almost lost me. I remember that he leaned his forehead to the door's glass, closed his eyes, our hands connected on the two sides of the door.

But among the sad memories I can find a joyfull memory. This is a fresh vision from my mind. From the night before. When I think about it I almost feel Tobias' arms around my body, his long fingers as they stroke my skin. I remember his hot lips in mine and in my bare skin. His silky hair between my fingers. I hear our soft moans and hars breaths as well.

I feel as heat reaches to my cheek, but my eyes fill with tears. We went through too much together, good and bad things happened but we've stayed together. And now we have a chance for a quieter life where maybe we won't have to fight for our lives every day. We almost there, in this happy life. I can't give up now. I can't do this with us. I can't do this with Tobias.

The sob takes over me. I press my palm to my mouth to smooth the voices which come up from my throat. Caleb takes his hand to my shoulder.

"You have to stay here. They need you, here. You're strong and full with love. You have the ability in you what can change this world, makes it a better place."

"But without you..." I mutter through my tears.

"Without me. This is my final test. Now I have to be a man."

The decision shines in his eyes and his voice is strong. But he has a smile on his face. This is too much for me. I jump into his arms and hug his neck. He looses his balance and we fall to the ground between two beds. I rest my head in his chest, and his shirt gets soaked by my tears. My whole body shakes.

Maybe I realized too late how much I love my brother. Despite of his faults and crimes in the past, I love him with my whole heart. And I know he loves me as well. I feel respect for him to made this decision.

AN: Okay, so this was the first chapter. I'll try my best and update in this weekend but I'm not promise everything. I'll have exams in the next weeks so I can't be as fast as I want.

Have a nice day everbody ^^