What's going on: (New Moon) Edward has just left, Bella is trying to sleep. ONE SHOT! Unless enough people ask for a story. But please don't cause I already have a lot of stories that I should be updating.

Song: I Miss You by Blink 182
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the song mentioned (-sigh-)

My eyes quickly opened to my dark room. I heard rain on the roof, that may have bothered me before.

But it could have been a hurricane outside tonight and I wouldn't have noticed. Tonight I woke up to escape dreams. To escape the fantasy where he was still here. Because it only made it hurt more when I woke up. That was why I woke up every time I saw him, and I never saw him unless I was dreaming.

He was gone, and never coming back. I was only torturing myself by wishing for him. By dreaming of him, by thinking of him, never letting go of him.

My eyes had begun to adjust now, I could see the outline of my bed, window and door. I sat up and looked at my clock.

3:08AM

Middle of the night, as usual.

I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep again without seeing him and torturing myself once more. But sleeping was the only reasonable thing to do at this time. Besides, Charlie would worry if he caught me up at this hour. I would just have to listen to music to take my mind off of him.

I slipped out of bed and crawled across the floor to my CD's, and absentmindedly got one out, barely noticing the title. I crawled back towards my bed and popped in the CD. I pressed Play and got inside the covers of my bed. Once lying down I was able to listen to the song.

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
I miss you, I miss you
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

I gave up on fighting tears. They spilled over my face and pillow, staining it. It was almost as if he'd picked out this song to torture me. But of course it was only me. Just me torturing myself, as usual.

I briefly allowed myself to think of him, though I knew it was a mistake. I pictured him, his arms around me, what he would say if he saw me now. He would ask what had upset me. I would simply quote the most painful section of the music.

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Using as little energy as possible, I twisted out my arm and turned off the music. The only sound left was my crying.

I don't know when, but sometime during the night I'd fallen asleep. Now the daylight poured in my window. I slowly sat up, blood rushing to my head, and stood. Quietly I crossed my room to the mirror.

It was obvious I'd been crying all night.

Silently, to not catch Charlie's attention, I made way to the bathroom and washed my face. The evidence was gone. Now when I looked at the mirror, I didn't look completely depressed. Though it was still there, no color in my cheeks, my smile lines barely showing. I sighed and went back to my room to get dressed.

"Morning," Charlie said casually as I walked down the steps. "Have a good sleep?"

"Just perfect."

A lie. I briefly remembered what had caused my tears last night.

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

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This made me sad to type...