He stared at me with his dark, empty eyes. Emptiness, blankness.. That's all i saw. That's all i ever saw. No one could ever look at me with the same gorgeous, love filled eyes he had done only days again..

No one.

But, where had they gone?

Where had he gone?

Who was this in front of me? What had they done with him? The one i loved.. The one i needed to survive in this cruel, dark world. Where had he gone?

"Its over." He finally spoke, looking me dead in the eye with the most hard look I'd received from someone in a long, long time.

That's when i finally broke down, fell down to my knees and let the tears fall.

"No.. Please no.." I begged, looking up at him with tear filled eyes. "I can change.. I can change.."

By now I'd crawled over to him on all fours, clinging onto his leg as he held onto the handle of the door.

I was so pathetic.

"Please.. Don't leave me.. I'll do anything. Anything!"

I started to choke on my tears, more of them falling out of my eyes quicker and quicker by every passing moment.

"Please.. I'm begging you.."

He simply stared at me with his hard, empty eyes.

He wasn't staying. He wouldn't stay for me..

Who ever did?

I looked at him, before reaching up and unbuckling the belt that held his jeans up. I tugged it off, before trying to work on the button on his jeans, fumbling with my fingers.

"What the fuck do you think your doing?" He yelled at me.

I didn't even bother to cover myself as he shoved me backwards, sending me into the hard wall. I sunk down and stared at the fury building up on his face.. The fire burning in those olive eyes. I looked down at the floor. I couldn't face the disgust on his features..

"Please.." I whispered.

He scoffed as he looked at me.

"You.. You, are nothing more than a pathetic street tramp.." He snarled. "I'm not gay, and i never will be."

I shook my head... No. No. No.. He didn't mean that.

He didn't mean that!

"Finished." He spat his last word, before walking out the door and slamming it behind him.

I finally looked up, a choke escaping my throat before i broke down into tears..

"No.."

Your probably wondering what's going on.. And what the fuck you are reading about..

First off, my name is Jeffrey Nero Hardy..

And this..

This is my life.

I welcome you to come along for the ride of it all..

A life full of so many empty promises and heart brakes, its shocking a person hasn't simply dropped dead from it all.

But, whatever you choose, always remember..

The show must go on..