May 10th
I don't want to do this. But for some reason doc thinks it's a great idea… ugh, I might as well get today over with.
Today was, well, rough. People think that they know what it feels like. To have someone in their head is just some walk in the park. Well, it's not. It sucks… I really don't know how to put it better.
You may think that the worst part would be the actual point where there was an actual god in my brain. But you would be wrong; the worst part in not remembering your last name or where you live, how to even tie your own fuckin' shoes.
All day people have come up to me and started talking. I mainly just stare at them before they actually realize that I don't know who they are, it's not easy.
Today Nat came up to me and for the life of me I couldn't remember her name. I think I scared her when I did it because afterwards she made me take the Test.
Oh, well while I'm here I might as well tell you about the Test. It's basically hell on earth. First let me tell you what the Test is testing. It tests memory and cognitive re- … re- well it test how fast I can remember stuff. And let me tell you that I get almost 85% every time. I don't think that they understand that my speed is fine. It's my actual memory that is messed up.
But first they have you sit down in this chair that might've been used to actually torture people, it's really that uncomfortable. then they stick a whole bunch of wires in your wrist. they then tell you ten things about a person, like where they live or how many cats they have, and then ask you to say it all over again after they are done... it's the worst. you then have to do this five other times.