Ludwig sighed as he cleaned up the kitchen as they finished dinner. Looking at his lover who sat on the couch. He wasn't sure why he hadn't left him yet. His lovers had always been hateful. And not always nice to the German.

Usually Ludwig was just used for a good fuck. And to keep the house in order. But he had been feeling sick for a few months. So he went to the doctor and found out he was pregnant. Now he had to tell the other. But he wasn't sure how he act.

Would he leave him? Would he force him to get rid of it? Or even worse would he get beat because of it? But once he finished he walked to the living room and sat beside him. "We need to talk?" He started

Ivan loved the German; it's just that he never knew how to show his love. Also Ludwig do these small things he knew that would set Ivan off, making him get some flash backs from when he was younger and was hurt by his dad, and the only way to forget about those flashbacks was to take his anger out of the German.

He was immediately sorry after but he never told Ludwig, what was the point? He knew that he would just hurt the man again, plus he never knew why Ludwig even stayed with him; if he left then at least he would be rid of him. Ivan hated feeling like this, he hated remembering his dad, he hated hurting Ludwig, and he hated everything.

He normally never showed any emotion when he was with Ludwig, he would be distant and cold. Or just hurt him, or just fuck him if he felt like it, he never cared if he hurt him when he was doing it, he didn't even acknowledge what he was doing until after.

Ivan had ignored Ludwig through dinner, deciding to not talk about what had happened last night. Ivan was about to get up until Ludwig sat back down after the dinner, like he wanted to talk. What was he going to say? Did he finally have enough guts to leave him? Did he cheat on him? Did he want to talk about what happened?

"What about?" he said coldly and roughly as he got some vodka out of his pocket, then taking a sip?

Ludwig watched the other drink. He didn't want to talk about the night before. He really loved the man so he would do anything for him. He didn't care how many times Ivan beat him or anything, Ludwig still loved him so much, he sighed as he herd the other.

"I haven't been feeling good for the past few months," thinking it be good to start like that. "I went to the doctor today" looking at him. "They ran some test and well I'm four weeks pregnant. I'm guessing we were not that carful or something." Waiting to see the others reaction.

Ivan started to choke when he heard the other speak, what? He was pregnant? How was that even possible? No, this wasn't happening. He never wanted children, because he knew he would be a horrible dad, the child would grow up seriously fucked up.

Ivan got out of his seat, and pulled the man by his neck against the wall. He was about to punch him, but then he remembered he can't, the man was pregnant now, and there was a risk of the baby drying, how much he didn't want to be a dad, he didn't want to hurt the baby either.

He punched the wall causing a crack, "how is this even possible?" he asked as he looked into the others blue eyes.

Ludwig yelped when pushed to the wall. And he studded " W-well. I was. Was born with male and female sex organs. They didn't know until I got the test. B-but I have a cervix. So that's how," looking at him. Then at the wall he punched.

"Get out of my sight!" Ivan said coldly as he heard the other finish speaking. He knew that if the German stayed here any longer he would get hurt, and Ivan wouldn't be able to control his anger. He needed to break something, punch something but just do something.

Ludwig looked at him. "We need to talk it threw. This is important Ivan!" He seen the others eyes. Full of hate. "We will be ok. Right?"

"Look leave, or I swear you are going to get hurt" Ivan said as he walked away from the other, and punched the other wall as his knuckles started to bleed. "I don't want to talk about this now, okay"

Ludwig nodded. "I'll have my cell with me." Ludwig said after seeing him. He really wanted to help him. But he did like asked he grabbed his keys and left.

Ivan was glad to see Ludwig gone; he went around the room and broke all the furniture to pieces. After a couple of hours he finally calmed down as he remembered how his dad used to be. When he was a child, his dad used to hurt him in the worst way possible, and yet he never did anything to stop him. What if he did this to his own child? What if he turned out just like his dad? Ivan couldn't let that happen!

Ivan collapsed to the floor, looking down at his bloody hands. He had tried so hard to forget about his past, but nothing worked. His dad had fucked him up big time; Ivan hated how he knew if the child was born he would be an danger to it. But there was no way he could stop that from happening. Maybe he should tell Ludwig to get rid of it, the child would die before experiencing a horrible life, and Ludwig wouldn't have to go through watching me hurt our child.

Ivan got his phone and called Ludwig...

Ludwig hoped Ivan was ok. He heard his phone and answered it right away. "Ivan. Honey. You ok?" He does anything for him. What ever he said he does always.

Ivan heard Ludwig's caring voice on the phone, "come home we need to talk" Ivan said as he stood up with the phone still by his ear, and went to wash his hands.

Ludwig hung up and got home as fast as he could. He knew the other liked to drink and was almost out of vodka so he picked up some more. He walked in and locked the door behind him. "Ivan I'm home."

Ivan waited for the other to return, he polished of the bottle of vodka he was drinking earlier. He then started to get another one and drink some more, then he heard the door open and Ludwig's voice. He walked towards him until he as only centre meters away from his face.

He looked down at him, and then he noticed that Ludwig had been crying. "Why did you cry?" he asked without emotion.

Ludwig knew he been drinking so he walked past him to put the other bottles down. "Cause I'm pregnant. I didn't think it would happen it's me being gay and all. But it did, and now I'm fat and hormonal and my feet are swelled and I wants to cry so I did" Ludwig says.

"Then get rid of it" Ivan said. He wanted the baby, he wanted Ludwig to have the baby, and it would be nice to have something that was made by the two of them. But he knew that it was impossible, because of his past.

"I don't want to," looking at him. "Look I know you're scared but you'll be a great father." Trying to take his hand.

Ivan moved his hand away from Ludwig's, "don't say that" he hissed. "How do you know I could be a great dad, I could fuck up that innocent child's life!"

"No. I know you'll be hood. You don't want to be like your dad so you're going to try hard," trying to be comforting. "But whatever you want. I'll do."

"Look I told you about my dad when I was in a bad, vulnerable place, but it doesn't give you the right to keep mentioning it. How do you know I won't rape our child like my dad raped me?" Ivan asked bluntly.

"Cause you better than him." Hugging him. "You won't do that. I know your dad did but you better than him."

Ivan didn't return the hug, he just went quiet. "I will hurt you and him, you have to leave, I don't want to hurt you" Ivan said.

"I'm not leaving. I don't care if you hurt me. Or them…"

"Them? More than one" Ivan asked suddenly.

He blushed. "Triplets to be exact."

Ivan decided to try and by a good dad, he wasn't going to be anything like his dad. He would just do exactly the opposite of what his dad did to him. Ivan placed his hand on Ludwig's belly,

Ludwig watched him. "We don't have to have them if you don't want."

"I can't make you kill three of our children that we made together. What kind of partner would that make me?" Ivan said as he carried Ludwig to his bed.

Ludwig smiled he never seen this side of Ivan. "We could always put them up for adoption." He said even though he really wanted them.

"No, look I want them. I really do, but I can't promise to be the best boyfriend or the best dad, and I will make mistakes, so you have to be able to forgive me" Ivan said as he climbed on top of Ludwig.

He nodded. "Ja… I'll always forgive you…"