o this is the first fanfic I have written in a very long time and its a recycled idea from one of my old stories. I have been promising I would rewrite it and now I have. Tell me what you think.

Chapter 1: How it all started

Full Summery: Collage Life is never easy. In a way everyone looses a piece of themselves to the drugs, alcohol, love, and heartbreak. Now how do you deal with it when you watch the one man you can not have surcom to the pressure till it eats away the person you once loved. To make matters worse your brothers beside him making the same choices. This is the story of my troubles in life and love.

Can Love Survive

Chap 1

RPOV

It was the same thing everyday. Full classes, boring teachers, some guy trying to look down my shirt from the seat above me and noticing that once again my idiot of a brother Ivan and his partner in crime, literally, Dimitri where once again either so high they do not comprehend they are in class or they do not show up at all. If I did not do half of their work they would have flunked out of collage by now and I would have to explain to our father why I didn't tell him sooner that his son has gone against the one family and business rule that has always been set.

I guess I should probably explain who I am and why the business rules would apply to the family. I am Rosemarie Hathaway Mazur the only daughter of the infamous Ibrahim Mazur head of the Turkish mob. With long dark chestnut hair, dark chocolate eyes, a light golden tan, and a body that could stop a man in his tracks. I have always been the apple of my fathers eye and the one that was always supposed to be "protected" and kept out of harms way. To say I broke out of that mold at a young age would be an understatement. I forced my father to let me take self defense classes and to train me just like he would my brother. When he tried to treat me like a delicate flower I would act out and end up getting myself hurt till he gave in to what I wanted. To say I was the 'Zimys' greatest weakness would be an understatement.

My brother Ivan has the same physical features as me but he never had the drive to stand out in the family like I did. I guess because it was always expected of him to take over the family when our father was ready to step down. He never had to work for anything. Everyone in the family always praised him and never argued with him. Well everyone except for our father. Our father was always hard on him so he could mold him into a man that could handle the pressure of being the head of a family such as our. Well little did our father know that since high school his heir has been doing every drug he could get his hands on. The one rule our father set for the family and the business is no drugs. They weren't to be sold, bought, or taken by anyone. If you were in the family you would be disowned and if you were part of the business you would get dealt with in a very different manner.

With my help my brother has remained under the radar but his addiction is growing out of control. Our father has been asking questions and getting suspicious about my brother. I know he doesn't suspect its drugs but he knows something is going on with my brother. I have tried to get my brother to rehab or at least back off a little but he never listens. The drugs control his life at this point. If only he could actuality handle the pressure. Hell at this point he only has to worry about getting his degree so he can actually take over the legitimate part of the business while our father focused on the more illegal and sinister part of the business.

Well back to the task at hand. Professor Petrov looks at me with a raised eyebrow and I know exactly what she is asking. Where the hell is Ivan and Dimitri? I shake me head to signal that I have no clue knowing this will make it back to my father by the end of class. I swear he has friends everywhere. As expected once everyone leaves the room to head onto the rest of their days Petrov pulls me aside. "Rose where the hell are they? Your father is rather annoyed his heir and soon to be second in command are no where to be found. If he finds out you have been covering for them you will get dragged down with them. I can't keep their activities a secret anymore. I have to tell him what they are doing. Zimy is not someone you want to get on his bad side. It wont matter that you are his favorite. He will be cross with you too if eh finds out you concealed their drug use."

I look at her with pleading eyes, "Give me a week. Just one more week. If I can't get them to even consider going to rehab then I will tell my father myself. Just one more chance. Ivan wont make it outside of the family and I don't want to know what will happen to Dimitri. Even if Ivan was the one who dragged him down father will still blame Dimitri for Ivan's drug use." I give her the look that I know will make her agree. She has known me since I was born and the puppy dog look has always worked on her quite well.

"One week and if they don't straighten up I will tell Zimy you knew all along. This can't go on any longer." She gives me a pat on the shoulder and her signature 'listen to me or Ill beat you look' before I walk away.

With my phone in hand I call my brother with no luck, "That's fine I have a key to your apartment jackass." I growl as I slide into my baby. A beautiful candy apple red 1967 Mustang Fastback that has been fully restored. As the engine purrs to life a man eating smile spreads across my lips. This was my present for my 16th birthday from my father.

Before I slide my car into gear I hear a rap on my window. It didn't take a genius to know who it was without looking. "Adrian what do you want? I'm busy." I look over to see my always drunk friend as he lights up a clove. At 6'1" and looks that would make a Hollywood playboy look like a bag of shit Adrian earned his man whore title easily. They regularly hooked up when Rose needed some attention.

"Love is that the way you great the man you left in a cold bed this morning?" He gave me his pantie dropping smile that only made me want to jump in bed with him. Adrian knew how to please a woman well. "You know I hate waking up to a cold bed. I missed my good morning kiss." he leans in and I push his head back out of my car.

"Get that thing away from my baby and I always leave before you wake up. Unlike you I have class at 7am." I blow him a kiss. "Maybe Ill visit you later. Right now I have to go hunt down Ivan." I see Adrian's eyes go cold at the mention of my brother because if my brother was involved then so was Dimitri. Adrian knew my true feelings. Even if Adrian wanted me for himself only he accepted the fact that I truly loved Dimitri.

"I wont forgive them for dragging you into this and putting you in harms way. They don't deserve you." He threw his clove to the ground and leaned into the car kissing my lips, "Call me when your free tonight." I watched him walk away before I started to make the short trip to my brothers apartment.

All I had to do was push the door slightly and it opened. Of course it wasn't closed let alone locked. As I looked in the apartment I saw needled and half naked women lying around. I slammed the door waking up the tramps. "Get the fuck out now." one looked at me with fear having met me before whole the other glared.

"Who the fuck do you think you are to order me around?" The ugly bitch said. Half of her face was scared and her eyes a piercing blue.

"The one who will put you in a body bag and get away with it scar face." The blonde that looked at me scared before ran from the room bumping into my brother and he dragged himself out of his room. Like the women he looked like he was coming down form a powerful high. He watched the blonde run away before he turned to me.

scar face glared at me as she stalked over to me. "I wouldn't do that...My may be a bitch but she is my sister..." Ivan said as he let his body fall onto the couch. He started to get his drugs ready before I walked over and smacked him across the back of the head. "What the fuck was that for? What did I do know? I haven't seen you in a week." she looks at me like I'm crazy.

"Would you rather me hit you or father find out because hes starting to catch on! You moron! What do you think would happen if you dropped off the face of the planet for a week. His spy's wont keep the secret any longer. Do you think they want some addict leading them when father is gone? Do you think they want to risk their own lives to keep you on your throne?!" I was yelling at him now. Coddling him wouldn't do any good. He needed a reality check. "What do you think will happen when father finds out? Do you think he will just give you a slap on the wrist and send you to rehab and then bring you back into the family. Trust you with the empire he has built?! Well do you?! And what of Dimitri? You and I both know your punishment wont even come close to his. He isn't blood. He isn't part of the family. Just because has been being groomed for second in command doesn't mean he won't be putting his life on the line because of you! Because you couldn't take the pressure of the family. Because you were weak."

Out of the corner of my eye I see the ugly bitch slip out of the apartment as my yelling gets louder. My brother looks at me with shock on his face. I have never treated him like this before. I have never raised my voice to him let alone voiced what would actually happen when and if father found out. His brown hair fell into his eyes when his head fell in shame. His once tanned skin looked clammy and pale while the shine that once colored his hair was replaced with grease.

A large hand was placed on my shoulder as an even larger body lightly pressed against my back, "Rose..." I shook off the hand as I stepped away from the Russian god that used to bring color to my cheeks and make my heart flutter. He was now a pale comparison to the man that used to defend me what I would get picked on. He was no longer the person I loved but the man that made me worry I would find him dead.

"You both have a week to get into rehab and show you are trying to quit. If you don't I will be telling father." I look behind me at Dimitri with a sad look in my eyes. "I will tell him everything. I cant cover for you any longer. He will find out sooner or later and I cant let myself get caught in the fire this time." I make my way to the door, "Please try...I cant loose both of you...My heart cant take any more..."

~x~

DPOV

I knew that shouting. I knew that voice better than any other. The scream that I heard the first time I stepped into the Mazur house. The scream I heard anytime I got into a fight in school. The scream I heard the first time I made love to a woman. Rose. She was mad and I didn't need to listen to know what she was mad about. It was always the same thing and like always I would say I would change but Ivan always dragged me back. This time she was yelling at him and not me. Its been months since she would even talk to me. Months since she even gave me a look. She didn't believe in me anymore. She couldn't believe in me anymore. I had disappointed the woman I love to many times and now she didn't want me.

As I walked out I placed a hand on her shoulder and spoke her name. I could feel she didn't want me to touch her as she shrugged me off. Her words made me want to be better. Not for myself but for her. She was my world and now she was preparing to never be aloud to see me again. I didn't want the last time I saw her to be this way. Watching her walk away after her warning made me want to break down.

"Ivan we..." Both of us jumped at we heard a scream that would haunt us. A scream that should have never been heard. A scream form the Mazur princess.