Dear Journal,

March 5th

Isn't it funny how you can be on top of the world at one moment,and then the next moment I'm falling?

Everything is always Draco's fault.

The stupid idiot doesn't get that he's supposed to be faithful to one girl.

So now,I'm crying in the library hugging some random history book to my chest when Hermione Granger,Mudblood genius,makes her way over to me.

"Pansy,are you alright?"She asks,sort of quiet like.

I nodded silently and turned my head away from her.

I don't really see what's the matter with Muggle-borns,but Draco doesn't want me to talk to them,so I don' held something out to me and I instinctively took it.

"A Chocolate Frog?"I asked,my voice hoarse from crying.

"Chocolate is a girl's best friend....well in my opinion."

I grinned in spite of myself before biting off it's head.

"Thanks Granger."She smiled sadly at me and sat beside me.

"Draco?"She asked.I growled,"You'd think he'd realize that you're supposed to be faithful to one girl."

I could feel my tears welling up again.

"Sometimes I hate ,I can't live without 's like....he's like cocaine,or crystal meth he's incredibly bad for you and your health,but the high you get from it isn't worth the pain,and nothing ever beats the first time."

Hermione studied me with chocolate brown eyes complimented with long,dark eyelashes.

"You know Pansy,that's a bit deep for a fifth year girl."

I rolled my eyes."I am a Slytherin,we are deep."

She smiled smally,her pink lips barely turning up at the corners.

"You forgot to add overly dramatic,though Malfoy is a sexist pig who treats all his girls like crap you know how many girls have come in the library crying,Pansy?Sixteen!He made sixteen girls cry in one month!"

"He can be incredibly charming when he wants to be."

She sighed."You all say that."

"Because it's true."

I yearned for the subject to be away from I hated myself for loving him,but he makes me feel so good while everyone else makes me feel so horrible about myself.

"Granger,you're you help me with Umbridge's essay?The woman hates me because I told her in a private lesson that Potter was right."

"You believe Harry?About V-voldemort?"

I suppressed a his name chilled my bones.

Mother is a she comes home soaked in sweat and she's bleeding.I knew she had been tortured for something,something trivial to me but so important to him.

" may be a git,but he isn't a lying git."

Hermione rolled her eyes but one side of her mouth was curled up.

"I'll help 's only about the Shielding Charm ,we have to 's almost dinner."

I looked to my watch,"Wow,time flys doesn't it Hermione?"

Oops.I had done the unforgivable.I had spoken her name,not her surname,but her name.

She didn't miss a beat.

"It sure does Pansy.I'll go out first,no?"

Amazing.

Who had ever thought,I'd be hanging with the Gryffindor Princess.

"That'd be fine.I'll meet you here tomorrow at noon?"

She grinned,showing straight white teeth."Perfect."