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Why?
Why did they leave me? Was it just some sick joke that all vampires do to human beings when they are bored? Was it all a lie? The fact that they loved me. Was my presence just a play toy to him? Did they even care about me? Did they save me from James just because they wanted to play with me more? So that it would hurt me more when they would leave me like this. Was it all a lie? Tell me. Tell me.
How could they do this to me? Esme, Carsile, Alice, Emmet, Jasper, Rosalie. Edward. They just leave like that.
Someday, I just wish that they would come back. Come back to me and just tell me that it was all a joke. It wouldn't be funny at all but at least I would know that they did care for me, they did love me. Untill then, do I just have to suffer this miserable darkness? Do I have to face that painful moment everyday, again, and again, and again in my dreams? Why do I have to suffer? God, why? Is the only option to get out of this hell hole is just die in a hell hole? If it is, then I would gladly take that option.
I was sitting on one of the chairs in the kitchen, eyes closed, tears silently flowing down my both red cheeks. Thinking about all the good memories I had with the Cullens.
Esme, who always treated me like her real daughter with her warm kindness. Carsile, who was always there for me and considered me as his real daughter. Alice, who was my best friend, always dragging me to go shopping, which somehow made me smile and happy. Jasper, who was always a kind, protective brother for me. Emmet, with his huge hugs and smiles, always brighting up my day. Rosalie, who was still my sister in a weird somewhat way. I loved all of them. I miss all of them.
I was smiling, now, as all the fun memories flash past my eye lids. After the memories ended, I slowly opened my eyes, not bothering to wipe away all the tears. I got up and went towards Charlie's gun belt on the kitchen counter. Charlie is with Billy today for a fishing trip. I guess he didn't think I was this bad. Wrong. I feel horrible doing this to him and Renee, but I just can't take this anymore. This pain. It's too much for me. And I've had enough. I hope they will understand and forgive me for this. At least I should write them a letter. They deserve one.
I got a sheet of paper and a pen since I figured writing on a sticky note would be a bit...you know? I sighed and started writing with tears about to come out from my eyes.
Dear, Dad and Mom
I'm sorry and forgive me for doing this, but please
understand. This pain is too much for me. It's unbearable.
Please know, that I love you both and always will. Don't
forget that. Thank you for taking care of me all this time.
Again, I'm sorry I had to leave this way. Please, understand.
If the Cullens ever come back, please tell them that I love them
and forever will.
Good-Bye.
Love
Bella
I slowly put down the pen next to the paper on the counter. I took out the gun stuck in Charlie's gun belt, and made sure the bullets were full. Well, what do you know? It is. I slowly pushed down the trigger to the gun and pointed it towards my head, just below my temple on the right side. This is it. I thought.
I took in deep long breaths and whispered.
"Good-Bye" Dad, Mom, Edward, Alice, Esme, Carsile, Rosalie, Emmet, Jasper, Angela, Ben, Mike, Jessica, Tyler, Eric, even Lauren.
Then, finally, I shoot the gun. It hurt. A lot. But just a few seconds. Then everything went black.
All I knew was that tears were silently flowing down my cheek, again, except it was flowing with the blood, now.
I love you, Edward. Forever.
It was raining harder than usual, that day in Forks, Washington. My forever home.
Isabella Marie Swan
September 13, 1987 - December 9, 2006
And so, the lion fell in love with the lamb.
I may continue this story with Charlie, Renee, and of course the Cullens side. Because I kinda already have
ideas in my head...
and i promise this time, i wont quit!
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