A/N: This is my first fanfic and basically my first anything written in English, so if you'd care to review, that would be awesome.

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes

She couldn't remember exactly the first time she'd seen his face, but that was because it had no doubt been an extremely meaningless moment. What she did remember, was their junior prom and the moment he'd asked her to dance. She'd gotten to be Cinderella, just like she had wanted, and she'd gotten the magical night she had dreamed of. "You look beautiful", he had said. To her, that was the first time ever she had seen him. Like, really seen him. Like in Avatar, he would probably say.

She found herself smiling but then she remebered she wasn't supposed to. She wasn't even supposed to be thinking about him. Why was she thinking about him?

And the moon and the stars were gifts you gave
to the dark and the endless skies

Everything had just felt so easy with him. Every date, every conversation. Every kiss. She remembered their first kiss, of course she did, and definitely would for a long time. It had been amazing and no matter how much she hated herself for thinking so, it hadn't felt the same with Shane.

Everything had been so easy, until the day he had told her his family was going to move back to Tennessee. They had done their best to make the most of the last days, but still even the thought of it hurt. The thought of the feelings during those days, and all the crying after he had left.

And now she couldn't help but cry again. She was so sick of crying, this whole thing was supposed to be in the past already. But then when she thought she had gotten over him, there he was and everything was complicated as hell, again. And to think of all the times she'd looked at couples at school before and hoped to have what they had. No one had ever told it would be so difficult. Well, to be honest, she had seen her friends struggle with their love lives, a lot, but maybe it's just one of those things you don't really believe until you've had the misfortune to experience them yourself.

The first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine

She remembered their first time. Her first time. Everything about that night had felt so right, and it couldn't have been more perfect in any way. And despite what she kept telling him now, she knew what they'd had wasn't just a summer fling. It had been so much more, it had been real and it had been the best thing that had happened to her in a long time, if not ever.

Why had it had to end like that? And why couldn't he have come back at a better time? To be perfectly honest, she would have been back in his arms the second he came back, if it wasn't for Shane. She cared about Shane too, very much. But how much exactly? She refused to even think about it, it's not like she was going to just dump Shane, no way. She didn't want to hurt anyone.

...but what about how much it was hurting her?

And I knew our joy would fill the earth
and last 'til the end of time

Yeah, if only it had lasted. But it didn't. Nothing does, apparently.

Then there was that one little voice in her head that kept saying "it still could". What if he was meant to come back? What if he was meant to come back so they could be together again? Was this like some sick plan made by God to test her? Or maybe just to mess with her?

The first time ever I saw your face
your face

Or maybe she really belonged with him. God should know, she thought. But God wasn't going to help her deal with the situation, even though she'd hoped so. She didn't know what to do, she just couldn't figure it out. She just wanted to run away from it all, escape and to never have to think of anything anymore. The feeling was so distressing, se needed to get away.

And when the song came to an end, that's what she did.