I own nothing no matter how much wishing and preying I've done.
I stood on the door step trying to garner the courage to knock on the door. Ranger was waiting for me in the car on the curb, and I took courage from that and knocked on the door quietly. When Joe answered, he looked at me before taking a step back and letting me in.
We sat in the living room in silence for a while until Joe sighed and said, "Cupcake?"
"Joe. I think we both know that we never would have lasted." I said, tears filling my eyes.
"Did you even think about me at all when you left 6 months ago with Manoso to catch that skip in Arizona?" Joe asked heatedly. I felt a tear slide down my cheek because, yeah, I had thought about him. I'd done a lot of thinking while I'd been away.
Sure I think about you now and then
But it's been a long, long time
I've got a good life now, and I've moved on
So when you cross my mind...
"Joe I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you but we were always fighting. Over every little thing, we would start WWIII. I can't live like that!" I said.
"I though you loved me Steph." He said quietly. I saw that he had tears in his eyes, too. "I want you in my life, Cupcake. I want you to marry me so I can wake up with you every morning and go to bed holdng you in my arms."
"Joe, don't do this, please." I begged him. The tears were rolling now and I couldn't stop them.
I try not to think about what might have been
Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use givin in
And theres no way to know
What might have been
"I've had a long time to think about this and I've made up my mind." I told him.
"Yeah the entire time he's probably been there making you think that he can make you happy!" He shouted.
"No Joe!" I shouted back. "We caught that skip 2 weeks in and I've been staying in an appartment while Ranger went to Nevada!"
He stared at me, stunned while I continued.
"I needed time to think, alone so no one could cloud my mind and I realized that I'm not what you want." I said. "Not what you need... You need some one who can stay at home and take care of your children and love you the way you deserve. I spent a lot of time thinking about how we would have ended up and I can't do that to you."
We can sit and talk about this all night long
And wonder why we didn't last
Yes, they might be the best days we will ever know
But we'll have to leave them in the past...
"Cupcake..." He sighed and I saw the defeat in his eyes. Finally he came to sit beside me. "So your going to try life with Manoso?" He asked.
"Umm... Yeah. I think I am." I said.
"Are you... Does he make you happy?" He asked hesitantly.
"Yeah. He helps me fly." I whispered with a smile.
"Is he going to be able to give you every thing you want? What if you want marriage or children in the future? Can he give you what I can?" He was back to being mad.
"I'm not sure yet." I said. "But I'm going to take that risk."
"Why?" He choked out.
"Because I want to fly. And I know that if I start to fall he'll be there to catch me."
"I can catch you, too" He said.
"No, you can't. You'd be their to take me to the hospital and lecture me on my antics." I told him. It was painful to say but I had to. "He never would have let me hit the ground."
"What if I tried harder, and we could have a life together. A good life." He pleaded.
"Joe. We can't work. Please don't play What If with me."
So try not to think about what might have been
Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use givin in
And theres no way to know
What might have been
He sagged down on the couch and I knew he was trying to stop the tears. And moments later, he looked up at me and asked,
"Can we still be friends?"
"Yes" I said. I saw it in his eyes. He knew we never would have worked and he was accepting it. His eyes were sad, but understanding.
That same old look in your eyes
It's a beautiful night, I'm so tempted to stay
But too much time has gone by
We should just say good bye, and turn and walk away...
We stood up and after a second he leaned in and hugged me.
"I'll always love you Cupcake." He whispered, giving me a light kiss on the cheek. I looked at him with tear filled eyes.
"I know. I'll always love you, too, Joe."
He led me to the door and I walked to Rangers Porche with out a backward glance.
I buckled myself in and and rested my head on the seat.
"Babe? You okay?" Ranger asked beside me.
"Yes." I said. "I'm fine."
Joe came out and around to Rangers side. Ranger rolled down his window.
"I want you to take care of her, okay?" Joe asked. Ranger probably would have taken offence but even he could see the senserity in Joe's eyes.
"Yes," He said. "I will take care of her."
"How can you be sure you can keep her safe?"
Ranger was silent for a moment, just staring at Joe before he spoke.
"I know that I will never let any one hurt her. I won't let any one lay a hand on what is mine." He said with out hostility.
"Good." Joe said before walking back to his house.
And try not to think about what might have been
Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use givin in
And theres no way to know
What might have been
No we'll never know, what might have been
I heard this song on the radio and as I listened to it this story popped into my head. I hope you liked it and if you've never heard the song you should try to find it.
What might have been... By Little Texas.
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