In which: Jiraiya, the only person close enough to being his only familiar contact. The only man close enough to being his father figure, was just announced killed in action. He could feel his heart snap in two, all he wanted to do was drown himself in alcohol. And he did, but only let himself morn for a week. He still had goals, still had a teammate to bring home. Now memories are slipping in and out of reach.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto. Honestly I think Naruto should have had a bit of a longer time/chance to morn for the man who represented his missing father. I've also made a few if not a lot of gender changes.
Beta: None at the moment, I'm looking for one.
Naruto stared at the clear liquid just sitting in his cup. He could still remember Ero-sanin-no Jiraiya-sama's face, his heart hurt and he downed the shot of burning liquid hoping to forget. He pored himself another shot, and heard his perverted giggling. He downed another cup. Jiraiya had always seemed like such a goof, most people wouldn't take him seriously, call him a pervert and whatnot. No he was a genius of information gathering. Naruto swallowed another cup with a barely there cringe.
All he wanted to do was forget for tonight. The Kyuubi topped with his own genetic enhancement made it hard though. He had probably already drunk enough to put out three different jonin. All he felt was the slight buzz. He wanted to forget, he grabbed the bottle and guzzled as much as he could. He didn't want to remember the mans smile, his proud look. He didn't want to remember the man who could have been his father in all but blood.
He set the bottle down finally feeling like he could forget. He took another drink quickly to make sure he wouldn't remember until morning came. He would deal with this when it came to where he needed to be an adult about this, right now though? He had every right to drink himself silly.
Naruto opened his eyes with a groan, his head hurt badly. He slowly sat up careful not to upset his stomach anymore. He had done that stupidly when he woke up the day after the first time he drunk himself under the table. He had spent the better part of his morning emptying out his already empty stomach.
Standing up almost had him racing for the toilet. He carefully walked down the hallway to his kitchen to get a glass of water to calm his stomach settle. He felt like he had blacked out for an entire week, that shouldn't have happened. He breathed and set the cup down on the counter. He could have done something unbelievably stupid in that time and he wouldn't remember.
He knew that the alcohol wouldn't really help him forget, just postpone the actual confrontation.
Naruto dressed himself in black for the funeral of a man that had held the title of honorary father for a few years now. The body wouldn't be there though. No that was some where in Ame still.
Naruto slipped his shoes on and exited his door. Sakura stood there dressed in black, she seemed slightly subdued. She offered him a sad smile and walked next to him as they made their way to the service. Nostalgia hit him. It was almost just like Jii's funeral, except Sasuke had his hands stuffed in her pockets and walked on his other side.
"I'm sorry for your loss dickless." A female voice broke him out of thought. He looked up, Sai was standing there not in her usual belly shirt and pants suit. She was wearing a black robe actually. She actually wasn't smiling, he didn't actually think she could read the emotional cues quite yet but she was starting.
Naruto blinked and saw the girls face expressing pure ecstasy as her head was thrown back, her back arched, and her fingers sliding up his chest as she rode him in the dead of night. He blinked again and the image was gone. He blinked again confused. 'Where did that come from?' He thought to himself as he gave her a small no and continued walking.
That was odd. Seeing Sai's face in anything but a blank mask or fake smile was a bit weird. It was actually kind of hot. He shook his head, he shouldn't be having these kinds of thoughts right before his tou-san's funeral.
All of Konoha must have made it out here to pay their respects to the sanin. He was a hero. He was their hero. He was so many things.
Naruto came to a stop in the crowd, he looked up at the front where Tsunade was standing next to Shizune. Both were dressed in black, Tsunade looked as if the whole world suddenly thought that her shoulders were the place to rest. She had bags under her eyes and they were red and puffy as if she had been crying all night.
He then took in the empty casket they had filled previously during the week of what little he had kept in his old apartment. There was a picture sitting on a squat table that had a black table cloth over it. The over cast sky did set the mood, dark and depressing. All Naruto felt was an awful numbness that was bone deep.
The picture was of Jiraiya just moments after the world had come to know him and his teammates as the legendary Sanin. He had a huge smile and looked just like he did when Naruto had caught him bragging to any one who would listen to him about Naruto.
Naruto moved forward and placed a white rose, that Ino had been handing out, among the accumulating roses on the casket. A pang shot through his heart, it was almost like some one could hear the cracking of his heart. Then suddenly it shattered and a roar of thunder rolled through out the sky. The sky ripped open and cried the tears that Naruto himself couldn't cry.
He took a step back and allowed himself to finally grieve. He finally allowed himself to believe that he really wasn't coming home. He finally let himself embrace the sadness that followed him around like a gray cloud. Some where along the lines real tears mixed with the rain down his face.
He looked up towards the heavens and wished not for the first time that Jiraiya was happy where he was now.
Just an intro. Yes there will be gender bending (not enough girls in Konoha for our favorite blond ninja).
I want to know which girls you want in his harem? They need to be women or girls that can get pregnant, if you know they can't but know of a way to make it possible then please suggest the woman and the loop hole for them. :)