What have I done? I thought leaving would be the best thing for her, but was it really?
As I watch her walk down the pathway hand in hand with him, I can't help but regret the decision I made. It's my entire fault that she is with this guy. I let this happen and I hate myself for it.
I've been gone for about 7 months and she has moved on. I sure as hell will never. I haven't even seen my family all this time. I told them I wanted to be alone. Alice had a fit. She yelled and screamed at me that I was being stupid and that I would hurt her by doing this. I am stupid. I left so I wouldn't hurt her.
I have been in complete agony. Bella seems better than me. She has always been strong. It's one of the things I love most about her. She doesn't look hurt. It's probably because she's with him…
Jacob
I watch him walk her to her front door.
"Don't worry Bella. Everything's gonna be fine. She won't be able to get to you." Jacob says as he brushes her hair back behind her ear.
Bella blushes, "I know. It's just scary to think she's still out there looking for me."
I wonder who they are talking about. I try to read into Jacob's thoughts but he is only thinking about Bella.
"You're safe now. No need to be scared. You have me." Jacob leans in and tries to kiss my Bella.
She steps back to put space between them. "Jake, don't."
"Sorry." Jake blushes then runs to his car. "Um I guess I will see you later."
"Jake you don't have to go." Bella pleads.
"It's fine Bella. I think I should go see my dad. I'm sure he is still upset about Harry." Jake opens his door.
"Yeah you're right. Bye Jake."
Jake gets in his car and drives away quickly. Bella watches him leave and lowers her head.
"I can never do anything right." She whispers to herself. She straitens out and goes into her home.
I sat there in my tree and tried to come up with a plan. I thought Jacob and Bella were now together, but by the way she pushed him away it seems they are not. Does that mean I still have a chance?
When I first came to see her I was just planning on checking in on her. To make sure she was finally living a normal, human life. But seeing her with that dog put me in so much rage. I was jealous and didn't want anyone but me to touch her.
I knew what I had to do.
I had to win Bella back.