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Ch.1- Going Home
"I can't believe it. He's really dead."
"I tried to call you Hinata, really I did."
"Well thank you, it means a lot that you tried. Shino... was like a brother to me."
"I know. Look, I know how you must be feeling right now, you've gone through so much in the past 6 months. Hinata just come home!"
"Believe me, I've thought about it, but I left to start over and get away from Naruto. If I came back, things could only get worse."
"Hinata, you still love him, don't you?"
"Of course. I never stopped loving him."
"Well you sure have a lot of explaining to do to your best friend!"
"Please don't be upset Tenten, It's just I've been trying to forget Naruto. Ever since I moved here to China four years ago. I thought it was best if I left, but I've been so lonely without you all and now I don't know what I'm going to do."
"I've noticed, and that's why I think It's best for you to come back to Japan. You don't belong out there and with everything that's gone wrong this should be a sign for you!"
"I'm starting to think your right but."
"No buts! Go get packed. Your going to stay with me, I already booked you the next flight to Tokyo."
"W-what? Tenten I couldn't!"
"It's already done, stop worrying about every little thing. I'll be here for you if you just let me!"
"I... I don't know what to say, but thank you."
"That's what friends are for!"
I couldn't believe Tenten was going to let me stay with her even after I left years ago without saying good bye, even though we are best friends I can't help but be shocked. I was 18 years old when I left home to live on my own, it was hard at first because I had to room with strangers. Now I have my own tiny apartment in China, I am 22 and have never had a boyfriend before. There was one guy out here I thought I had feelings for, but he lied to me about having a wife. I've always had deep feelings for Naruto, a childhood friend I had school with. I highly doubt if he feels the same about me though, and he's another reason I left.
Ever since I left I've only talked to Tenten and my cousin Neji, and not once have I went back to visit anyone. Now I have no choice to go back because I've lost my job and can no longer pay rent, I don't even have money to eat. In 4 days they will throw me out with all my belongings, and I will have no place to go. I have absolutely no friends out here, not that I didn't try to be friendly but I guess the area I'm in doesn't really care for Japanese people. Tenten tells me all the time she doesn't know how I do it and always tells me to come back, to tell the truth I have no idea how I did it this long either! All I ever did was try to focus on my career, but now the company's gone.
In the past 6 months everything has gone downhill for my life. First I lose the one thing that keeps me going, my job. Then somebody stole my car, my only family other than Neji passed away, my father. I got jumped by some hookers last month with guns on them, they beat me and took my money, coat, and my shoes. To top it off my cat Naru ran away, and I loved my kitty dearly. I used up the last of my savings yesterday. I'm outta options, plus I think someone has been following me lately and now I have to here about Shino dying? He and I were pretty good friends back in high school, some people called him creepy but they just didn't know him. His best friend Kiba, he's like a brother to me as well and I can't even imagine how he must feel right now! Shino was working undercover and knew something very important about the government but was assassinated, that's what Tenten told me a while ago before we got off the phone.
So now I'm already all packed up, I really don't have much here anyway. I'll have to call her from a payphone because my cell phone was cut off due to non-payment, that's why I had no idea about Shino's death. It was almost two weeks ago when he was killed and they already had the funeral for him. I'm truly sad that I missed it but I will go to his grave when I get there. I'll try not to cry, he couldn't stand when I would.
A few hours after arriving in Tokyo, after a long flight I'm finally with my dearest friend Tenten. How I'm feeling at this very moment I have to admit, I've never felt more at home in a long time.
"Wow! look at you Hinata! You've grown up to be so, beautiful!" Tenten said loudly as I walked into her kitchen, she was cooking before I knew it.
"Your just saying that because we're friends," I smiled at her and couldn't help blushing.
"No, I'm serious! Wait till everyone see's you! I won't be the only one to notice how much you've changed," she smiled back.
"I know my hair is a lot longer now, but I'm still the same Hinata, in some ways," I whispered.
"Well of course, I know that but from looking at you for the first time in years no one would know that. Not even Naruto!"
"Where is Naruto, by the way," I asked.
"Oh he's still in town. Him and Sasuke got a place together," said Tenten as she cooked dinner, chicken Terriyaki and rice balls.
"Really? But I thought they hated each other."
"Turns out it's a love-hate relationship with them, but you would know that if you didn't make me swear not to talk about him anymore," Tenten smiled even bigger.
"I was trying to forget, just hearing his name can be painful Ten. You have no idea."
"Well what changed your mind? Is it because your back here, or because you can't keep denying how you truly feel for him," she asked.
I thought for a moment in silence, and then as I took in a slow deep breath I said,"Both."
Tenten started to laugh as she flipped over the chicken, so I went over to the table to sit down. Then I started looking around, "You truly have a lovely home Ten," I said genuinely.
"Thanks! Can you believe Neji's the one who found this place?" she chuckled.
"Oh really? Where is Neji by the way?"
"At work, he goes into the office at 8:00 every night and doesn't get off till 2:00am, but sometimes he has to go in the morning for meetings and stuff," Tenten told me.
"Oh I see. Sorry I haven't asked lately but how are things with you two? After two years of marriage has anything changed between you two," I asked her but I felt a little nosy.
"Two years really isn't as long as it seems. Nothings really changed, only for the better maybe. Like moving in and getting this house together, he works a lot more now-a-days but he's not embarrassed to touch me or kiss me in front of people," she tells me as her face started turning red.
"That's wonderful Ten! I'm happy for you both."
"Thanks, I can't help but feel bad though. I'm floating on 'cloud-9' and your going through hell, makes me want to break something for you!" She said and her whole expression changed. In the past if she said she wanted to break something then she would.
"It's alright, Please don't break anything! I'll be fine and back on my feet in no time! I still have hope," I told her with a smile.
Just then Tenten looked over at me with sorrow in her eye's and said as she got plates, "I'm glad your looking on the bright side of things, but I can see the pain in your eye's Hinata. I know you."
"Then you know I'll be okay too," I whispered as I turned my head away. I'm trying not to cry.
"Yes you will," said Tenten as she started making plates for the both of us.
I couldn't speak, for at that moment I felt like something was stuck in my throat and I could feel my eye's slightly filling up with tears.
"Oh yea! I called Kiba right before you got here, he's going to stop by tomorrow to see you," she said.
"R-really? I can't wait!" I choked out and suddenly I felt a little better, I was going to see another good friend. At a time like this I could really use all the friendly support I can.
"What all did you tell Kiba," I asked now.
"Not too much about what happened to you of course, that would set him off and I know you don't want me saying anything. Just that your going to be staying with me now and about what happened to your dad," Tenten said as she sat my plate down and her's as well.
It's only been 5 months since my father died of a heart attack, Neji took care of his ashes for me because my father made it very clear he didn't want to be buried unless he was next to my mother and that was impossible. We don't have a lot close family for a funeral anyway.
"Tenten, would it be alright if I skipped dinner tonight? I don't feel much like eating," I said.
"Seriously," she asked as she sat down across from me at the table, she looked concerned.
"Yea... um I'll eat later," I mumbled as I looked down at the delicious food.
"You must think I'm dumb! I know you haven't been eating right, and now I make this good food just for you, and your not hungry? I don't buy it," She said loud but nicely.
"I... I'm just," I started but she didn't let me finish before saying, "Please eat Hinata."
Then we looked each other in the eye's for a minute, and I lost it! Tears flowed down my cheeks before I even realized it. At that moment Tenten was up and out her seat, before I could blink she was already hugging me tightly in her arms. I couldn't help but cry into her shoulder and we didn't speak, she just held me in her arms for a few minutes as I let it all out, finally.
It's been almost a year since I've cried, 5 years since I've cried in front of another person. I've been so very lonely for a long time, but I try not to complain about the choices that I've made and try not to feel regrets building up.
I also feel bad I didn't come see my father at least once before he passed on from this life, it's bothered me for months. I loved him very dearly and he wanted me to come back home badly, but I wanted to be independent and do things on my own, be my own person.
"I can only imagine what your going through, but please, just try to eat something! And you can go straight to bed if you still want, okay?" Tenten whispered sweetly to me and I nodded.
After eating all my food, she showed me up to the guest room and boy was it pretty. I felt like I was at a nice hotel or something! Her and Neji must make good money. "Thank you Tenten. This is perfect!" I smiled.
"You don't have to thank me silly, we are family after all. We have to stick together."
"Yes your right, I wish... I would have thought about that four years ago," I said slowly.
"Hinata," she mumbled sadly.
"I'll be fine. Goodnight Ten," I smiled as brightly as I could manage, but I knew she didn't buy that either because she didn't smile. Instead she said before she closed my new room door, "Goodnight."
As I then started unpacking my suitcase and dress into my silk baby blue tank top & silk boy shorts to match, I then climbed into the soft queen sized bed, the light has been off ever since she left the room so its dark.
I look around the room in the darkness, even more harder then I did when the lights were on now that my eyes are adjusting. The room is way huger than the one I had back in China, and to the right side of my bed there's a wide window with beautiful baby blue curtains. I start to feel so relaxed as I gaze out the window from my bed, I lay there feeling stoic as the moonlight took me to my dreams fast.
Suddenly I hear a knocking on the door, so loud that I flinched as it woke me up from my wonderful dream about Naruto, and when my eyes opened I got a little blinded from the sun peeking in my room window.
"Come in!" I yelled with a scratchy voice as I pulled up the covers over my chest.
Just then the door opened and there was Neji, dressed in a real nice gray business suit. He smiled to me as he walked into the room.
"How are you feeling?" he asked with his hands in his pockets. Gosh he looks much older!
"I-I'm fine! How have you been?" I asked but I kinda stuttered, like I did when we were kids. How embarrassing.
Neji just laughed lightly then said, "Ten was right. Its good to have you back Hinata."
Then he pulled his left hand out his pocket to check his watch and said once more, "I gotta get going now, I just wanted to come say hello before leaving out again," Neji smiled lightly.
"Wh-What time is it?" I asked as I sat up much better, rubbing my eye.
He walked back to the door and told me, "Its a quarter past nine."
Then when he took one look back to me and I said to him, "Neji, thank you. For everything," as I smiled.
"No need to thank me. We'll talk later," he told me before leaving out and closing the door.
I sat there, eyes still on the door and was amazed at how much he's changed. He became a man when I was gone, he smile's more and somehow its different in a way.
I started to get up and go straight to the bathroom, and then I realized something, I have my own bathroom inside my new room! Yep, I'm starting to believe they mite be rich. So as I jump in the shower, get out & dressed up, brush my teeth, then brush my hair, I put on just a little bit of mascara and lip gloss.
Now I'm headed downstairs in a light gray short-sleeve T-shirt with a V cut collar in the front to show off the chest that I grew while I was gone, with tight black jeans and gray sandals. I stopped wearing clothes that are too big for me about 2 years ago or so, my clothes fit me nicely now.
I walked into the kitchen and saw Tenten sitting down, eating breakfast. The eggs, bacon, and pancakes she had on her plate looked great, but what threw me off and made my tummy turn was how much ketchup she started putting on everything.
"Good morning Hinata! I made breakfast, I put your plate over there. I didn't know if I should wake you up or not so I was gong to wait, until about 10 to do it," she said with food in her mouth, but I could understand her.
"Oh its fine, thanks," I said as I went to go grab my food, then sat down next to her.
"You know, I gotta say, you look too cute to be the Hinata I remember," Tenten said with a big smile.
"Really, Is that a good thing?"
"I just called you cuter didn't I?" She then started laughing and I smiled at her.
"You think, Naruto will notice?" I blushed.
"Hell yea! If he doesn't I call gay!"
"Does Naruto have a girl friend now?"
"Nope, He asked Sakura though, twice. She turned him down both times," she told me.
I was in shock for a minute. Naruto has feelings for Sakura? She can't stand him though! I just don't understand that.
"Wow, really?" I was puzzled.
"That's what I said!" Tenten chuckled as she was almost done with her food.
"But guess who she likes?" she spoke again then stuffed her mouth.
"Who," I asked as I started barely eating.
"Sasuke," she told me then drank her orange juice.
"Oh, I already knew that," I said back after taking bites.
She was socked through her eyes, "What? How? And why does everyone know but me? I never knew that."
"She's liked Sasuke sense middle school, I'm surprised you never knew."
"Well I know one thing, he sure doesn't feel the same about her," she said getting up then putting her plate in the sink.
I asked as I took bites in between talking to her, "How do you know that for sure."
"Because Sasuke & Naruto are like best friends now, so Sasuke told Naruto about how she comes on to him and stuff. It really hurt Naruto."
"W-wait, you talk to Naruto?"
"No I talk to Kiba sometimes. Naruto told Kiba and Kiba told me," she smiled cocky for a girl.
"Wait, Kiba & Naruto are friends?"
Just then the door bell rang twice and Tenten laughed as she said, "Goodness Hinata, there is so much you've missed out on! Hang on, I'll go get the door."
When Tenten walked out the kitchen I had to admit to my self, she was right. I missed out on so much and it makes me feel out of place. Was coming back here the right thing to do? What if everyone has changed completely? Will anybody be happy to see me? My mind keeps wondering off and I wish I wouldn't do that, but I've been alone for so long that now I'm curious, its become a habit.
I'm really glad I at least kept in touch with Tenten and we're still good friends, even after high school she's really the only one who's been here for me through it all. She also look's different to me, like now she could be a mother because her hips are so wide and her clothes are kind of big. I love what she's done to her hair though, cutting it to her shoulders makes her look like a cute china doll but I think that hair style really suits her.
"I'm glad you came even though it was just for Hinata, but still its good to see you in person," I heard Tenten say loudly to whoever was at the front door. I wondered who it was as I hurried to finish up the rest of my food.
Just then she yelled to me, "Hey Hinata, come here! someones here to see you."
So I stopped eating even though I was almost done, and got up to go see who it was.
What if its Naruto? . . .
As soon as I turned the corner from out the kitchen and into the living room, straight across the room, there standing in front of Tenten made my heart drop to see that face again but I'm not going to cry.
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