A 30kisses themed fic. All chapters are not chronological order and are not tied to one another.

Disclaimer: Tales of Symphonia belongs to Namco Tales

Warnings: Male on Male Parings, Angst, Sexual Themes, and Sheer Awesomeness

Author's Notes: Ahem, well, it's been a while, hasn't it? My sincerest apologies. I won't go into details on why I suddenly chose to write this, but I think with this new story, I will be able to concentrate more on the aestheticism of writing and plot itself. Yeah, sounds like a deep concept, but in all, I just want to get better. So, anyway, I would absolutely love reviews and feedback from all my readers. I do accept anonymous reviews, and I don't mind if it's a rough critique or a simple "Good job!" I want to hear it.

With that being said, enjoy!

Fallacy

Kratos x Yuan

Theme I: look over here
Play vers.

Yuan: Well, look over here. Kratos, I have something to say to you. Actually, I have a lot of things to say to you. Sit down; I want to reminisce a bit.

'You've changed once you started a family.'

Remember when I told you that?

I bet those words ring in your ears to this very day. I bet their burning truth scorch your cold heart. I bet their sheer honesty haunt your endless thoughts. That's what I had hoped for, in the very least. How cruel of me, yes, I'm quite aware of that. But, really, this is a mere fraction of what you have done to me.

Yes,you Kratos Aurion.

Hah, don't look at me like that. You think this is inhumane? Yes, it does sound a bit uncharacteristic of me, I admit to that. But this is nothing compared to you. There is something that I have always wanted to say. How many times I've written these words down in a letter. A rant, you can call it, that I simply must blurt out.

I remember you when we would travel alongside our forgotten companions. Mithos, the once hero, and Martel, my once beloved. No, she wasn't my beloved. Martel was simply something to project an unrequited love to. But that bit has no importance. No, this is about you Kratos Aurion, and how you have corrupted my life and destroyed it by its entirety.

Back then, during the time of the Kharlan War, you'd show compassion and sympathy towards your companions. You'd laugh and joke around with us. Whenever any one of us were down, you'd be right there, lifting up our spirits. Your personality shone brightly with a sense of pride and astuteness. Your garnet eyes would show emotion and rapture. Your façade would show no sign of weariness or deceit.

(A silence fills the room)

But look at you now.

You are now the exact opposite of what you have been. And I will admit that I have changed too. It is quite evident that we have all gone down our separate paths. Although, I do not turn a blind eye on what is hard to accept. Martel is dead. She will never come back. Anna is dead. She will never come back as well. Don't look at me like that.

Look at you.

It's funny that you're gritting your teeth like that. You can assault me at any time that you want. I am here, standing before you, completely defenseless by any attack of any sort. Might as well kill me now, for is it not I that has affected your life as well? Tell me what compels you to remain so resolved in composure. Did I not tell Lloyd of his true father? Did I not interrupt your precious Lord Yggdrasil's vision? Was it not I that nearly took your life by the releasing of the seal? …No, for the most foolish of all reasoning, I ran in to save you that day.

(A long emptiness)

"Hahahaha… How odd that laughter has found my lips at such a grave time like this…

(Darker)I laugh at my own contradiction. My scatter thoughts… What drives me now to say all these things, I really don't know. I have known them for hundreds, thousands of years, yet I have remained silent. And you have known them too… So many times I've told myself that I absolutely hated you, despised and loathed you with very fiber of my being. I would beat myself to believe that you were a repulsive human being, someone who turns away from the world to fulfill his own selfish acts. How you ruined my life, my entire existence. If only you knew!! If only you could see…

(Silence)

(With great emotion) Damn it!! Can't you see, you blind bastard?! You have everything that I only dreamed I would once come to possess!! You were once a teacher, a hero, a lord, even a lover and a father. Who am I in the world!?

Who am I really?

(Dejectedly)Was my sin so bad? My sinful thoughts of lust and desire? … My thoughts of not only being like you, but havingyou… How wrong must it have been to think of you in such a manner? So much so that my life is now insignificant?

(A pause)

…It is clear that you are appalled by me. It is alright that you now think even less of me. It will make no difference of who I am, for I will continue to admire you, like how I have for the many years we have traveled together. The way I felt was beyond my control, and I must say that I am most definitely ashamed. But it makes no importance now... This confession may have been vague and abrupt… But if I were to elaborate anymore, I fear it would be the last thing I would have said to you. But… perhaps it would be for the better. I have come to the conclusion that this was simply a waste of time. A complete waste of time on your part, to hear a friend blurt a very ancient secret. The longer I might have held it; it would have consumed me whole…

No… I…I can no longer bear this…

Kratos Aurion, I love you, no matter how much shame or hate that will derive from it, my body tells me how much love I hold for you.

(A long silence remains; a solemn look on Yuan's face. He looks down and moves away from the mirror he was talking to all this time)

???: Well… look over here… (A different entity states. Yuan swiftly turns behind him to find Kratos standing near the door to his room, Yuan is scared speechless)

Kratos: Yuan (A contemplative pause) I've been meaning to speak with you. You're guards led me to your room…[Silence

Yuan: (In a low voice) I can see that.

Kratos: (Looking down on the floor) Yes… I thought you were out, though I found it odd, and decided to investigate your whereabouts. (Looks straight at Yuan) When I found you … talking to the mirror … I decided to not interrupt you.

Yuan: (Coldly)Well, that is quite evident Kratos… (Releases a tired sigh) Look, Kratos, I'm sorry you had to hear that… But it's the truth, and that's how I feel about you. This perhaps is an unpleasant surprise on your part. If you still wish to discuss something, we can meet at some other time. Other than that, I do wish that you leave.

Kratos:But I wish quite the contrary. (Walks toward Yuan) Yuan… Have you given it much thought about what I was going to talk to you about?

Yuan: (Confused)…W-what do you mean, Kratos?

(Before Yuan can say anything more, he was caught between Kratos' lips)

Kratos:That is what I mean. (Turns around and starts walking towards the exit) I'm so glad we had this discussion.

Author's Notes: I suppose I'll put some background on this particular fic here. I first thought of this of being a letter that Kratos finds in Yuan's room, but how to end that in a kiss would most likely need needless filler and fluff, plus the theme wouldn't make must sense. Then I started thinking with Kratos and how they say he turns a 'blind eye' on things, so it's like, well look over here.

Although, it kind of became a caught in the act type of thing, like oh! Well look over here! So it could have gone a couple of ways off. I never intended it to come out like a play though. I actually started it off through Yuan's point of view, so we can have inside on his thoughts, but I soon took that off, and added in the cool italics. Hehehe. I probably abused them though. Anyway

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