AN: I do not own twilight or the characters from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Those honors belong to Stephanie Meyer and Joss Whedon.

I stared out my window listlessly watching time fly by my eyes. I was numb . I couldn't feel. Couldn't comprehend the world around me , because once again I was alone. My Sun. My best friend abandoned me just like him…Edward. Just thinking his name sent a sharp pain to my chest. He had been gone for six months taking my family with him. I hadn't heard a word or response from them in six months. And just like the Cullens Jake had abandoned me as well.

A part of me felt like I deserved it after all I couldn't love him the way he wanted and I knew it hurt him. I was selfish. I just couldn't stay away he made me feel alive for moments at a I wasn't locked in nightmares or lost in my mind. He made me feel alive again and now he was gone.

He was my best friend . He promised to be there for me. Promised to stay by my side till my heart stopped beating , but the moment I confessed my lack of love for him he stopped coming answering my calls. Tossed to the side like trash.

The longer I sat in my rocking chair in my dimly lit room the angrier I became. At the Cullens. At Jacob. At the world. What was it about me that made people think I wasn't worth it. That I didn't matter. That my thoughts and opinions didn't count if they didn't met everyone else s expectations of me. It wasn't fair! Edward left me because he thought I didn't fit in his world. Not giving me a choice or listening to a damn thing I wanted . Jake left because I couldn't give him what I wanted . Because I didn't fit his fantasy he had of us together.I had no one.

My friends long ago lost interest in me when I wouldn't tell them what I did to run the Cullens started spending more time at work or La Push since Harry died. I was alone. And I was growing sick of it. I wanted out of this house . This miserable town. I was tired of moping and feeling sorry for myself. I wanted to be free of the misery. So slowly allowed the anger to consume my heart. My pent up frustration at the cards life dealt me pushed the numb feeling from my chest. In its place an inferno of anger and dare I say hope filled me . Hope that there was something better for me out there. With a small smile I grabbed a suit case loaded it with clothes and precious cargo such as my books that I couldn't live with out.

Grabbed all the money from my saving s as well as a MasterCard that was to be used for emergency's only or college. I rolled my eyes at that to my hermit state dad had pulled some strings and practically forced me to take my high school exit exams a few months earlier since I didn't seem to care too much for school anymore. Being a straight A student that paid attention to my classes on occasion I actually passed. Didn't mean I wanted to go to college anytime soon. I grabbed my belongs and headed for the door. Only stopping momentarily to briefly scribble out a note letting Charlie know that I was leaving and didn't know when or if I was ever coming back. After all I didn't want him sending the state troopers after me.

With barely a glance back I was out the door. Displeasure and hope filled my heart as I hopped in my truck ready to see where life took me.

2 months later…..

And apparently life took me to Los Angeles , California. Well my truck did before it broke down. I lived in hotels at first before money became an issue forcing me to stay in the remains of my truck for a couple of weeks. Eventually I found a day job at a piece of shit diner near downtown LA. The manager Gary liked me enough to set me up with an apartment above the diner. It was a crappy apartment. The lights flickered occasionally. Random leaks from the roof when it rained too had just a simple bed that I found. A single shelf for my books. A small TV . A hall sized kitchen and a corner sized bathroom. But like my beat up old truck I loved it. It had character and it was mine.

Life was simple for me. During the day I worked at the diner trying to avoide the grabby hands of the truck drivers and drunks that populated the place . At night I would see what the night life of the city had to offer. Going to bars and clubs when the nightmares became too much. Sometimes the occasional man and oddly enough women would catch my eye and I would dance the night away with them before calling it a night and heading home.

I know what your thinking . Me Bella Swan dancing ?! Something I never fathom I could do without causing major damage became a nice outlet for my pent up emotions. It was easy when you stop caring what people thought and just got lost in the music.

Tonight I decided to hit up an underground club that I heard rumors about called Subzero. Dressed in a pair of skin tight jeans , a red tank top and black heeled boots. I waited in line then eventually was admitted into the techno moment I walked through the dark hall leading to the club my ears were assaulted with a loud bass that got louder as I passed threw the entrance door.

Random lights shined around the club in techno color. On the left a bar that was already crowded with people. On the right the dance floor with tables surrounding it and the DJ that looked suspened high above the floor was jamming away. I walked to the bar and ordered a drink not bothering to worry about being carded since most people looked younger or my age with drinks.

I eyed the dance floor for a moment before decideding to sit this song out in favor of drinking my cranberry vodka. Contemplativily I sat in a vacant booth that was in a secluded part of the club but still had the best view of the dance floor. I watched as people swayed to the music . Getting lost in the beat and each other. When a throat clearing pulled me from my trance. My eyes locked and widened when they landed on a petite blonde with shining green eyes outlined with black liner.

She had a small frown on her face. Her pink lips pursed in indignation .She was saying something to me but I couldn't seem to hear her. My eyes were busy traveling up and down her body. Taking in the skin tight black dress that was revealing not a small amount of dress was short but not outrageously short stopping a little above the tan legs looked gorgeous in the dress that seemed to flow perfectly with the expensive looking heels she was wearing .

I heard her clear her throat again and looked up blushing at being caught starring so long. Her green eyes seemed to sparkle with amusement at my blush.

" Oh sorry what did you say". Her hands went to her hips with a huff . She rolled her eyes before glaring at me.

" I said your in my seat. So move it!"This time I matched her glare with one of my own. I may have found her attractive but like hell I was going to sit here and let her push me around. I stopped that shit when I moved here. I was no ones obedient puppy.

I crossed my arms under my chest and smirked." Your seat? Really…I don't see your name on it". I looked around the booth half heartedly sarcasm laced in my voice. She scowled at me.

" Look sweetie this is my seat and has been for months now. But since your obviously new and not brain dead like I originally thought Ill let you off with a warning move it kid?!" Kid? She looked barely a year older than me and she was calling me a kid?! This bitch had some nerve. My cheeks flushed and I stood noticing that we were both eye level with each other. But with out the heels I'm sure I would have been a few inches taller then her.

"Listen up Malibu Barbie. You don't own this place so Ill sit where ever the hell I feel like it!" I watched as her nostrils seem to flare. And when I looked into her eyes they seemed to flash a golden color causing me to step back immediately. The women saw my reaction and something feral seemed to pass over her eyes as she took a step towards me. I backed up and landed gracelessly on the booth. She pounced. Her body pinned mine in an instant.

She moved much faster then I thought possible…What the hell is she.. Her lips crashed onto mine bringing an abrupt halt to my train of thought. And making me focus on how this woman was kissing me.I stiffened for a moment and she seemed to rumble? Or was that growling I heard? It didn't matter thou .My mind and body seemed to act on auto pilot.

In the next instance I was kissing her back hungrily . My hands went to her waist as our tongues dueled. She seemed to growl softly and pin my hands above me. Breathing became a problem and she pulled away. I thought she was going to stop kissing me and my body screamed in protest. I couldn't help the whimper that escaped.

I opened my eyes and locked on to her shimmering gold ones. But before I could ask her about the phenomena. She attacked my lips again. But this time her hands started to roam my body as she grind her center on me. Her lips were warm and tasted of vanilla and strawberry intoxicating me with each stroke of her tongue. Her scent surrouned me in a warm cloud of lavender and roses.

Her body seemed to rub against mine in a frenzy. Like she was trying to seap into my skin. I grabbed a fist full of her blonde wavy locks and pulled her closer to me. My panties were soaked. I knew with the knee she had somehow worked between my legs that she could feel it even through my jeans. She broke away from the kiss with a growl. I gasped for much needed air as she began to trail kisses down my cheek to my neck. Her hands locked down on my upper arms as I felt a sharp pleasure pain shot from my neck causing my body to arch and colors to spark behind my eye lids.

My body felt like I was floating higher and higher with each grind of her knee and pressure on my neck. I was overcome with a feeling of euphoria. A feeling so great I knew I would crave it. Hunger for it . Maybe even kill for it. Those were my last thoughts before everything went black

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