back to your life Title: Back To Your Heart
Author: Soulfire Stories
Rating: PG-13 for a little violence [fight]
Disclaimer: Gilmore Girls the show and the characters do not belong to me, I am merely a person writing a fanfiction on the show. I am not making any money on this.
Archive: If you want it, just email me at: Soulfire Stories@aol.com
Summary: Sometimes all love deserves is a second chance.
Chapter: 1/?

It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
Baby if I only knew

Chorus:
The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart

I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
Let me prove my love is real
And made you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If only you would tell me girl

Chorus

Give me one more chance, to give my love to you
Cause no one on this earth loves you like I do
Tell me

I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
To find a way back to your heart

Chorus

-Back to your heart
-The Backstreet Boys



Dear Diary-

Have you ever felt something so perfect, something so great, that your whole body jumped with joy? Have you ever tripped over your own words when that special somebody came around? Have you ever felt yourself longing for one glimpse or conversation with that person? And when you finally do you're in heaven? That is how I felt the whole time I was with Dean, he was my first boyfriend and everything about him and our relationship was perfect... up until he dumped me. He dumped me because I couldn't say the "L" word to him when he said it to me, it wasn't like the feelings weren't mutual, I was just so shocked when he told me and then the words never found it's way out of my mouth.

I do LOVE Dean, there is no denying that, it's just I thought he already knew. I thought he knew I loved him when I started babbling about unrelevant things. I thought he knew I loved him when I went out of my way to see him. I thought he knew I loved him when I held his hand, or leaned my head against his chest... I thought he knew.

How couldn't he know? Wasn't it obvious? Wasn't the love I held for him painted all over my face?

Well obviously I guess it wasn't that obvious or I would still be with him, and to make things worse me and Tristan kissed.

To clear things up... I DO NOT LOVE or even LIKE Tristan in that way, although the kiss did make us kind of closer but never in that way. There is nothing wrong with Tristan Dugray except that he lives to torment me, or used to, or whatever... it's just that he's not Dean. He doesn't make me squeamish like Dean did, he doesn't make me giggle like an idiot like Dean did... he doesn't make me feel the way Dean did.

I don't daydream about Tristan like I used to do all the time with Dean.

I miss Dean.

-Rory Gilmore

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Rory let out a groan, she turned the alarm clock off, she pushed herself out of bed and walked over to her closet. She grabbed her favorite blue sweater and blue jeans and carried them to the bathroom to change into them, thankfully it was a Saturday, so she didn't have to go to school. Rory shut the bathroom door and let out a sigh, she felt so tired, if it had been up to her she would had slept in all day and never woke up, but that would have caused her mom to worry about her and that was the first thing that she didn't want to do. Rory changed into her clothes quickly, and walked out of the bathroom and proceeded downstairs to the kitchen, where she was sure that her mother would be, drinking coffee as usual.

"Morning mom"
Rory smiled at Lorelai and sat down at the kitchen table; this day was already going slow and she had already thought of Dean twice in the last 20 minutes.
"Morning sweetheart"
Lorelai examined her daughter over and sighed sadly; She misses Dean Lorelai thought. That would explain her depressed attitude lately... the boyfriend blues.
"You okay?"
Rory nodded sadly and grabbed a donut and bit into it, it wasn't that she didn't want to tell her mom what was on her mind, it was just that she didn't feel like talking about it, talking about it would only cause Rory to think about Dean even more, well if that was possible.
"Fine"
Silence.
"You know when one who talks all the time, has nothing to say, the silence can be defeaning"
Thump. Thump. Thump. Rory continued to look down at the kitchen table, but she swore that her mother and the rest of the people of Stars Hollow could hear the loud beating of her heart.
"I'm going to Lane's, bye"
Rory pushed herself up from the table and left the house in a hurry, before Lorelai could say anything in return; Before she could say something that could suck Rory back into the house. Rory needed out of the house, even if it was even for a few minutes, she needed to get away, maybe to the library, yes reading books always helped her escape her harsh reality, she could fantasize about other things when reading books, she always let her mind wander when she had a book in front of her.

Shakesphere. Poe. Alcott.

She could pretty much read anything by anybody, she would enjoy the book just as long as it had a good plot and respectable dialouge... Rory Gilmore wasn't a very picky reader.

[Stars Hollow Library]

Rory sat at one of the library tables farthest to the left, her eyes were engrossed in:

"William Shakesphere's Romeo and Juliet"

After reading a few more sentence, Rory pushed the book away, not really wanting to read anymore, usually Rory was all for reading a book especially by William Shakesphere, but today was not like every other day.

"Rory?"
Rory looked up from her hands when she heard someone's voice enter her ear, Rory felt herself freeze when she found herself staring up at the face of Dean.

Oh oh oh! It's Dean. Okay Rory, act normal... act like you haven't been thinking about him the whole time you were pretending to read that book.. act like you aren't extremely giddy to see him right now and yes you did just say the word giddy. Normal. Normal. Normal. You can do this. Be causual. Be calm. Okay...

"Uh, hi"

Good... just don't bring up cake or gum and you'll be fine. Oh no, he's staring, why is he staring? There's something on my face! Oh man, he's still staring...

"The tragedy of Romeo and Juliet by William Shakesphere--"
Dean grabbed the book and stared at the cover intently and then started flipping through the pages of the book nonchantly. Okay Dean, don't freak out... ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends bump into each other all the time... it's completely normal... completely normal. As long as you don't start tripping over your own words, everything will be okay.
"Yes, Romeo and Juliet. I was reading it, but I'm not anymore, obviously."
Dean nodded.
"Obviously"
He just mocked me.
"So what have you been up to?"
Keep the conversation going on Dean... you can do this.
"Since you dumped me? Not a lot"
Okay she got me there... Rory 1 Dean 0.
"I, uh, have to go, bye"
Rory grabbed her jacket and fled the library leaving Dean behind.

"Rory wait!"
Rory whirled around to find herself face to face with Dean, again.
"Hmm?"
Dean brushed his hair out of his eyes and stared at Rory. He smiled at her.
"Forgot your bus card"
Dean handed Rory her bus card.
"Oh thanks"
Dean ran his hands through his hair.
"No problem. So, uh, do you want to get some coffee"
Rory stared back at Dean, trying to figure out if he was talking to her or some other girl that was behind her or something, but once she realized she was the only girl around, she felt her heart start to beat fast and hard.
"Yes."
"Now?"
"Yes."
"Ok, Luke's?"
"Yes."
Dean laughed.
"You're very argumentive, you know that?"
"Yes."
Rory looked at Dean and laughed, turning away from him for a second, she then looked back at him.
"Cool let's go Rory"
Dean started walking to Luke's and a few seconds Rory followed him.

The two walked to Luke's in silence, not really know what to say, actually Dean was surprised he had the guts to ask Rory to go get coffee with him. Ever since the night he dumped her, he had thought about how much he wanted and needed Rory Gilmore in his life but everytime he tried to ask Rory something or even go see her, he chickened out at the last minute. He couldn't face the girl that he had fallen in love with, admitted he loved, and then got his heart broken by. You know guys break very easily and when Rory Gilmore didn't tell him that she loved him back, he had broken in half... his pride, his heart, his hope... he had never felt the way he did when he was with Rory with any other girl and he doubted he would ever. Dean hadn't really planned on asking Rory out for coffee... but it just seemed like the right thing to do... it wasn't like they were out on a date or anything, they werent..

We're not on a date... at least... I don't think so.