Hello there!

I've had a longer break now, and I decided to finally finish this fic and post it.

This has been swarming around my head ever since the episode "White as the Diven Snow" aired, which is a long time by now. It ties into the events of said episode.

This story is rated T because of the mentions of child abuse and the use of swearwords. It is rather dark, and the outcome is very different from the show, and not in canon. Leave it to you to guess, now :)

I am aware this prologue doesn't say much, let's just say it comes from a very dark place in my head :) It's written from Lisbon's point of view, but not all of this story is.

This fic won't be very long, a few thousand words and maybe three or four chapters and an epilogue, I'm not sure yet how to divide it all.

Please remember I am not a native speaker. Whenever you find mistakes you can't leave there, please let me know.

I hope to hear from you, whether you like this story or not. In both cases, tell me why!

Now, enjoy!

TheReflection

"You have no idea how much you meant – how much you mean to me."

That's what he said.

Only I harshly doubt that. Added to that, I have one concern that beats them all: Will we make it or will we die trying? Are we strong enough or will we fail because we lack in strength?

What do you think? What is your opinion on this?

What, you don't answer me?

Normally you seem oh-so-eager to share your opinion on things, unasked and unwanted.

But, of course you don't answer me. You can't. Because you know nothing.

You, as the reader, can't know anything. Why?

Because you can read the words. You can feel what they express, maybe.

But you will never know them. Experience them.

So I'll let you read about this. You will read the words, my warning long forgotten, and you will think you know.

I'll let you draw your own conclusions about how much you know, then, and refrain from reminding you of the truth.

But, whatever conclusions you draw, know this: You are wrong.

(Note: Please don't take these words personally. Lisbon is rather bitter in this story, so be prepared for more.)