The night was cold and the sky clear Cullen found, as he near enough ran from his tent. The air stung as he breathed in and the stillness around him was almost eerie. Haven wasn't exactly the best place to have to engage in a fight, but it suited the Inquisitions needs for now. It was odd to see no one patrol, he noted. He would need a word with his men in the morning.

Cullen glanced over his shoulder, as if he could still hear the call of the nightmares breaking free from the tent where he left them. He moved quickly to gain as much distance between that place and himself. All but forgetting the oddness of Haven.

The path the Commander followed was well worn, devoid of the snow that covered the rest of the neighbouring mountains. He could still hear the mocking laughs and cruel remarks from within. Chanting a few verses to try find and some assemblance of peace, but none came. His fist connecting with the wooden structure before him. His frustration and anger needing an outlet.

"Commander."

Cullen reeled around at his title, his hand throbbing from the punch he had just placed on the old alchemist's hut. The Herald sat curiously on the large rock in front of the hut. "Oh, Herald. I didn't know…" He rubbed the knot that was forming at the base of his neck. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you." He nodded as he began to make his way back to his tent outside Haven's main gate, praying the demons were gone.

"Couldn't sleep either I take it." Jocelyn sighed as she fell back down. Cullen stopped himself and contemplated whether it was appropriate to join her. "You look rather odd without your armour." Cullen heard her smile rather that seeing it.

"That's only because it's little too uncomfortable to sleep in." Cullen spoke before thinking and blushed at the laugh he managed to get from the Herald. He found it easy to relax around her. The nightmares that was playing deep within, becoming cloudy and soft.

"Care to join me?" Jocelyn sat up again and gestured to the room she made beside her on the rock. Cullen was grateful for the night, as he was sure he was burning red. He couldn't deny that from the moment he saw Jocelyn Trevelyan in the cells under Haven's chantry he was slightly taken aback. Her hair wild and curly, a shade of brown he believed, until he had saw it a few dates later out in the sunlight and realised it was more a deep red. Her cheeks were full and shined pink whenever she smiled, which only made him notice the freckles that spattered them even more adorable. Her eyes were a brilliant blue that pierced into him and Maker her smile. All gleaming white teeth and pure beauty.

"Of course." He croaked after clearing his throat, noticing that he had been staring up at her with no answer for a time. She beamed that toothy grin as he made his way round to sit beside her. She shuffled closer to him and placed her head upon his shoulder, he stiffened in place. They had suffered a rather vocal argument in the War Room earlier that day, so he was slightly surprised at the interaction.

"I'm sorry." He spat.

"For what?" She quickly pulled away from him and looked directly into his eyes. The moon softening the usual electric blue.

"For earlier today, in the War Room. I… I was trying to…" He stumbled.

"It's ok." She said after studying his face carefully and then placing her head back on his shoulder. "You were just doing exactly what you are suppose to be doing. Giving strategic analysis. I should be the one apologising."

"Herald?" Cullen questioned. Maker she could do anything to him and Cullen was pretty sure he would simply smile in the end.

"You know, for always making out you're the Archdemon's advocate or something." She took a deep breath in. "I know that it's nothing personal. Just what's best for the Inquisition, and I have to admit. Our discussions are rather thrilling." She purred, placing her hand on his thigh. He smiled involuntarily.

"I do not want you to think I do not value…" He cleared his throat again. The heat collecting in his cheeks as he muscles twitched to her hands closing proximity. The swallow he made was received with a giggle.

"So much confidence as a Commander. But here and now." She lifted her head to look at him again. "Cullen what are you like outside the War Room, I wonder?" She moved her one leg over Cullen and set lightly on his lap with an agile ease. Her tongue wetting her lips. "Are you as commanding?" She leant in. "Are you as ballsy?" She spoke softly as her hand swiped over his growing bulge.

"I…" Was all Cullen was able to stammer out before her lips were on his. Licking and nipping at all the right intervals.

"Commander." Her voice became layers. Deeper. Pulling away Cullen was no longer looking at Jocelyn Trevelyan. It was her face, for that he was sure, but her eyes had become black and her skin slowly turning a shade of purple. "Commander." She purred again.

"Commander."

Cullen set straight up in his cot. The blanket pooling mostly off to the side. The soldier called him again from just outside his tent. "I will be out shortly." Cullen shouted and slammed his head back against the pillow with a groan. His withdrawal had been improving, however the growing Inquisition had led to more Templars and Mages joining their ranks and with those came the need for lyrium. Also, the argument between the Herald and himself yesterday wasn't exactly helping his emotions and to top it off the demons playing tricks on him in his sleep. He had thought Jocelyn Trevelyan to be a beautiful woman the moment he laid eyes on her, but there couldn't be, there wouldn't be anything more between them, and yet he suffered boyish dreams. Evidently by his stiffness. He lay for a while until the whole dream slowly receded and his bodily reactions along with it.

"Commander?" It was Cassandra.

"Yes, Cassandra. Just a moment." He called as he sat up and rolled his shoulders. He was plastered in a cold layer of sweat and Cassandra entered just in time to catch him as he stood too quickly. Groaning Cullen quickly corrected himself and moved off to get ready for the day.

"Cullen, maybe you should rest…"

"I'm fine." Cullen waved the warrior off. "I.." He began before sighing. "What is it you need, Cassandra?" He pulled his undershirt over head and turned to her.

"You can not put the blame for result of Redcliffe solely on Jocelyn." She started.

"I know. There is no need, Cassandra. I was planning on apologising. It was unfair of me to…"

"Good." Cassandra cheered. " She is by the stables. She has an odd fondness for horses." Cassandra nodded and wandered out of the tent without a second look. Cullen stood for while, bracing himself. The thought of the Herald had brought all sorts of imagines back to mind. Cursing himself he used the now cold water that had probably been left for him earlier that morning, he was sticky with sweat among other things.

The stables were not situated far from Cullen's tent and he had enjoyed the arrival of the horses and stable master. The noises of hooves and grunts during the night had been great help when he had found sleep hard, for reminding him of his family farm and a more untroubling time. He surely needed to write to his sister soon, he thought.

The Herald was indeed by the stables when Cullen eventually ventured out into the cold morning. She had her hair scrunched up into a messy bun, her unruly curls flicking out here and there.

As Cullen delighted in the feel of fresh snow under his boot, purposely cutting across the usually path, he drank in the armour snug against the Herald in all the right places. He noted the colour wasn't all too pleasing, a dull brown, but this was simply down to the practical materials that were used. Cullen was grateful to the blacksmith, Harritt, for fitting the Herald out with practical yet pleasing armour. Cullen had to shake the thoughts that began creeping into his mind about peeling her layers off bit by bit. It was just the demons and nothing more.

"Herald?" He called just as he was a few steps away. "A moment?" He gestured for them to walk. Jocelyn turned and looked at him in suspect for a time, before quietly nodding and walking off, meaning Cullen had to jog a short distance to catch her. "I wanted to apologise. For yesterday." He clarified. "I should not have reacted so…"

"Ungentlemanly" Jocelyn stopped abruptly and folded her arms. "How about a complete arse?" Her face tight with angry. "Cullen, I… I don't see how you could possible think that…" She dropped her hands to her side. Her face showing more disappointment then anger now and that sent a pang of something ineffable through him. "Don't get me wrong, I understand that with your past…"

"My past?" Cullen retorted. The thought of his past defining her views of him made him sick to his stomach.

"Yes, as a Templar. I was simply going to say that has, I'm sure, allowed you to see the worst of mages."

"Yes, I have seen what an unchecked mage can do."

"But you must have also seen the errors in the Templars way." She pressed.

"Yes." Cullen sighed rubbing the knot at the base of his neck. "I'm not saying we should fall into similar ways as the order, just that something needs to be place."

"And I agree. But these checks should be created with the advice from the mages, working alongside us. Who best to devise how to watch them, then themselves."

It was a decent idea. Whether it would work though. "Very well, Herald. I trust in your judgement." Cullen concluded.

"Thanks." A smile played across her features and was her face red? Cullen cleared his throat at the sudden embarrassment that rose between them and quickly excused himself.

Maker preserve him to not fall for the Hearld.