This is my first fanfic. I've had it for quite a while now, i really hope you enjoy it. I've been having this on my myspace account. If you'd like to add me message me! Pls Tell me what you think so far :)

JPOV

I still couldn't believe it, it was as if just yesterday she was born and we were fighting for our lives against the volturi. I never imagined this day to come; I've always been worried about her happiness and giving her all she's ever wanted, that I didn't think of us in that way, just not yet. Therefore I was not ready for what happened last night, sitting in the beach in La Push, we were talking and like always she had something to say, but out of nowhere she was very quiet almost in an uncomfortable way. "Jake," Nessie looked at me, as she spoke my name.
I stared at her mesmerized by her beauty. She took my hand and it felt as if my life was complete, no, beyond complete and I was where I was meant to be, right there next to her, the half-vampire-half-human girl I had imprinted on. Who would've thought that this would happen? Of course I did not ask for this, nor becoming a damn werewolf.
Before all this I was deeply in love with Bella, Nessie's mother. Yes, insane right, such a messed up life I have. Falling for this girl who was in love with not only a vampire but also a damn werewolf being so good looking, me.
But then that leech of a parasite had to almost torture her to death and get her pregnant. What a masoquistic of a rat!
Nessie brought me back to the present as she moved closer to me. I could taste her breath, and taking me by surprise she kissed me full on my lips.
It was amazing; I cannot deny it, soft full lips, fitting perfectly against mine. Her breath so fragile and sweet. But once again I was brought back to reality and I immediately but slowly backed away from her. A second later I regretted my stupid move, what an idiot am I. She looked miserable; I had just hurt her feelings, something I never wanted to do to her.
"I'm sorry," She said in the lowest possible voice I could barely hear. "I don't know...I..." she hesitated, "I just wanted to know how it...I'm sorry,"
I didn't know what to say, I never thought this moment would come, "Nessie, honey" I said as I tried to take her hands off her face, obviously she was embarrassed, I remember my teenage years and those damn crazy hormones.She then took my hands and held them tightly looking deeply through my eyes. She freed one of her hands and placed it on the side of my cheek and showed me what she was feeling. I just stared at her in amazement. She loved me, loved me more than anything, all she did was think and talk about me, she loved me as much as I loved her. She quickly dropped her hand from my cheek as a memory I believe I wasn't supposed to see flashed through her eyes, but I did get a good look at it before she dropped her hand. Me kissing her back and holding her tightly. She broke the eye contact noticing I did get a good look at her vision, and tried to find another spot to stare at.
"I'm sorry..." She told me, "You weren't supposed to see that," She dropped her face and played with her fingers waiting for me to answer back.
"Nessie, you know I care about you...a lot, you are everything to me, but you're so young and," I stopped myself knowing this would bother her, but she was already standing before I tried to calm her down.
"Oh, so it's okay for my mom to marry my dad who's like a hundred years older than her, but I cannot kiss someone who is twenty-five years older than me, that's funny isn't it?"
"You're about 17 years old Nessie,"
"Yes and my father is 17 for life, with a daughter, your point is?"
"Please, Nessie, can we just talk about this later? I'm hoping to end this day as a happy one, I don't want to upset you more honey" I told her hoping she would let it go. She sat down again a bit calmer but still uncomfortable for what just happened.
Then she took my hand and whispered, "I don't get it Jakey," She said as she played with my hand.
"What don't you get Nessie," I answered back hoping this wouldn't lead to another of her adorable mood swings of hers, I always had to fight a smile.
"Well, I don't seem to understand...why you're always there for me, next to me. And why I...I feel the way I do. I mean, I never want to be away from you, I'd rather...die,"
Once again she took me by surprise and she noticed as I tensed up like a rock as she said those lines.
"Nessie, you're just going through a lot, maybe in a year or two I'll tell you, but right now...aren't you satisfied with having me right here next to you?" I said as I hugged her tighter.

I know it's short, I am trying to work on length I tend to go straight to the point and I'm really hoping to get the hang of it soon, thanks. Oh and pls review, i'd appreciate it much.