Title: Finding real family Chapter 1: Realizing

Rating: PG13 for this chapter, R and NC17 later on

Disclaimer: I own nothing, sadly it all belongs to Joss and company

Summary: When Buffy hurts her, who can Willow turn to?

Couples: Faith/Angelus and Willow/Spike

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AN: I don't have a beta reader so if there are mistakes sorry.

AN2: I wrote this forever ago, so beware.

Willow couldn't believe her friends were doing this to her. They were accusing her of doing something that she had had no control over.

She stood there in shock as she listened to Buffy badmouth her.

"How could you Willow? We counted on you to watch him! Now he is gone, doing god knows what, and its all because you couldn't do what we told you to do!"

Willow felt the momentary urge to shrink inside of herself, but decided against it. She had not done anything wrong. If anyone was to blame it was Buffy for not checking the chains.

She listened as Giles tried to defuse the situation. "Buffy, we can not blame Willow. It is not like she meant for this to happen."

Buffy turns to look at her watcher, anger in her eyes, "Giles, how can you not blame her? She could have stopped him! But she didn't and now. Now innocents could be dying!"

Xander states from his seat, "Buffy, taking your anger about everything that is happening out on Willow isn't solving anything."

Buffy rolls her eyes, "Xander, don't talk about what you don't understand. Willow needs to take the rap for what she did." She turns, hand on hip to glare at Willow. "So what do you have to say for yourself?"

By this time Willow is beyond angry, beyond furious. She stands at her full height, and glares at Buffy, ready to speak her mind. "I think that you are blaming me for something that wasn't my fault. Its not my fault that Angel fell in love with Faith and decided to let Angelus in control. It is not my fault Spike, who you kept here as a prisoner, escaped. You left me here with him, knowing full well if he got out I couldn't take him in a fight. No you didn't care about that, you just cared about going out to bang my ex boyfriend, you didn't care that your friend was watching an evil soulless demon for you! So don't you blame me Buffy Anne Summers, if anything this is your fault." She grabs her bag and turns to leave, she stops at the door, turning to say, "I'm out Buffy, don't ask me to help you anymore, cause I wont. You think your so great, do this yourself!" With that she turns and flees Giles apartment.

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Faith watched as Willow walked through the park. She decided it was time to offer her friend a once in the life time chance. A chance to be happy. To have a real family, and be loved, for all eternity.

Faith steps out of the shadows, "Hey Willow."

Willow looks at Faith, tears clouding her vision. Now one would think that were Faith and Angelus were together that Willow would no longer consider Faith a friend. But strangely enough, she did.

"Oh Faith!" Willow cried as she hugged the rogue slayer. "Buffy j just t totally went off on me. She said it was all my fault about Spike escaping. I I lost it, I told her she can fight evil without me. B But now I don't know what to do. I I thought that he liked me, but I guess I was wrong." Willow sniffles as more tears fall.

Faith wrinkles her brow in confusion, "Red what are you talking about? Thought who liked you?" Faith was a little worried that Willow seemed to like someone. Spike would not be happy. He was infatuated with the girl, and planned to have her as his. It had taken many threats from Faith and Angelus, to make sure Spike would not take Willow when he escaped. She had to come willingly.

Willow looks up at Faith, "Its silly never mind."

Faith lifts her chin so that Willow is looking at her, "Will, you can tell me anything you know that. Come on what's wrong?"

Willow takes a sigh to calm herself before starting, "I thought he liked me. I mean we would talk, and he wouldn't treat me like a child, or stupid kid. He listened, actually listened. And I thought that, I mean, if he cared, he would have taken me with him right?"

Faith, even more confused than before questions, "Ok Red, who and were would he take you?"

"Spike, I thought he liked me, maybe even one day he could love me, but I am stupid. Who could ever love me? I kinda hoped that when he escaped, he would take me with him. I would have went voluntarily, goddess I am so pathetic." She cast her eyes downward.

Faith lets out a sharp laugh, that turns to stomach seizing laughs. She calms down when she sees Willow looking at her with a sad face. "Oh Will, I'm sorry, I wasn't laughing at you girl. I was laughing at how blind you are."

Now Willow is the confused one. "Wait, what?"

Faith has to hold down another round of chuckles, "Will, Spike is in love with you. He is totally infatuated. Your all he ever talks about. Do you really think that he didn't let himself get caught. He did it to get close to you. When he escaped he wanted to take you, but Angelus and I said you had to come willingly, I guess he didn't think that you would go."

Willow stands with her mouth agape, "That bleached idiot!" Faith blanched not at all expecting that. "How could he not see that I'm in love with him? Oh, he is so in for it." She turns to Faith with a wicked grin on her lips, "Take me to my vamp Faith, I think he needs to learn a lesson."

Faith swings her arm over Willows shoulder laughing, "Damn Id hate to be Blondie when you get a hold of him Red."

They walk off, laughing arm in arm.