Ok everyone! Finally, I am posting my second story. Most of you have read my other story, so thank you for all of your support and kind words. I hope you like this story!
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the poems used in this story!
Happy Reading!!
Chapter One
APOV
It has been exactly eight months since Edward forced us to leave Bella, 'for her own good'. Yea right! If we were to do what was best for Bella, we would be back in Forks right now! But noooo, like always, Edward thinks he knows what's best.
I told him that this would crush her. Destroy her. But he wouldn't listen. He thinks that she will forget about him, that her memories will fade over time because she is only human. He is wrong.
He has greatly underestimated the love that Bella has for him. In my opinion, I think that her love is even stronger than his. But . . . he forced me to agree, for all of us to agree, to leave Bella alone. We are not to go looking for her, not to talk to her, not to call her, not to write her, or contact her in any other way. And worst of all I am not allowed to look for her future!!!
That is so bogus! I have never met anyone, human or otherwise, that needed as much protection as Bella. She is likely to knock herself out by tripping over air! It's not fair, I love her too. I should be able to make sure she is alright by looking into her future, but no I'm not allowed.
My family is lost without Bella. Everyone has changed. Hell, even Rosalie misses her. Emmett doesn't joke or pull pranks anymore; he just sits around and sulks. My poor Jasper thinks it is entirely his fault, no matter how many times we tell him otherwise. Carlisle doesn't read anymore, and Esme doesn't decorate. Edward is the worst. He just sits up in his room, curled into a ball in the corner.
I miss Bella terribly, but I am confident we will see her again. Our family will be complete. It will take some time for all of our wounds to heal, but we will be back together again.
We are currently living in Alaska; good thing we already had a house set up here, because no one felt like decorating.
I sighed to myself.
I am currently in town, by myself, shopping. More for something to do and to get away from the depressing atmosphere back at the house, than anything else. I don't really need anything.
I walked into the local bookstore, Bella loves books, and maybe I'll get her some for when I see her again.
This brought a content smile to my face. Yes, I will get her something. I just won't tell Edward.
There was a group of people standing around the newly released table talking about a hot young new author. Supposedly, she wrote poetry, but not just poetry, the most beautiful yet heartbreaking poetry in the world.
– is a wonderful author. I can't believe that she is only eighteen! I heard one lady say to her companion.
Yes, her new book of poems came out today. I can't wait to read it. Normally I hate poetry, but her poems really touch you right down to your soul. I cry every time I read her. And did you hear she has a signing in Seattle tomorrow. I so wish I could go! The lady's companion answered excitedly.
Hmm, I wonder who this new poet is. It's not like I needed anymore heartbreak in my life when my entire family is in pain, but something told me that I at least needed to check out this new author. Maybe it would be something Bella would like. She loved to read.
I walked over to the table where the ladies were congregated. I quickly found the book they were gossiping about. As soon as it was in my hand I gasped, causing the gossiping ladies to stare, but I didn't care.
The title was Painful Memories: A Book of Poetry, but that is not what caused me to gasp. It was the name of the author.
"Bella." I whispered sadly, as I quickly turned the book around to look at the author's picture for conformation. And there staring back at me was the one face I longed to see. My best friend, Bella Swan.
But it wasn't the Bella I knew and loved. In this picture she looked about twenty pounds lighter then when I saw her last, her skin paler, and worst of all her eyes were flat, as if all the life had been sucked out of them. What have we done!
"Excuse me Miss, but do you know the author?" one of the ladies asked eagerly, bringing me back from my thoughts.
"Yes. I went to school with her. We were best of friends, before I had to move away with my family." I replied sadly. I was starting to get depressed like the rest of my family.
Now that I had proof that Bella was suffering, I was NOT going to put up with Edward's shit anymore. We were going back to Forks.
"I'm sorry dear. Do you think –" The lady started to ask me, but I excused myself, grabbing six more copies and running to the check out at a fast human pace. I needed to get home.
EPOV
I missed my Bella so much. My angel, my love, my life. Every day is a constant battle, fighting against the ever growing urge to run to her. To hold her in my arms.
I sighed. How I missed her.
Her touch. Her feel. Her warmth. He smell. Her taste. Her brown hair in contrast to her pale skin. Her beautiful blush. Her warm chocolate brown eyes.
I started shaking as fresh sobs broke free from my body.
Esme came bursting through my door, adding her own sobs to mine. She quickly embraced me, trying to sooth my pain.
But it only made me sob harder. I have hurt Esme, my mother. Taken away one of her beloved daughters. I had to be strong for them.
Finally, Esme was able to sooth me, with help from Jasper. I looked at them, my eyes filled with pain, anguish, and gratitude.
"Thank you, Esme. Jasper. For helping me." I whispered. The pain was still there, but the sobs were gone.
"No problem, Edward. You would do the same for me." Jasper murmured. It is entirely my fault. The least I can do is to help take away some of his pain.
"I am here for you whenever you need me, Edward. Remember that, and that your family loves you." Esme whispered soothingly. I hate to see him hurting so. I wish I could make it go away, but he seems to think that this was the right thing to do.
I was just about to answer their thoughts when I was interrupted by the sound of the front door being thrown open, and a shout filled with anger.
"FAMILY MEETING! LIVING ROOM! NOW!" Alice's enraged voice filled the entire house. As soon as Jasper heard her he went running, needing to find out what has upset his wife.
"THAT MEANS YOU TOO EDWARD!" she added, after I thought about ignoring her little demand.
I sighed heavily and stood facing Esme.
"We better go down." I sighed, and she nodded.
When we entered the living room, everyone else was already seated. Every single eye was upon Alice, all of them confused and wondering what was wrong.
Alice just stood with her arms across her chest, tapping her foot impatiently. In one of her hands she was clutching a shopping bag.
"Ok, Alice, we are all here. So, can you please explain the meaning of this so I can go back to my room?" I said without emotion.
I wasn't expecting her reaction. She glared daggers at me screaming "Shut up Edward."
Everyone gasped.
"Alice!" Esme rebuked. "Don't talk like that. What has gotten into you?"
"This has Esme!" Alice snapped back, while throwing a book at each of us.
"You called us all down here to give us a book!" Emmett asked incredulously.
"Take a closer look at the book in your hands, Emmett!" Alice snapped again.
I looked at the cover. It was a book of poetry called Painful Memories. Hmm, I seem to have a lot of those, maybe I have something in common with this author, I wonder who wrote it.
I looked down only to be shocked into stillness.
Written by Bella Swan.
It couldn't be. It had to be a different Bella Swan. I quickly flipped the book over to see the picture of the author that was sure to be located there.
It was my Bella. But not how I remembered her. This Bella was stick thin, almost as pale as we are, and worst of all her once warm chocolate brown eyes were now flat and lifeless.
"Bella." I whispered brokenly. I could feel that everyone's eyes were now on me, but I couldn't look away from her picture.
"My little sister wrote a book?" Emmett screamed excitedly. "No way, that is so cool!"
Alice ran over and smacked him on the back of the head.
"HEY! What was that for?" Emmett retorted.
"Just wait and see. You'll figure it out soon enough." Alice said still annoyed with Emmett. "Let me read some of her poems."
Alice started to read Bella's words out loud.
Painful Memories (Laurie Price)
Feel the blowing leaves and reeds
Lying on our backs in that field
Felt like we were the only humans
Banished in the middle of no where
Staring at the thousands of stars
Feeling the crisp night prickle my spine
Feeling your heart beat so close to mine
And repeatedly saying the same three words
"I love you" is what you told me
Before we promised we would be together
Forever and ever, you have my heart
And I could feel your warm embrace
And now I'm here, all alone
Wondering what I've done so wrong
Watching my whole life before my eyes
And feeling the cruel world crash down on me
Can't you see what pain you've caused?
Can't you see I'm dying. . .
Everyone was quite. Listening to Alice's voice wash us with Bella's pain and heartache.
Esme and Rosalie started to sob silently at the end. Emmett and Carlisle did their best to comfort them.
Heartbroken (Nghi Nguyen)
Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than to be home,
Listening to the crickets' sounds,
Outside the windows.
Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than in the bed,
Closing my eyes,
Falling into a deep sleep,
To forget about the days,
Forget about the nights,
Forget about you.
Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep,
To forget that you are gone,
To forget your lies,
Forget the way,
You told me,
You never loved me,
Forget the way,
You looked at me,
When you left me,
I want to forget,
I want to leave this world,
Close my eyes,
Fall to sleep to stop the heart,
From beating.
I block my ears,
From hearing the sounds,
Like your voice,
Like when you sing to me,
Those lovely songs,
They sounded to tender,
Now they kill me,
They hurt me,
I don't want to hear anything,
Don't want to hear the waves,
Hitting against the sand,
Don't want to hear the birds,
Chirping outside the windows.
Don't want to see my face,
Don't want to see you,
Don't want anything,
That has to do with you,
I want to close,
I want to block away,
The world to stop the pain,
In my heart.
I want my heart to stop beating,
To stop bleeding,
From your words,
Your lies.
Edward? Did you really tell Bella that you didn't love her anymore? Carlisle thought, still trying to comfort a crying Esme.
I nodded my head, never taking my eyes off of Bella's picture.
"How could – " Emmett started angrily.
"Wait!" Alice interrupted, flipping to the back of the book. "I want to read one more."
A Broken Heart
How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I love has gone away?
My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we've shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.
My dreams are filled with your soft gentle kiss,
I wake and cry for all that I miss.
How do I mend a broken heart,
when my one true love and I are apart?
My heart knows to love only you, it won't let go, what do I do?
Our moments together were precious and few,
but I cherished them all more than you knew.
I love you my angel and always will,
I loved you then and I love you still.
Everyone was quite, even the sobbing had stopped.
"She is in pain, Edward." Alice pleaded. I flinched on the word pain. "She still loves you, and will always love you. Do you see now that leaving was the wrong choice? Do you doubt the power of her love for you now?" She needs you as much as you need her.
I finally looked up to find everyone staring at me. I met Alice's sad pleading topaz eyes.
"But what can I do? There is no way she would take me back? I miss her so much." I told Alice. "I love her so much." I added in a soft, almost inaudible whisper.
"We know you do, Edward." Esme cooed soothingly.
"I have a plan, but we have to leave right away and you have to listen to me." Alice said.
"Anything Alice, I promise! Just please tell me!" I begged.
"Everyone, go pack your bags!" she commanded, "We are leaving for Seattle in a half hour tops."
"Seattle?" Jasper and Carlisle asked clearly as confused as the rest of us.
"She has a book signing there tomorrow." Alice said in a way of explanation as she darted up the stairs with Jasper in tow. "I am leaving in half an hour with or without you! So, if you are coming you better get moving!" she added from her room.
Upon her words I shot up to my room and could hear the rest of the family doing the same.
Ok! So, that was the first chapter! I hope you liked it. Please review to tell me what you think. I have to warn everyone that I won't be able to update daily like I was my last story. Because of classes, I am unable to write as much as I would like. I do promise to update at least once a week, but it will probably be more frequently.
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