A/N: hallo, ive been meaning to write this FOREVA! But you see, my computer :no joke: blew up last week, so im working on it at school. One shots and all. :sigh: ok well here you go!

Summary: Edward's POV on why he won't change Bella, right after her 18th birthday.

Live For Me

"I'm getting older Edward…" Bella said solemnly.

The light of the night sky was turning darker by the minute. It was Twilight, my favorite time of day, a promise of a new beginning to a new day. I used to never see Twilight as something special. Just another day in a meaningless life doomed to last forever.

But not anymore, now Twilight is the moment when I can recall on my life with Bella, and look forward to seeing her smiling dace once again.

I chuckled. " Bella love, no matter how many birthdays you have, you'll never be older than me" I stroked her face gently with my left hand, oh how I loved the blush that came to her cheeks, the warmth that can only be found in the living. Can't she see that if I change her that warmth will be gone forever?

She pouted and crossed her arms, oh how she I loved it when she acted mad. You know what I mean, I don't want to be changed when I'm a old hag! I want to be with you now"

I cringed, she was right about one thing, she was getting older. As much as I would hate to see her age while I stayed the same, she had to. It was part of human nature, and it was the part I loved about her the most, her human nature.

She makes me feel human, she makes me feel alive again. If she was like me, she wouldn't have the flaws that make her perfect, the way she can't stand on a flat surface without falling. If she was perfect then she wouldn't be…well…Bella!

She sighed, walking towards me. I had to resist the urge to lunge at her, knowing how fragile she is. Instead I made it up with pulling her into my arms.

I could hear her gasp in surprise, a smiled inwardly as I felt her face heat up against my cold, stone chest. She moved her head and I looked down to meet her beautiful brown eyes, eyes I hoped to never see turn black.

I slowly brought her face to mine, kissing her lightly.

And yet, even with those human flaws I loved, there were those I hated. She wrapped her arms around my back, pulling her self closer to me.

I could almost feel my normal teeth sharpening, turning into fangs, a voice inside my head craving for her blood.

I staggered back, unable to continue the kiss any longer without running the risk of killing her. I looked up, for I had been panting trying to control my vampire nature, to see her eyes.

They looked hurt, hungry, like a vampire before the hunt, only behing the eyes wasnt bloodlust, but love for me.

I looked down, discraced at my behavior again. "im...sory Bella" i mumbled, but i knew even with human hearing, she knew loud and clear what i said.

I felt a warm hand gently touch my cheek. I looked up to see her, at a good distance away as not to tempt fate, but close enough to almost make me faint at her floral smell.

"It's ok Edward. I understand." she said in asweet voice, the blood that boiled inside of me calmed, and i smiled my crooked smile at her, i could just tell a small intake of breath o her part and smiled again, this time mentally. Its strange how the simple thigs i can do that are so...well...simple...can take her breath away.

If only she knew that she has that effect on meas well.

She dropped her hand to her side. "I'll tell you what Edward" she started "ill live a little longer, just for you"

I smiled and took her hand to my face "Thank you Bella" relief spread over me, but i knew she would be at it again tomorrow, and the net day, and the next...but i would be able to handle that.

She would keep living, just for me.

A/N: ya i know, sucky, this is my first Twilight fic, but i love reading them and i love the book, so here it is. I'll be doing a lot more, so keep a look out for me:wink:

-Ash