I wake up to total silence; the other side of the bed feels oddly empty.
"No, she couldn't have, she's not that stupid." I thought, running to find Christina. I sprint to the chasm and while turning the familiar corner, run straight into Christina. We fall to the ground in a jumble of limps.
"Four, what's wrong?! She asks dumbfounded by the not-so-hidden frantic look in my eyes.
"Where is Tris? I manage to blurt out.
"I thought she was with you, no one had seen her all morning…"
We both turn ghostly pale. We sit on the ground in silence. I abruptly get up and turn.
"… you don't think she?" Christina says
"I've got to go." Christina tries to say something, but I am already out the door.
It is 3 minutes until the next train so I have to move fast. I navigate my way through the compound, passing grief-stricken faces of Lynn and Uriah after Marlene's death. I hear my name shouted from behind me but I do not miss a step. I get to the platform with no time to spare. I tear through the concrete and launch onto the train. The impact is no different than the other times but this time for once, it is for something more important than me, because I couldn't live with myself if Tris got hurt or worse…
I have to stop thinking about it. When I turn myself in being weak is not an option, it never is. The occasional grind of the rail calms my mind as a wait to see Tris.
"Why are you such a coward? Why didn't you go first? Why couldn't you be as brave as Tris?...be brave enough to risk yourself for her. She could forgive me and herself if I died for her. I couldn't live with myself if she...Stop thinking about it. She will be perfectly fine. If not they can kill me, because I love no one other than Tris.
Christina POV
I sit on the bars of the chasm looking at the white water, the spray hitting me as a wave hits the sharp narrow edges of the chasm. I get down and walk towards the cafeteria, hungry oddly enough. The feeling hasn't come much since Will died. As I turn I feel a blown as I stumble to the group as I look up I am surprised to see Four. I have never seen him this frantic.
"Four, what's wrong?! I yell
"Where is Tris? I manage to blurt out.
"I thought she was with you, no one had seen her all morning…" I squeak, my mind racing. I just got her back I can't lose her too. I already lost Al and Will no one else can be gone.
"… you don't think she?" I say. Four turns a ghostly white while getting up.
"I've got to go." Four whispers in a tone that sends a chill up my spine. He turns and begins a full on sprint.
"Don't lose her." I yell, but he doesn't even flinch like he hasn't heard me at all.