how i l called you dear to me -k jounouchi some stupid team assignment got me stuck with you for a whole month. one month of living with you, I had to move in. we had figure out how to get along and i screamed at you, you didn't say a damn word. what did i say? you let it go and went on with the day the week and then we where sitting in your room i said something you thought was so ridicules that laughed so hard you cried. i made that happen a lot when we where alone, even once at school. then your brother said lets go swimming and you said no. i went and argued with you that it was a simple request. to which you glared and "he doesn't need to see it"
i stared at you i didn't understand and i let it go. the month was over and i left my stuff at your place, i kept bothering you at lunch, and stayed the night at your house again. left to myself at home i wondered about you. about what you hid. i wanted to know without asking. i eventually found that i wanted more than anything for you to want me to know. want to trust me. i watched you on tv when i was at yugs house, i watched how strong you are how you put down problems before they rise. how you hold it all up on your shoulders because you don't trust them. you don't let go i realize, you don't want control, you don't even want all that you have, but you need it because by now, who are you without it? do you want to let go?
want to let someone else take the reigns?
I wonder and I feel lost for a moment before I like myself again, an old train of thought I believed I had left behind. Here I was thinking in a forward motion, you let me know you and I wanted more. Thinking in a forward motion I realized I knew how to move you without you knowing. Only because you let me know. So now I find myself in you living room waiting for you to walk in the door, barge in before the maid can get the door.
'bad day?'
you look at me startled, funny. One month crammed together, we don't argue with the same venom we did. It doesn't come to blows anymore. You had a bad day and see me sitting here, is that relief? You sag into the seat next to me and just sit there I see you unwinding just because your not alone, or is it because I'm here? We stay like that until you fall asleep. Sitting here next to you knowing, this is you letting me in. you never do this, you never sleep when someone is watching even your brother. There are sound asleep, you body slumps so your head is tilted toward your shoulder. I move you so you can lay down, you don't even notice. Is that how much you trust me? I move to the floor in front of the couch your now sprawled over, running my fingers over the cold metal of the dog tag around my neck.
When you wake up you find something out of place, something on you that doesn't belong. You get up confused, I watch you from the corner of my eye. I'm pretending to watch tv, but I see your face and your hand reaches to your chest. Where a silver tag hangs from around your neck. My dog tag, the thing I've worn since I cant remember when. You hold it up in your palm staring at it, you don't ask why its there. I think you know me well enough to know its my way of saying you are dear to me.
i stared at you i didn't understand and i let it go. the month was over and i left my stuff at your place, i kept bothering you at lunch, and stayed the night at your house again. left to myself at home i wondered about you. about what you hid. i wanted to know without asking. i eventually found that i wanted more than anything for you to want me to know. want to trust me. i watched you on tv when i was at yugs house, i watched how strong you are how you put down problems before they rise. how you hold it all up on your shoulders because you don't trust them. you don't let go i realize, you don't want control, you don't even want all that you have, but you need it because by now, who are you without it? do you want to let go?
want to let someone else take the reigns?
I wonder and I feel lost for a moment before I like myself again, an old train of thought I believed I had left behind. Here I was thinking in a forward motion, you let me know you and I wanted more. Thinking in a forward motion I realized I knew how to move you without you knowing. Only because you let me know. So now I find myself in you living room waiting for you to walk in the door, barge in before the maid can get the door.
'bad day?'
you look at me startled, funny. One month crammed together, we don't argue with the same venom we did. It doesn't come to blows anymore. You had a bad day and see me sitting here, is that relief? You sag into the seat next to me and just sit there I see you unwinding just because your not alone, or is it because I'm here? We stay like that until you fall asleep. Sitting here next to you knowing, this is you letting me in. you never do this, you never sleep when someone is watching even your brother. There are sound asleep, you body slumps so your head is tilted toward your shoulder. I move you so you can lay down, you don't even notice. Is that how much you trust me? I move to the floor in front of the couch your now sprawled over, running my fingers over the cold metal of the dog tag around my neck.
When you wake up you find something out of place, something on you that doesn't belong. You get up confused, I watch you from the corner of my eye. I'm pretending to watch tv, but I see your face and your hand reaches to your chest. Where a silver tag hangs from around your neck. My dog tag, the thing I've worn since I cant remember when. You hold it up in your palm staring at it, you don't ask why its there. I think you know me well enough to know its my way of saying you are dear to me.