A/N: I didn't think I'd be able to do this but…I'm now writing an angst multi-chap because angst multi-chaps get all the attention…I mean, just look at them! All review-filled…Well, that's why I'm doing one too…
Disclaimer: I don't own anything. YET.
Logan always thought he didn't belong in Big Time Rush with Kendall, James and Carlos. He always thought that he had no talent. He keeps thinking that he's no good at singing or dancing. Sure, he can back flip but that's all he can do to please the crowd. He thought he was dragging everybody else down.
He slowly got out from bed, rubbing his right eye and pushed the door open to the kitchen, where he found James on the phone with someone and Mrs. Knight fixing up a bowl of cereal.
"Good Morning, Logan! Here's some cereal..." Mrs. Knight said, cheerfully as always.
Logan mumbled a thanks and sat down on the chair, drinking some milk through his spoon. He heard James put down the phone and sigh. James seemed stressed about something but who isn't? Gustavo has been making them rehearse harmonies and practice dance moves from eight in the morning to six at night for the past week. Their throats have been hurting like crazy and their legs have been feeling all wobbly every time they come home from the studio.
"James, what's wrong?" Logan asked.
"Gustavo's extending rehearsal by an hour today…I never thought I would hate singing and dancing on a daily basis so much…" James said, obviously upset.
Logan doesn't think he can keep doing this anymore. He knows that Gustavo only gets mad at him because he has no graceful dancing abilities or a good voice like the others. He can't be in Big Time Rush anymore if he doesn't have the skills needed. All he's doing is pulling James further and further away from his dream. He can't keep going when he knows that if he stays, James will never get what he wants.
He heard a door open and saw Mrs. Knight carrying a laundry basket to his room. James inside the bathroom to fix himself and get ready for rehearsals so that leaves him in the kitchen, stuck with the job of waking up Kendall and Carlos.
As Logan walked to Kendall and Carlos' room, he thought of how much he hates having to wake them up. They're really heavy sleepers and every time he tries to shake them awake, he gets either punched in the face or kicked in the groin and that's not the only reason he hates waking them up. Kendall and Carlos also sleep naked almost every night, if you know what I mean.
Logan pushed open the door to Kendall and Carlos' room and walked over to Kendall's bed and sure enough, he was naked. "Hey Kendall, buddy…Wake up…We have rehearsals later" Logan whispered as he shook Kendall and in three seconds, he got kicked in the groin by a sleepy Kendall.
"Ow! Kendall we have rehearsals today!" Logan yelled, in pain.
"Fine…Fine…Just get out of here…I'll get ready…Wake up Carlos…" Kendall said as he stood up to get some clothes.
Logan then walked over to Carlos who was also naked. Big surprise. He shook Carlos and got hit in the face and it burned like hell.
"What do you want, Logan?" Carlos said, irritated.
"Carlos, we have rehearsals today…" Logan said, with pain in both his groin and his cheek.
"Rehearsals again? I don't wanna! I'm too tired to rehearse!" Carlos whined.
"Well, we're going to have to do what Gustavo says…"Logan said, with a sigh.
Carlos stood up and in two seconds, dropped to the floor. Logan helped him up and seated him on the bed.
"That totally hurt…Kendall must've banged me too hard last night—I mean…I tripped last night and…Broke my ankle! Yeah, that's what happened…" Carlos said, nervously.
Logan knew that Kendall and Carlos are 'secretly' together. It was really obvious. He didn't know if anyone else noticed but he's not an idiot and he figured it out easily about three months ago when he heard moans and several yells of 'Kendall' and 'Carlos.'
"Sure…Whatever, Carlos…I'm going to call Mrs. Knight to help you out…I have to get ready…"Logan said and left the room.
Logan saw Mrs. Knight eating an orange and politely told her to help Carlos out in the bedroom. Mrs. Knight mumbled an okay and left for Kendall and Carlos' room. Logan walked to his room and picked some clothes in his closet and went to the bathroom to shower.
While he was showering, he thought about him quitting the band or not. Logan wants James to have his dream. James deserves it. James keeps working hard and tries his best to do his best in everything he does and the time that James is spending doing his best is being wasted because Logan's bringing him down anyway.
Logan really didn't want to quit because even though he wasn't great at it, he still loved singing and dancing. He still loved to hear that the fans support Big Time Rush despite his crappy singing and dancing skills. He loved hearing his friends' voices and his own singing back to him in a beautiful song.
Logan has made his decision. Even though this decision isn't good for the band, it's what he wants.
A/N: If this is crappy, tell me to delete it and I totally will…I'm not even sure if this is angst…