By: Shirley Ann Burton
The Anytime Disclaimer:
The
Magician, and all other related material, are copyrighted by Gaumont
Multimédia. You know about the use of Angela Jacobs by now.
However, Jas Lee is Casey Toh's character, and I did receive permission
to use her in this story. This is my reflection about what I went
through on September 12, 2001.
NOTE:
There are three parallel worlds being used in this story, and two of them
have not had this occur. I want to clear this up now before
you start reading it.
On a bright
sunny day in Electro City, Ace Cooper and his friends sat outside of the
Magic Express, all enjoying a barbecue lunch.
Angela
Jacobs, training magician and superb chef, had cooked plenty of steaks
and vegetable kabobs for everyone to enjoy.
Lt. Derek
Vega and Ms. LeSage had a day off from work at the police department, although
Vega had to keep his beeper with him under orders from the chief, Capt.
Friedrichs.
"Angie,"
said a very satisfied Vega, "this steak is delicious! So well done
and so good!"
His secretary
agreed. "Mmm, mmm. I have never had steak this good, not even
from the Scorpio."
Cosmo,
longtime apprentice and technological wizard of Ace's "family" also found
the kabobs very appealing. "Wow, grilled vegetables have an awesome
taste!"
Ace went
up to Angie, who continued keeping the food hot. "Angie, this barbecue
is a success. I think it was a wonderful idea to have it here.
Our own private spot, our closest friends, and nothing to worry about today."
"Yeah,"
said a happy Angie, "no show for a couple of weeks, and a beautiful day
to do a cookout."
Victor
Raven, Angie's boyfriend, enjoyed the food as well. "This is so scrumptious.
This food could easily outdo any of the mall's restaurants."
Angie smiled
at him. "Aw, you're just saying that."
"No, really.
You learned so much from your mother."
Mona Malone,
Ace's girlfriend, was unable to attend the barbecue, as she had to prepare
to sing that night at her father's Croesus Palace casino.
"I need
to make sure I save some of the food for Mona," said Angie. "I think
someone
was supposed to be here to pick up the food."
To their
surprise, Spade and Diamond had arrived in their car.
Spade stepped
out and said, "Um, hi. We're here to pick up the food for Mona."
Angie took
the kabobs and a well-done steak, placed the food on a paper plate, and
wrapped the plate in some aluminum foil. "You sure you won't eat
it first, Spade?"
"Ha ha
ha, very funny, Jacobs." He then took the plate and chuckled as he
went back into the car.
In seconds
the two men sped away in their car, while Angie hoped Spade would not eat
the food before it got to Mona's home.
Ace reassured
her. "Don't worry, Angie. If Mona doesn't get that food, she
said her father would punish him pretty good. Plus, one phone call
to either me or Jack does make Spade very nervous."
"Yeah,
true. Let's just enjoy the rest of the day, since you never know
what tomorrow could bring."
"Right."
The second
Ace left her side, Angie suddenly felt a strange chill going down her back.
What
the—? What's this weird feeling?
In her
mind, fuzzy visions came to her, but they were so blurry she was unable
to tell what was happening. I can't tell what's going on.
They're going so fast. She then decided not to worry about it.
Nah,
it's probably just me. Maybe I'm just excited about the new act we're
working on for that show in a couple of weeks. Angie smiled and
went back to her cooking again.
Little
did she know those fuzzy visions were about to lead to something no one
would believe…no one in her world, that is…
**The Next Morning**
Angie was
calmly meditating in her room as she spoke to her deceased parents, like
she had always done every morning to help her prepare for the day.
"Good
morning, Mom n' Dad."
"Morning,
sweetie," said her dad Robert. "I guess the barbecue went very well
yesterday."
"Yes,
it did. And Spade didn't eat the food. Mona phoned me last
night that the food was wonderful. If Spade ate it before it reached
her, her father was gonna punish him but good."
Nancy,
her mother, chuckled in delight. "Well, her father is a big boss,
so I wonder if the punishment was going to be cement shoes and being thrown
in the water."
"Right,"
said a laughing Angie. "Boy, oh, boy, I'm so excited about the new
act we're working on, maybe too excited. I was having all these nutty
visions yesterday. I mean, they were racing so fast, they were hard
to tell."
"Hmm,"
said Robert, becoming slightly concerned. "Did you tell Ace about
them?"
"No.
I don't think they mean anything in all honesty."
"Well,
okay. Maybe you're right. Sometimes being very excited about
something can bring on some strange sights. I guess I'm worrying
too much."
"Dad,
that's what parents are for, constant worrying."
Nancy
giggled. "Oh, Angie, ever since you joined up with Ace and Cosmo,
you've become more outgoing, not the shy quiet girl we raised. We're
so happy you have a place where you can open your feelings instead of bottle
them inside."
"That
is so true. I don't feel so alone anymore. I'm grateful to
them, and to you for being there for me."
"You
know we'll always be there for you, honey. We sometimes worry ourselves
too much about you."
"I understand,
Mom. Parenthood is never an easy thing. Well, I need to wake
up. The morning is feeling breezy, which is perfect for a walk."
Robert
smiled. "Okay, honey. You have a good day, okay?"
"I will.
I love you both."
Her
parents hugged her. "We love you, too, Angie."
Angie awakened
from her meditation and sent a thought to Ace. I'm gonna head
out for a morning walk.
Good.
Exercise will do some good both physically and spiritually. How long
you need?
I'll
be back in a half-an-hour.
Okay.
She then
got dressed in some sweats and walked out of the Magic Express.
The morning
sun was coming up as she felt the comfortable breeze running through her
light brown hair. "Ah," she said after taking a deep breath.
"It's so nice this morning. I don't think anything could go
wrong today."
Just then,
the breeze suddenly became stronger, and as Angie had a struggle to move
forward, something flew into her face. She was able to stop herself
from falling down by leaning against a nearby tree.
The breeze
quickly lightened up, leaving Angie a little restless as she took whatever
landed on her face off it. "Oh, boy, me and my big mouth," she said
sarcastically. "Forecast didn't call for any gusty winds today."
She then
noticed the object in her hand. Normally, her telemetric power would
come to life, yet it did not happen this time mainly because no one had
touched the object as of yet. "Hmm, this looks like a newspaper."
Unraveling
the paper she saw a very odd picture on the front page. Curiously
she asked herself, "What's this? It looks like…two skyscrapers on
fire." She then noticed a radio antenna on top of one of them.
"Wait a minute. It couldn't be…" She then read the headline
in huge letters. "September 11, 2001: Pearl Harbor for the
21st Century. How weird. This newspaper's dated on the
next day, the 12th. I wonder why my telemetry didn't kick in this
time. Someone must've owned this newspaper before."
Feeling
very unsure of herself, she decided to go back to the Magic Express.
A few minutes
later, she quickly entered Ace's home, much to Cosmo's surprise.
"Whoa, Angie, what's the rush?" he asked after noticing Angie's rapid movement
towards the computer room.
"No time
to explain, Cosmo," she said in panted breath. "I need Angel's help
on this."
He followed
behind her, wanting to understand what had suddenly made her anxious.
Angie entered
the computer room first. "Angel, I need you to analyze something,
please."
The purplish-pink
dodecahedron appeared in front of Angie. "What would you like me
to look at?"
"This newspaper.
It's dated September 12, 2001, but I need you to check its authenticity."
"Put it
on my scanner, and I will examine the newspaper carefully."
Cosmo was
very curious. "What's up with a newspaper dated from more than 30
years ago?"
"That's
one of the weirdest things about it," Angie stated as she placed the paper
on Angel's scanner. "It's dated that long ago, but it looks like
it was just printed this morning. Most papers from that far back
would be yellow and worn by now."
"Hmm."
He saw the large-print headline. "Pearl Harbor…the Naval base in
Hawaii attacked without warning by the Japanese on December 7, 1941?"
Angie was
surprised by the young man's knowledge. "How do you know about Pearl
Harbor?"
Cosmo stared
at Angie with a smirk. "Angie, I did learn more than just
technology in my times at school."
"Sorry,
Cosmo," Angie giggled. "Didn't mean anything."
"It's cool."
He then saw the strange image. "No way…the World Trade Center's famous
Twin Towers on fire?"
"You know
about them, too?"
"Mm-hmm.
Watching that Thanksgiving Day parade helps me learn more about New York
City."
"And they
say television has no educational value anymore."
The two
friends chuckled in fun with that jab.
In less
than two minutes, Angel completed her analysis of the mysterious newspaper.
"This newspaper is truly authentic. The inks on this were made this
morning, yet it is dated more than 30 years in the past."
Ace then
walked into the room. "Angie, I sensed something uneasy from you.
What's going on?"
"This newspaper
flew into my face in a sudden gust of wind while I was walking. This
looks like an historic newspaper, but Angel says it was printed just this
morning. Plus, no telemetric impressions. How can that be?"
"You mean
no one has touched this newspaper?"
"No."
"How strange."
"No kidding."
Ace then
saw the strange picture on the front page. "Those skyscrapers…the
two tallest towers of the seven-building World Trade Center complex in
New York City. I went there once. Angel, is there any history
of the Trade Center towers ever being on fire?"
"None whatsoever,
Ace. There is no recorded history about the towers ever being on
fire here."
Cosmo then
noted, "Wait a sec…what if this newspaper came from another world?"
Angie looked
at him strangely. "That's not possible, Cosmo. How can a newspaper
come from a different world?"
"Well,
remember, people have been known to cross worlds before."
"True.
Perhaps objects can do that as well."
Ace walked
around the room. "This paper must have come from a different world,
but which one?"
Angie sat
in the chair and said, "Good question."
"Um, Ang,"
said Cosmo, "don't you have the ability to sense someone in each of two
dimensions?"
"Yeah,
I do, but I can only communicate with Shirley in her world. I've
never tried it with Jas."
Ace looked
at her and said, "Why don't you give it a try? Perhaps you can
contact Jas Lee in her dimension."
"How?"
"Close
your eyes."
Angie did
so without hesitation. "Now what?"
"Just relax,
and let yourself go."
She took
calm deep breaths and started feeling herself going somewhere else.
"Now, just
call out to her."
Angie's
inner voice then took over. Jas…Jas Lee…can you hear me?
**Jas Lee's World**
In the same
Magic Express…in another dimension, a young woman with blond hair practiced
her karate in the training room. She did a series of jabs and roundhouse
kicks against a giant sandbag.
Since she
joined the Magician a couple of years earlier, Jas Lee had found a home
where she was able to love and be loved by caring friends.
Not too
long ago, a dimensional rift allowed Jas to meet Angela Jacobs in a mirror
world. The two young ladies became very close friends, helping each
other through their tough times. They braved facing two Sonny Boys,
Black Jacks, Spades, Diamonds, one Faceless, and fear gas which nearly
took Angie's life.
With their
friends, Angie and Jas overcame their personal adversity and were able
to stop all the villains together, especially Faceless.
Strangely,
they were worlds apart yet were able to sense each other…each one's pain,
each one's thoughts. They never did communicate before, but that
was about to change.
"Yah!"
Jas yelled out as she kicked hard into the sandbag.
Jas…Jas
Lee…can you hear me? asked a female voice.
"Huh?"
the young woman gasped while startled. "Who's there?" She got
herself quickly into a defensive position.
Jas,
relax. It's me…Angie.
"Angie…in
your world? How can this be?"
We are
still able to feel each other, Jas. I have made contact with you
because I need to ask you something rather important.
Jas closed
her eyes to communicate mind-to-mind with her friend in another world.
Okay,
Angie. What do you want to know?
I need
to know if your world has any history of the World Trade Center's two tallest
skyscrapers ever being on fire.
On fire?
What do you mean?
I'll
explain in a moment, Angie thought anxiously. Just trust me,
please.
Jas reassured
her. Don't worry, Angie. I do trust you. I'll ask
Angel about it.
She opened
her eyes and called out to the computer. "Angel, need some info,
please."
"I am at
your disposal, Jas. What information do you seek?"
"Is there
any history of two tallest buildings of the World Trade Center in New York
City ever being on fire?"
After about
10 seconds, the AI had an answer. "No. There is no incident
in our history of the 'Twin Towers' engulfed in flames."
Jas then
had another idea. "What about the movies?"
"No, no
movies have been made about that situation, either."
"Okay,
thanks, Angel." Sorry, Angie. No such situation has ever
occurred here. Now, can you please tell me what this is about?
Angie thought
to Jas about the mysterious newspaper, the headline, and the strange picture.
It's
dated September 12, 2001. However, since it's not your world, I know
which one it is now.
Which
one?
What do you mean?
I can
communicate with another person in her world. Where she is, I am
the one she created.
Incredible,
Jas thought. You can make contact with me in my world and your
creator in hers. That's amazing.
Yes,
but this would also explain a lot.
**Angela's World**
Back in
Angie's world, Ace took the newspaper and looked past the front page.
"Hmm, this appears to be some kind of timeline for what happened.
I—" He stopped because he saw an even more disturbing image.
"No…it couldn't have happened."
Cosmo saw
the grave look on Ace's face. "What's wrong, dude?"
"Look at
this picture."
The young
man looked at what looked like a blooming flower. "No way!
Both towers!?"
Angie herself
was still in contact with Jas. I appreciate your help, Jas.
I'm sorry if I disturbed you in any way.
It's
okay, Angie. You didn't know which dimension the paper came from,
so you wanted to check all the possibilities. Besides, it's nice
to hear from you again.
Same
here, my friend. I miss you a lot.
So do
I. However, we're still connected by the power within both of us.
We are friends forever.
Yes,
we are, Angie thought with a smile. Maybe we can talk more
often…under less wacky circumstances.
True,
true. Well, I'm waiting for Ace and Cosmo to come back with some
goodies. They miss your cooking.
Why
am I not surprised? I'd better go for now. So long, Jas, and
thanks again.
So long,
Angie. Take care of yourself.
The link
between the two friends faded, and Angie opened her eyes with her smile
growing wider.
Ace looked
at Angie. "Any luck?"
"Nope.
It's not Jas's world. She checked with Angel there and said there
was nothing in their history."
"Well,
um, I don't know if you'll believe this." He gave her the newspaper.
"Look at the two pictures on page 2."
Angie looked
and gasped in shock as her smile changed to one of horror. "It's
not possible…both towers collapsed!?"
"Yes, and
according to the timeline, the two towers were struck by huge jet liners…on
purpose."
"WHAT!?
You mean two planes deliberately crashed into both towers?"
"It seems
that way. The headline makes a lot more sense than it did a couple
of minutes ago."
"Yes…and
now I know which world this has happened in. I have to make contact
with Shirley in her world right now." Angie closed her eyes and quickly
focused her heart to find her creator's. "I feel…shock, disbelief,
pain, and sadness in her heart. It is her world." Shirley,
it's me, Angie. Please hear my thoughts.
**My World**
I was at
home during the week because I volunteered for the "one-week layoff" situation,
which occurred when the workload was so low. At least one person
would volunteer to take one week from work to have a regularly sustained
backlog.
Sleeping
in felt very comfortable, and I was doing fine, but it all went bad by
about 8:15 that Tuesday morning. I was just flipping channels on
the television set when I noticed a very odd sight: a World Trade
Center building on fire. At first I thought it was a movie, but then
realizing the cameras and the reactions of the reporters, it was no
movie. I then thought it was some kind of accident, a probable plane
accident.
As I saw
footage of the second plane, though, I realized this wasn't an accident
after all…it was pure terrorism. After telling Mom about the
situation, I decided to try getting my mind off this seemingly growing
nightmare.
Things
grew progressively worse for the next couple of hours, as reports of two
more hijacked planes were being broadcast, including one reporter getting
a very close call with one of the planes, especially where he was reporting.
Then, just
as things couldn't get any worse, I went back to the news again, and noticed
something seriously wrong: One of the towers was no longer in view.
I didn't know that first one crumpled to the ground at the time.
I did
see the second one go down live, and that was one of the scariest things
I had ever seen on television.
I e-mailed
Frances Marshall, asking her if she were all right, since she was busy
at school. I had never felt that vulnerable in my entire life.
That night,
sleep was literally out of the picture, and in all honesty, I felt like
a jinx. For the second time, I had taken a week off from work, and
something bad happened. First was Rocky's sudden death, and now this!
"I hope I never take a week off from work again!" Despite
the madness, I did manage to get about two hours of sleep.
When I
woke up the next morning, I really hoped it was nothing more than just
a horrible nightmare. Reality did set in, though, after I saw the
skyline on television, with no towers.
I was sitting
in my bed, trying desperately to get away from the news.
It was
then I heard someone's voice in my mind. Shirley, it's me, Angie.
Please hear my thoughts.
"Angie?"
Yes.
Shirley, I know about what happened in your world…yesterday.
"You do?
How?"
A newspaper
came into my world with today's date from your world on it. It is
September 12th, right?
"Yes, it
is," I responded slowly. "I wish this were just a nightmare."
I know
you're very scared right now, she thought to me calmly. I want to
come to your world and talk to you. Is that all right?
"Sure,
it's okay. Mom's outside working on her plants right now."
Stay
in your room. I'm coming.
**Angie's World**
The female
magician opened her eyes and looked at her friends. "Shirley could
use a little help right now, so I'm going to her world."
"Want us
to go with you?" Cosmo asked.
"No, no
need to go. I think right now she's trusting only me. No offense,
guys."
Ace smiled.
"Understandable, considering she's been through the most horrible day in
her world's history. Perhaps it's best if you go by yourself and
just comfort her."
"Right."
As quickly
as she spoke, a portal mysteriously opened up in the middle of the living
room…directly into my room in my world. "See you later, guys.
Oh, and check that newspaper for any other information about this situation."
"You got
it, dudette," Cosmo responded.
Angie then
walked through the portal and into my room. She noticed my nightgown.
"Hmm, same one you wore when Rocky passed on," she said sadly.
"I'm jinxed,"
I stated in near tears.
"What are
you talking about? Why do you think you're cursed?"
"It's my
week off from work, and something bad has happened again! I am a
jinx!"
Angie sat
down at the edge of my bed, seeing I was still in my blanket. "Shirley,
just because something bad's happened on your week off form work for the
second time doesn't make you a jinx. The timing was just bad,
that's all."
"That's
just it. It's me. I swear if they want a voluntary layoff for
a week, I'm going to do something to steer clear of doing that again."
"Shirley…if
the workload gets too low, someone has to take a week off, right?"
"Yes, but
still—"
"Stop.
Now I know this is a major tragedy…something that has never happened in
my world."
"I know,
and now I'm having major league writer's block, too."
Angie became
curious. "What do you mean? You're stuck?"
"Yeah,
but it's not the current story, it's one I have been planning to do in
the next couple of months, where your darkness finally surfaces."
"Oh, that
one."
"Yeah…I
had planned on having you be kidnapped and taken to a government scientist
working in the Pentagon in Washington, DC."
"The Pentagon?"
Angie asked excitedly. "Cool! I would be a prisoner in the
world's longest office building?"
"Yes, and
I was pulling everything together to write it…until the Pentagon itself
was attacked yesterday."
"No…the
Pentagon, too?"
"It was
hit by another jet liner."
Angie didn't
want to believe me, so she made psychic contact with Ace. Shirley
said the Pentagon was also struck! Can you please check the newspaper
to confirm that?
Back in
the Magic Express, Ace heard Angie's message and immediately checked the
paper. "Let's see, Pentagon…Pentagon…Penta— oh, no." He saw
the damage done in another photo.
Cosmo looked
at the image and then shook his head. "Unbelievable…three targets
in under an hour."
Angie,
Ace thought to her, Shirley's exactly right. The Pentagon was
hit by another jet liner, and a part of it fell, too. There's one
last report of a fourth plane, but it went down somewhere in Pennsylvania.
The prelim reports are saying some of the passengers resisted the hijackers
and prevented the plane from reaching its target. What that was,
we may never know.
Angie couldn't
believe it was true. Now Shirley is in a bad writing predicament.
She was going to write me being kidnapped and taken to the Pentagon.
She's stuck.
Let
me try something. Ace then made contact with me. Shirley,
can you hear me?
I decided
to respond by thought before Mom could hear me talking to myself and thought
I was crazy. Yeah, I'm here.
Shirley,
listen to me. I can understand you won't be able to write for a little
while, but you can't let what happened stop you from going on with your
life. You and millions of others will be grieving for a very long
time. However, the people who were responsible for these horrible
acts want you to stop living and hide.
I…I
know. I need some help in how to do the story in Washington without
causing people to get upset. I know I can no longer use the Pentagon,
period. To me it would be very disrespectful for those affected by
this.
That's
understandable. Right now, though, you need time to grieve, and then
start to heal.
"If there's
one thing I'm not about to do, it's letting those responsible get to me.
The best way to beat them is for me to just live my life."
Angie smiled
and said, "Good for you. I know you'll break down and cry to yourself
ever so often, but remember that we're always here for you whenever you
need a friend to talk to."
"And my
online friends, too. I know I'm not alone, and I don't want to live
in fear. Doing that means they win without lifting a finger."
"Right.
Will you be okay now?"
"Well,
all I can do is try to be okay. I mean, this has never happened before."
"And…we
all pray that it will never happen again."
We both
looked at the television screen at the famous New York City skyline…only
this time, two famous landmarks were no longer standing there.
I did break
into tears. "Why did this happen? I thought in this day and
age the world would basically be at peace."
Angie embraced
me for comfort. "Shirley, there could be hundreds or thousands of
reasons for this. It would be nice to live in a perfect world…but
we don't, and we never will. Somewhere in the world, someone has
a grudge against someone else for some reason. All we can do is just
try to live our lives the best way we can, without fear."
"This is
one thing magic can't fix," I said sadly.
"It would
never be able to. Magic can't alter history, no matter how badly
some people would want it to make the world a better place."
"Angie…thanks
for being here with me. And, you, too, Ace."
I'm
always here for you, and so are Angie, Cosmo, Zina, and the others.
You are not alone, and we won't let you feel that way, ever. It's
a terrible wake-up call for everyone, knowing now that no one is invulnerable.
I know we'll see you again, and probably soon.
"I appreciate
that, Magician. Thanks."
Angie then
released her hug and looked at her watch. "I need to get back.
We have a performance coming up in two weeks, and we're trying to perfect
our grand finale."
I dried
my eyes out and said, "Sure thing, Ang. I'm glad you came."
"I'm glad
you're all right, but I will be thinking about the people who lost their
lives yesterday for quite a while."
"So will
I, Ang. So will I."
The portal
reopened in my room and led back to the living room in her world.
"Take care of yourself, Shirley, and live your life to the fullest."
"Same to
you, Angela."
Angie walked
through the portal and was soon back in the Magic Express living room again.
When she
fell into the sofa, she started sobbing.
Ace, Cosmo,
and Zina walked in and comforted her as best they could.
"Aw, it's
okay," said Cosmo calmly. "We looked at the paper and just couldn't
believe what happened. Will Shirley be all right?"
"I don't
know," she said. "All she can do is take this one day at a time,
like everyone else in her world. She understands what has happened
and will not forget it, but she won't stop her life because of this tragedy."
Ace handed
her a handkerchief and allowed her to dry her eyes. "The people in
Shirley's world have been through something very catastrophic, and it will
take a long time for this deep wound to heal. I think the people
in her world will be able to find productive ways of dealing with what
has happened. They'll pull through this somehow."
"I hope
you're right, Ace," Angie said seriously.
"Trust
me, Angie. They will get through this."
Epilogue:
In the days
that followed, there was a national day of prayer and remembrance, as well
as a weekend to reflect, especially since there were no sports events taking
place. That was perfectly all right with me, as I decided to look
at a tape showing a courageous football player coming back from being paralyzed
almost a year to the day.
Watching
Adam Taliaferro running onto the football field, I was moved to tears because
it was something to celebrate. It also helped me realize that things
happened before September 11…good things, things to smile about.
What jumped into my mind included seeing sisters Venus and Serena Williams
face each other in the U.S. Open Tennis finals, Barry Bonds' pursuit of
the home run record, and the madness of college basketball in the month
of March.
By that
Friday night, the news to me had actually become repetitive, and I was
ready for a change in the scenery. I was so happy to see Digimon
on Saturday morning, which meant things were actually starting to return
to normal…in a new sense of the word.
When I
returned to work the following Monday, I wondered if the people at work
knew about what happened, as I assumed they didn't know until the afternoon.
The supervisor said that they saw everything happen live, since the plant
manager had a television set in his office.
Three weeks
after that day, I was finally able to solve my writing crisis, thanks to
watching a Sailor Moon S DVD and looking through the Sailor Moon
Art Book. Even though I was working on a different story at that
time, at least I could write again.
I understood
that I needed to get on with my life, starting with not thinking too much
about September 11. The events would forever be a part of me, but
I wouldn't let them stop me from living. If only I could have gotten
Mom to stop nagging the news on me, though…
The End
This is my own perspective about 09/11. I didn't want to get into far too much detail about the events, as it would have been upsetting to some. Like I have always done, I like to reflect my feelings through what I write. I am living my life as normally as possible, and accepting that what has happened can't be changed but can be put into perspective about how precious life really is.
