Hi everyone! This is my first fanfic I hope first chapter is interesting! If there are any mistakes please let me know. Smut fans please be patient! :D Unfortunately I don't own Fairy Tail or any of its characters! ;( (why, oh why...)

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'Home, sweet home' I thought after finally getting through the door of my apartment. I left my luggage on the couch and headed to the bathroom just to make sure that he is not around. Even though I knew that I supposed to be proud of him and thankful for all he did for me during „The Ground Magic Tournament", I couldn't bring myself to look him in the eyes. The moment I realized I'm in love with Natsu I was neither happy, nor sad. I was ashamed of myself.

I used to think that he is too carefree and his actions are illogical, but in fact my life would be meaningless mess without his presence. I owe him so much and it's so frustrating. How is this possible that I still want more? He gave me his friendship, saved my life few times, introduced me to my new family, gave me a chance to fulfill my dream of becoming wizard and instead of supporting him and doing my best to repay for his kindness I constantly bring him more trouble. „I am so pathetic" I said to myself and chuckled, while looking at the ceiling. 'I need to find a way to solve this problem. I should think about it carefully, I can't hurt Natsu. I need his friendship more than air. I have to talk to him. He deserve honesty.' I thought and decide to take some time alone to prepare for confrontation with the most unpredictable man on the edge. I quickly cleaned my bedroom, ate dinner and took shower. I had to talk with my comrades from Fairy Tail. If I don't explain them that I need some privacy, they will just interfere sooner or later. I sighed at the memory of my friends appearing at my house without invitation.

When I arrived at the guild, I was worried that I may have to face him already, but hopefully he wasn't there. I quickly approached Erza.

- Hey, Erza! Can I ask you for a favor?

- Of course Lucy. What is it?

- I need some time alone to think. Could you please make sure that no one would visit me until I solve my problems? It is really important matter and I want to face it alone. I promise to explain it to you after everything is over.

- Are you sure you don't want to talk now? You know I will do my best to help you. Do you want me to keep an eye on Natsu and Grey?

- I'm really sorry I don't want to talk about it yet. Please repeat to both of them what I told you.

- No problem. I wish I could help. - she promised to me and smiled lightly, but it was obvious that she was worried. I felt incredibly happy about my friend concern and hugged her.

- Thank you very much. I'm sorry I made you worried. I promise to fix things as quick as possible. - I said and smiled at her. After conversation with my beloved Titania, I sat next to Levy and explained my future actions. She was also surprised and worried, but she respected my decisions.

I left the guild as soon as I could, hoping that Natsu will talk to Erza before coming to my house. While I was walking, I came to conclusion that I should make up my mind in at least two days. I hoped not to worry my nakama too much.

I spend whole day thinking about Natsu, my feelings for him and this urge to express them. Just one and half a day passed since I last had seen him and I was already missing him. When have I become such impatient and greedy person? I scratched my head and suddenly realized something. 'I am a member of the strongest guild in Fiore. I have overcome so many troubles. I'm not going to cowardly sit here, I will take up this challenge.' In one moment I felt strong and ready to make things clear. Our friendship will last even if he doesn't return my feelings. Also I would rather be sure we're not meant to be together, than keep on having false hope.

Since I didn't want to show up at the guild yet I summoned Loke and asked if he can find Natsu and deliver my message. Thankfully he didn't mind. He took a piece of paper from me and quickly went out smiling suspiciously. After less than five minutes Natsu came through the window. That shocked me a bit and before I could say anything, he was already sitting on my bed, smiling to me.

- Hey, Luce! Is everything alright already? - he asked cheerfully.

- A-almost. - 'Did I stutter!? Why am I so scared!' - How Loke found you so quickly?

- I was outside your house. Just making sure that you're safe. - he explained calmly and blushed a bit. 'How is it possible that he is so cute yet so dangerous?'

- I made dinner. Would you like to eat with me?

- You don't need to ask! - he happily answered my question and before I started walking towards the kitchen he was already there.

We ate in silence. Actually he was eating. I was just playing with food. When he finally ended his meal, he asked me:

- What has actually happened? Why didn't you talk to me earlier? - I guess he was disappointed.

- I have no idea how should I explain it properly. I think the easiest way would be to start from the very beginning. - I looked at him, but he remained silent. - Natsu, are you in love with Lisanna? - I couldn't bring myself to continue to look at him. I was staring at the table, hoping to never here any answer.

- You know... - he paused, took a breath and slowly continued - To be honest I never gave it much thought. I'm not the type to fall in love. I... There are so many things I want to do. I dedicated my life to adventure, not to family life or romances. I think. I'm just not responsible enough I suppose. - he was so honest with me. 'He is out of my league.' I thought and bit my bottom lip to prevent myself from crying. - Why do you ask me about it?

- You see... - I started to tremble lightly. - Natsu I consider you my best friend. You are strong, smart, caring and handsome I just couldn't help my feelings. I fell in love with you. I may act strange in the future. I wanted you to know about it. I would do my best to hide it, but I want you to be aware of the situation. After all we're friends. - I looked him in the eyes. I was proud of myself that I was honest, even though my heart ached a bit. It seemed he was embarrassed. He was looking at me blushing with mouth opened. He needed time to understand my confession and I was patient enough to wait.

- Luce, I... - he paused and covered his face with hands. - I need time. I'm sorry. - He got up and went out not turning around.

I didn't have strength to get up, so I stayed in the kitchen. I cried, while wondering if I'm still part of Team Natsu, hoping to still be friends with my first love.