(I don't own Inuyasha! I've made some changes and I really need a beta)
June 21st
'Why?' was the only thought that ran thought the girls mind as she look out the window to the darkened sky that opened up and let heavens tears descend. A single tear escaped and ran down her cheek but didn't stop there, more and more fell. Yet she made not a sound simply starred blankly out at the night, asking her self 'why?' but never receiving an answer. And as the night drowned on the heavens continued to weep for the girls' torn soul.
One week later-
'Happiness is good health and a poor memory. Or denial, denials good.' she thought with a bitter smile. 'I wonder why He hasn't come and gotten me. Sight he's probable with her, the female Naraku. Then again he could be in his tree.' She blinked back her tears and wiped the cynical smile off her face. 'Why dose every thing remind me of him' she looked down to her unfinished homework then to her book 'History of Japan' sweat drop 'OK-that doesn't count' pushing her books aside and leaning back in her chair she came to a conclusion. 'Nothing is going to change unless I do something about. And I refuse to sit back and let myself be hurt again. So either I tell him, I don't and seal the well permanently, going back and doing nothing is not an option. Or a combination, tell him and leave…Damn that jewel it is the root of all evil or is that power, but the jewel gives you power….I need caffeine.' With that conclusion she left only to retune with a 6-pack of cream sodas and a bag of cotton candy.
"Nice breakfast, Can it be breakfast if it's 2 in the morning? Well it's breakfast some where in the world."
Some time between 4 and 6 in the morning (meaning she fell asleep some where in between). The sun began to rise above the horizon. As the light hit the slumbering teen's face her eyes began to open to the new day. Looking around she wonder when she had fallen asleep. For she was in a rather uncomfortable spot on her window seal, with her math book in her lap. 'I have no more tears to cry. Even if I did I wound not let them fall he has made his chose and if he's happy then I wont stand in his way.' She thought with a sad smile. 'Why me' she eyed the geometry book suspiciously 'I can hack my way in to in computer system across the world but can't get geometry' she sighs 'sure make a lot of sense'. Looking to the rising son she begins to whisper to her self.
'The sunrise brings forth the beginning of a new day. It doesn't matter what happened yesterday or the day before. You can always start over. Mistakes can be forgotten and lives can begin again. Sometimes I just want to forget it. But I can't, because if I did I would forget all my friends and him, even if he is a bastared (ahhh that works on so many levels). I could never forget him no matter what. Besides how can I know if I'm truly happy if I don't know what it's like to be sad? OK that's a load of crap but hell I have to come up with something to make myself fell better…then again there is always death by chocolate ice-cream, and I must say not a bad way to go. I needed a reason to make a new start, anyway a new start would be a good thing, I think.'
The girl stud up took a deep breath to compost her self. 'First things first a hot bath and Simi-decent breakfast, and a tight top and short skirt. And on to the mall' With her plan in mind she when into her bather connected to her room and stared a bath bubbles and all. 'Now what was that saying… If you love something, set it free, If it doesn't return then it was never meant to be. Yeah that's it, but I'm starting to think that him and how ever came up with "The truth shall set you free" where ether heavily medicated, on drugs or drooped repeatedly on there head as a child. Great I'm talking to myself, lovely' Striping out of her clothes from yesterday she settles down into the nice bath, and for the first time in a while she began to relax, well tried to. "I suppose I wont worry about my mental health until I hear voice some where besides my head- like my leg, then I'll check my self in to the nut house"
Everything was quite save the slight swish of the water ever now and then. 'Who the hell I'm I kidding I love him and that's not going away. I can't just put it out of my mind and suddenly be happy. Damn my heart, I just had to falling for the one I can't have.' She blinked back tears from her eyes that are shadowed with heartbreak. 'Why can't you love me, Why do you chose her over me?' She bit her lip to keep from crying. 'I won't cry, I wont!' She began to sing softly to her self.
Ate monaku sama yotte ita
Tegakari monaku sagashi tsuzuketa
Anata ga kureta omoi de o
Kokoro o iyasu uta nishite
Yakusoku mo suru koto monaku
Kawasu koto bamo kimetari mosezu
Dakishime soshite tashika mete
Hibiwa nido to kaeranau
Kioku no naka no te ofuru anata wa
Watashi no namae o yobuko toga deki runo
Afureru sono namida o
Kagaya kuyuu kini kaete
Inochi wa tsuzuku
Yoruo koe uta gau koto nonai
Ashitare totsuzuku
Tobu tori no mukou no sorade
Ikutsu no kioku azuke tada rou
Hakanai kibou mo yume mo
Todokanai basyo ni wasurete
Meguri aunowa guuzen toi e runo?
Wakareru toki ga kanarazu kuru noni
Kieyuku unmei demo
Kimi ga ikiteiru kagiri
Inochi watsuzuku
Eien ni sono chikara no kagiri
Doko made mo
Watashi ga shinou tomo
Kimi ga ikiteiru kagiri
Inochi watsuzuku
Eien ni sono chikara no kagiri
Doko made mo tsuzuku
"Sota plays to many Video games…. Even I know their theme songs."
Getting out she brushed her teeth, dried and brushed her hair, got dressed and it was off to the mall.
She walked into the one of the mini salons in the mall. She nervously sat down as her lavender eyes glancing around. ' This is it I said that a change was in order this is simply the next steep, taking out contacts was the fist now my hair then the outfit.'
"So moi cheery, what are we doing today?" asked a middle aged woman with a slight French accent.
"I-I don't know" She answered truthfully.
"Well why don't you tell me why you're here?" she asked kindly
"Well, I need a change…"
"Boy trouble?"
"How did you know?" asked slightly shocked teen. The woman gave a kind laugh
"Dear I've been doing hair for a long time, and I've seen it all. Just yesterday a young girl about your age came in and said the same thing" she paused.
"But then again she did it to get the attention of another young girl." 'So this is the lady Usagi was talking about' (Sailor Moon not mine).
"I know" her thoughts where interrupted
"Your hair is much to pretty to cut so how about we do a couple highlights?" she nodded.
"By the way, my names Babbet."
"I'm Kagome" With a smile the two began talking like old friends. Kagome told her all about Inuyasha and Kikyou…except, Inuyashsa's just a boy, Kikyou is just another bitch ex and as far as Babbet new they meet a year and a half ago, she assumed through school, and about the wired dream she had last night.
As she talked to Babbet she realized that she didn't truly love Inuyasha that way, he was more like a brother. But that didn't stop her heart from hurting from what he did.
With a good bye and good luck Kagome went clothes shopping. She left with 20 bags. 3 full of shoes (2 pairs of ten-a-shoes, 2 pairs of boots 1 combat 1 set fashion boots, a pair of dancing shoes and a pair of pumps.). 4 bags from Hot Topics, 1 containing jeweler, 2 full of clothes, and one that has a Gothic Hello Kitty a present for a friend. She had 2 more bags with various accessories and 1 full of make up, well lip glosses, eye shadows and glitter. The other 10 bags where full of close form various stores.
When Kagome finally arrived home she was well, existed to say the lest. Going up to her room she set her bags down. Turning on her CD player she put on the soundtrack Queen of the Damned (only 'cause that's what I'm currently listening to) and turned it up as loud as it would go. Normally she would only do that with her headphones on but every one was visiting annuity Bell in the states so she didn't care.
Next she garbed the bags with the accessories, boots and clothes from Hot Topics. She took out the combat boots a pair of black low riser boot cut jeans with a chain that rapped around her waist. She pulled out a nave blue t-shirt with the words 'How to Add Insult to Injury' below it was three pictures the first: 2 stick figures one in front of a soccer goal net the other with a soccer ball. The next pic was of the stick figure kicking the ball and the last was of the goaly stick figure kneeling in pain from being hit in the groan with the ball and the kicker saying "and you ugly". (ever one get that?)
"It's time." She said to her self but didn't quite know how true that statement really was.
She packed her bag with: a couple pair jeans, a few shirts and her unmentionables. As well as a bikini, her new shoes, toiletries, some food, a mini camp-grill set est. Where not quite sure how she got all of this in the black back pack, still able to pick it up and not have the seems rip, just on of those life mysteries. She hesitated at her journal questioning where to bring it or not. Flipping through it she stopped on the second to the last entry:
'Flashback'-
Kagome sat by the campfire. Staring into the flames as they danced in a seduced belt that only few truly appreciate. Tearing her eyes away she looked around. Miroku was yet again unconscious. Sango was cleaning her gain boomerang thing (AN: can some one tell me what that's called?). Shippo was asleep curled up with Kirara. 'Awww there so cute' and Inuyasha was sitting in the tree grumpy as ever. 'Why Inuyasha?' she asked silently, one hand subconsciously raised her hand to her cheek. Sighing she picked up her journal and began to write.
Dear Lady Mikel, March 19th
I know not how much longer I can take this. He's hurt me to badly this time. So I'm going to leave to night, when every one is asleep, and Inuyasha goes to see Kikyou. I shall leave to go home. But this time I'm not sure if I'll be coming back. All he's ever done is lie to me, and hurt me. Weather on propose or not, I just can't take it any more.
You said you'd protect me,
But I wonder is it because you think I'm her.
Are eyes lock,
Do you see me or her?
You flash a sexy smile,
Do you smile at me or who you want me to be?
Love begins with a smile,
I fell for you smile.
Alone in the forest,
And you draw me near.
You protect me but not from your self.
I gave you me heart
And now all I have is tears.
Does loving you always ends with in tears.
Never say you love me,
When you do not really care
Never talk of feelings,
That aren't really there
Never squeeze my hand,
If you intend to break my heart.
Never tell me forever,
If you ever plan to part.
Never look me in the eye,
If you are going to lie.
Never say "hello"
If you will ever say goodbye.
Never say that I am the only one
If you dream of more than me,
Of the one you say I use to be.
Never lock up my heart
If you do not have the key.
You ignored what I told you
Now my heart is frozen to you.
I can never forget,
What you said that fateful day.
The way your eyes shined
Oh how you held me close
You said you loved
But you didn't really care
You told me how much you cared
But the feeling weren't truly there
You squeezed my hand
And then proceeded to broke my hart
Forever is forever no shorter then that
But you decided to part
You told me so many lies
As you gazed into my eyes
You said "hello"
But then you walked on by
You promised too never to say goodbye
You told me things you did not mean,
You dreamed of others, who were not me
I can not find the key to my heart
For you took it with you from the start
You left me alone in the end
And now that my heart is broken,
So many words left unspoken
I need someone
To hold me
To help me
To fight this evil that now controls who I am
To re-melt my frozen heart
To show me love once again
That someone I know see is not you
For you left me
When you said you wouldn't
You did not care
Even as you said you did
What am I supposed to do?
I searched for help
For love and happiness
Some one to mend this broken heart of mine
Is there any one who can?
Will I find them in time?
Or will my heart never mend?
Will I for ever be this way, alone and cold?
Am I destined to be forever alone?
-Kagome
'This is it. This is my good bye. I can't be hurt by you again. I wont be hurt bay you again.'
Kagome closed her journal and waited. An hour and a half later she stood at the lip of the well, she looked back into the dense forest, "Good bye Inuyasha" With that she walked a way, unaware of what lies in wait for her true destiny begins today.
'' End Flashback ''
A lonely tear ran done her check as she through her journal on top, closed her back and wrote a note to her mother:
Dear Mother,
I'm going back, but I'm afraid that I won't be back until I've finished what I've started.
I'm sorry but this is something I must do. I love you, please understand.
Please tell Sota and grandpa I love then both.
With all me love,
-Kagome
Leaving the note in a place where her mom was sure to find it, she made her way to the well.
(-Dilemma what color should her hair be:
Sliver, with would only make its seem sparkly.
White, because it's the opposite of black so obviously it would stand out.
Lavender 'cause that's the color of her eyes.
Lilacs, to highlight her eyes.
Violet, to contrasted her eyes.
Pink, to through of her inter look and because it works well with every thing else.
Person blue….I don't have a reason I just like that color ( Hiro Yui's eye color).
Or whatever color you think would works.
Problem two- who should she be with (Inuyasha is not an option),
A new charter,
Sesshomaru-sama,
Kouga,
Naraku,
Or someone else that I haven't thought of.
Miroku is going to be with Sango, unless requested change.
Problem three should she be with the person in the past or in the future)